Hi guys! I’m here again and this time I will tell a truth about myself. I like white girls, only white women, not mexicans, no asians, only beautiful white girls. Elliot Rodger liked white girls too even though he was half white. The problem is that I’m fucking short, only 5’5”. Shit, man! I’m too short for white women, because they are usually 5’7” or more. That’s why I couldn’t date a girl and I’m still a virgin at 22. I’m too alone and always think in suicide. Slit my throat and end this pathetic life. I feel so miserable everyday because I have no friends […]
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(Warning, this is sorta long and it may trigger things for some people. Bex, isn’t a real person. Bex is just something I used to make this easier to write. Whether or not you read this is up to you, I just felt it time to put it out there.)
Dear Bex,
Why do we blame ourselves for the shit that happens, when it’s we who are the victims?
Why do we try to act like nothing has happened, when the events are life changing?
Why do we hide beneath our own humiliation, when it’s they who should be humiliated?
Just why..?
This is something I’ve […]
I was once a nice sweet guy, great sense of humor, a tad weird, and a self proclaimed romantic, I am 45 now, never had a true relationship, only had one woman in my life I ever truly loved.
I lived in Massachusetts all my life. And over the years in my search for the love of my life, I have found that from the time of birth women have been told that men are pigs, scum, and jerks, etc. On the other hand women are supposed to be the sweetest things, sensitive and caring, affectionate creatures.
I tried many tactics to entice a woman’s attention, from […]
Hi, nobody’s even gonna read this but I guess it’s better to let it out.
I’m Lara, I live in the UK. I have a loving family, good friends and a pretty great life. I have a lot more than I need and i’m very grateful for what I have. But something just isn’t right. For two years now, i’ve been having thoughts of suicide and have been inflicting pain on myself. I don’t feel the pain anymore. Around the time I started having these thoughts, my friend was diagnosed with slight depression and bipolar disorder but her mood swings were far less severe than mine. […]
Where do I begin………..
Well my mom gave birth to me when she was about 18 or 19. From what she tells me my real dad is a low life dick(excuse my language). Anyways I resently got in contact with him. Things where going great in my life. I had straight A’s, I was very popular, very pretty, guys would fight over me,…….until my 8th grade year. The 1st day back to school was OK, after that everything turned to shit. I started to realize who my true friends were, and that school was the most important thing in my life. In the middle of the […]
So wait is every suicidal person a mopey 14 who’s still a virgin what the hell is so wrong with the damned world that children want to die really what in fucks name is going on with the world.
i want to die soooo bad, i think about it all the time now. i’ve been thinking about shooting myself in the head, i’ll put the gun in my mouth to make sure i dont survive. yep, thats how i want to die, i have officially chosen my exit plan. im not sure on when im going to do it, but its probably going to be soon. hopefully before anyone suspects me of being suicidal again. right now, everyone thinks im fine, that im doing great, but on the inside, im despising every single minute of living. i have gotten used to being suicidal for […]
Why is it now that I am faced with my past and what I have done? Why couldn’t it have happened earlier or later? I was already in a state of some sort of depression, and now this? I don’t understand, and I am now carrying the famous ‘ball and chain’ my father has spoken of many times in the past. I have set my goals and made plans, but I thought that’s all there was to it, besides the occasional struggle (people judging you, speaking against you, blah blah blah). I thought that people around me would be my struggle on the path to […]
Hey guys. I guess I’m here to vent. That’s all this really is, but I need it regardless. I’m a pretty popular guy at school. A junior in high school. I get along with everyone, but I just can’t seem to be happy. I have absolutely no ambition. I have no will to live, and I have no will to succeed. I go to school. I get along. I make jokes. People laugh at my jokes. I go home. I don’t talk to my parents. My pride has ruined our respective relationships, but I don’t regret it. My pride is one of the only things […]
Hello, I am a 16 heats old boy from norway. I have during the past year been wondering on wether or not my life is worth living. I have all my life been interested and engaged in looks and beauty stuff (I am 100% straight). i just care how i look. lately, the last year i have been bothered with my looks. i wont go into specifics because that is not relevant. I simply cant imagine myself living a life as the person I am. when i look around i can hardly find anyone id rather not be. im not extremely ugly, many or some might find […]
I am sick inside. Alone, overwhelmed, confused, and filled with hatred for myself and regret for my life. I should never have been born. I told my dad that once, and he said it was an insult to him and to my mother. The funny thing was, he said it as if he thought it wasn’t meant to be. Well, it was. They were too young for kids when they had me. They were irresponsible, and their own parents were irresponsible. And you can probably trace it all the way back to the Stone Age. Too many people who had no business raising kids. And […]
It’s the one thing that i’ve always wanted to be. Pretty and perfect. When i was a little girl, i was pretty and happy. No one every told me that i’m ugly or did anything to make me sad. But now, I’ve turned into some ogre just wanting to burst out. Every time i see someone pretty, i get really jealous and just wanting to hide away. All of my friends are really pretty and it’s hard to know that you’re the odd one out, the only one that’s ugly. On those 2 days of the week, when i have P.E (sport days), i get […]
So there I was, a couple days back – sitting alone thinking oncemore about how shitty my life is (I’m in my 20’s, have a university degree, but no one will give me a job, im lacking in major social skills and have never had a GF – still a virgin and havent had any friends for years). 90% of my time outside of my house has been to the Doctor or my Therapist.
To digress, I’m sitting here and decide to “take some pills” (i wont detail everything). I take a few (slightly more than Ive done before just when Ive felt bad), then I […]
Okay so here the turth im not a virgin even though everyone in my family thinks i am so i was 13 when i was put on birth control because my grandma thought i should be incase and she thought i was a virgin but i was then about a month later i was at school and started cramping really bad so i go to the nurses off then she call my grandma and tells her she thinks im having a miscarrge my grandma cursed her out the turth is it was true i didnt know i was preg and i was young and stuipd […]
I was home schooled till i was 12, and my father left my mom when i was 8 (i used to see him weekends, then holidays, now i rarely see or talk to him). which is what i can only assume caused me to be so fucked up. once i got to highschool, my first semester i got expelled for threatening a kid with a knife for picking on me. which caused me to lose my only close friend.. after switching schools i was a loner for the most part, i had a group of friends i hung out with, but i was that one […]
I can’t breathe. Simple as.
I am so desperately lonely all the time that it hurts, it physically hurts. I’m a 22 years old girl, I’m a virgin, I’ve kissed 2 guys in my entire life. I don’t ever know if it’s guys I’m into, not like I’ll find out anytime soon because I haven’t had enough experience to figure that part out yet.
I’ve been bullied since I can remember. I’m ugly, just genuinely not good looking, and it has been the reason behind my bullying. When I was 10 boys used to call me smash face. In class as a teenager people used call my […]
I started cutting in 5th grade. I always thought of trying to commet suicide but I was always to scared to try because i thought how will my parents feel ? When i got in the 6th grade things got worse I moved to a new town and my parents got divored and I didnt know anyone in this town, but i knew one person and they knew me to but not in a good way. It all started on facebook I met him and he looked cute but I never met him in person so I thought I would lie to my friends and […]
I’m closing up shop. I tried to get back what I had, but the doctors told me I can’t. So I’m going back on olanzapine. Back to being a fat piece of crap who can barely string a coherent sentence together. I came off it because I thought it had done it’s job at stabilising my depression. Now I have psychosis. I had hoped that by coming off it I’d lose the weight and become attractive again, thereby getting a girlfriend, but I guess not wanting to be alone or a virgin anymore after 23 years doesn’t cut the mustard.
I’m not sure why I […]
1. i have CAPD (central auditory processing dissorder)
2. im bipolar
3. im bulimic
4. i cut myself everyday
5. im highly suicidal
6. the principal is like my best friend
7. i have no friends
8. i hide who i really am
9. im totally weird! haha!
10. i have a bf..
11. im not a virgin (of course ive been hurt a lot)
12. ive been raped 8 times
13. my family hates me
14. i was almost bullied to death
15. i almost commit suicide at school but the principal saved me
16. i wish i was beautiful
17. i wish i […]
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