I recently watched the documentary, The Bridge; it was about suicides from the Golden Gate Bridge in San Francisco over about a year. The film has been both praised as illuminating and criticized as exploitative. The only thing I know is that, as effective suicide rates go, jumping from a great height (“from a greeaaaaattttteeee height”, as Radiohead would put it) is highly successful. We have a local bridge in PA that has a higher clearance the the GGB. Now more than ever I want to jump from it.
want
I should do it without thinking. I can’t live like this!!!!! After the last several weeks, thought we were getting closer, he even asks if I could be fwb, then now it’s no I don’t want to come see you but I want your paycheck to help me out instead, and again with this that it hurts him that I love him. I need to just fucking kill myself!!!
It does not matter…
… What i say
… What i do
… How hard i try
… How much i beg
I cant change a person.
We are who we want to be.
I cant live like this anymore…
I dont want to live like this anymore.
Im not crazy…
Im just really tired of hurting…
Im just really tired of fighting for nothing.
I found myself here while googling suicide by carbon monoxide poisoning.
I’m almost 40 years old. I have always thought of suicide but never brave enough to do it. Some people really don’t belong here on earth and I know I am one of them. As I get older I realise it will happen, just don’t know when. I don’t want to die, I just don’t want to live anymore.
It is winter here and I’m hearing on the news about accidental carbon monoxide deaths, like bringing in a charcoal bbq to keep warm.
I thinkk this is my preferred method. Has anyone had a failed attempt?
Ah crap. […]
I’ve been in a place where I didn’t want to be here like I was in every ones way like I had no place to fit In… I still am, but many people that have the most perfect life, family, friends, relationship. don’t understand why we cut our wrist why we starve ourselves why we lock our self up for no one to see just to be alone forever. Nobody knows how many times we cry in our rooms when no ones watching…This lifestyle that we are in isn’t a choice we didn’t want this for our self or for anyone but perfect people […]
On how to conquer alcohol addiction. I usually drink about 8 ounces of hard liquor and about four 8% beers. When I don’t drink my body and my heart starts to feel weird and I don’t want to go through withdrawals as it is one the only ones that can be fatal. Someone please give me some help on how I can wean myself away from this liquid devil. I’ve been drinking for about 10 years. Off and and On super heavy but as of late really heavy.
I hope there isn’t. After I die, whether it happens tomorrow or in 60 years, I don’t want to exist in any way, shape, or form.
If I see somebody on hear talking about killing themselves I of course think about the method. Hm I say wow why would this 15 year old want to take a bottle of tylonol. “That’s awful. Hey don’t use tylonol kid…it just kills your liver and you go thru a week of organ failure regretting your attention seeking shit or really wishing you were dead already. Slow and horrible or quick and painless. Suicide is a choice. It’s the ultimate choice. The only choice you make by and for yourself. I believe in choice. I also believe almost nobody chooses slow and terrible as a […]
I want to die. Can i please just die i’ve been suicidal since i was 11 and i just want to die i’ve tried to commit suicide before but i was unseccesful i wish my brother hadn’t walked in. If he didn’t then all my pain would be gone.
Like still, in the realm
From the flow
Like it’s all my fault
The Sun shines, but oh-no
We don’t got a boat but a raft
Holy, I don’t want to be
Tomorrow too late, only
What happened to the circle
How do we take it back, to one
I injured thou pincer
I guess I hope, that you got my lost bottle of messages
Maybe, from the voice of Espeon, go play with Umbreon
Horsea, and which is he
Today, i’ve tried to hang myself…
I think i’m gonna try again once i’m drunk enough, i don’t know if this is a cry for help…
Or maybe is just a warning… Fuck it
i’ve tried, i think i’m gonna hang myself in a sheet…
i’m drinking right now, smoking…
today i’ve used 1,5g of coke…
i’m feeling like i don’t have a place here, i think i am a problem…
no one cares, i just want to die…
i don’t want to be a deception anymore…
i’m sitting here for hours and crying… sip by sip… cigarette after cigarette…
my neck hurts from my […]
I just don’t know what I have and I wished I never had visited that doctor. She said that I had “too much anxiety for normal situations”. I had social anxiety and she couldn’t even say that name to my face. Then at home I searched about it because I didn’t trust her and I found out that possibly I had depression too, and now I can have BPD too. And at this point and just don’t know if what I feel is truly real or maybe I get all the diseases I read about. I don’t know what is real and what is not. […]
Hey there! Anybody here from Sweden or Finland who would want to talk about suicide or suicidal thoughts? Just asking! If there is, please email me at Tomialatalo@inbox.com Thats all!
Have a nice day!
I posted my thoughts about this a few months ago and still come back to them…. It is not that I want to die, but it is that I just want to disappear from the world around me and from myself. I would no longer have too deal with the things that bother me, and in time, anyone who would miss me will get past it…. As for disappearing from myself, I just want to be in a permanent sleep state…..That would be wonderful…. I tend to visit good memories in my sleep and I hope that would be […]
So I found out that I possibly have Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) and everything makes sense now. And I just want to kill myself because I just don’t know what is real and what is not. And I don’t want to live in this hell for the rest of my life.
I am not quite sure if I have it, but I have almost all symptoms and I fit every description of a person with BPD. I have mood swings, the “I hate you, don’t leave me, It’s your fault, I love as a brother…”, the getting angry for small things, the obsessions, paranoia, easily getting […]
I just want to hide behind a brick wall because I’m ugly and useless and pathetic. I am incapable of it all. I try to forget the pains those people never knew but old faded scars are literally hurting me. And I just want to hide. Maybe that way I won’t have to look at my dead end future.
Everyone tells me that I had no choice, and that it wasn’t my fault. They said I did a lot more than what most would do. But I don’t feel that way, because I took her there. I am fully responsible for her death. I am to blame. It was my fault. I was supposed to take care of her, but instead, I sent her away. She died because of me.
It was horrible and heartbreaking why they decided to put her down. It shattered me.
I was going back for her, I couldn’t stand it that she was there. I was waiting for […]
Ive pondered suicide countless time and time again but somehow i never can go though with it. I feel so alone and in such a big world where no one else is like me. Everyone is either to good for me or doesnt want anything to do with me. I try so hard to put a smile on my face everyday and please and brighten everyone eleses days around me yet somehow i never get the same in return. I dont want to sound like a brat because i knew many people are so much worse off then i amci just cant stop […]
Would be nice to be dead.
And I hope that it will happen soon.
I never really had a chance to regain my life.
Once you’ve been down, you stay down.
Some make it back up, some just don’t.
I’ve been struggling for the last two years to regain pieces of me that were. But no such luck.
Hurting myself in the ways I do is the only way I know how.
Do you ever get this feeling when one moment you’re completely fine, and the next, you feel like a knife stabbed you in the heart and all you want to do is crumple up and cry?