I am worthless.
Please just someone kill me. Please.
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I have been diagnosed with depression recently. It took one trigger to bring back the feelings of isolation, loneliness and rejection from the past. To make it worse, my lack of self-worth underpins all of this and I feel like it will never get better. I am actually afraid of making new friends or forming new relationships because I fear rejection that much.
What perpetuates it is that I am an atheist within a Muslim family and community. If I come out about it, I face rejection from everyone. So I have to hide who I am and pretend to pray. This in itself makes me […]
Just those typical brain clouds again, swirling around, filled with negativity, hopelessness, death. I’m fantasizing about something I shouldn’t be but I just can’t help it. It’s not about beating my thoughts anymore, I’ve come to the conclusion that they are simply just there, and they will stay there most likely. It’s almost a peaceful feeling knowing that something is out of your control and you just have to accept it. They come and go, I try not to dwell on them but there are those times where I am just consumed. That is when I feel the most lost, when I am a victim […]
I’m stressed again. I feel so worthless. What am I doing. I should’ve died like 8 years ago, I wish I did. I was young and didn’t try hard enough. Why can’t I end it now.
The time has come for this worthless trash to go….this might be one hell of a lame post considering my skills at writting ( at everything in fact ).
Anyway, how should I even start ? By the truth maybe, I’m a 21 years old loser who disagree with the meaning of his life. I always lived a loser’s life as far as I recall, but childhood innocence (I guess ) prevented me from realizing it, ignorance is bliss after all, starting as an hyperactive, but outgoing kid able to make friends, to a slowly (but surely) shying away teenager, and adult too for that matter, […]
They think you’re crazy,
they think you’re mad.
They call you stupid,worthless,
tell you you’re not worth it.
Now you’re walking back,
to a place you call home,
but you feel so alone.
The same hurtful hits,
it’s your darker place.
In your virgin ears,
the remarks they make.
And if they knew, if they really knew
all of those things.
That you do in your room,
to hide the pain.
I bet their minds would change.
I’ll bet their minds would change.
They’d change,if they knew the pain.
Hello whoever is reading this.
I hope your life, day, week, hasnt been shitty like some people on here. I know i shouldnt sound so selfish but god i cant take any of this anymore. Does anyone understand how hard it is looking in the mirror HATING what you see? because trust me i know the feeling. You look in the mirror and all your fears just get bottled up and thrown at you, right? I dont know if its just me, or society creating this image in my head of how i should look. I am 5’7 and weigh 128.2 pounds. i use to weigh […]
I wish I were dead. I wish that, every single hour of every single day. I can’t actually do it myself. I can’t bring myself to be the one to do that to my parents. They wouldn’t understand, they would think it was their fault. In truth, I am privileged to have the parents that I do. It never feels like enough. I’m 28 years old, I’m single. And not just normal single, like, still a virgin, never even been kissed or asked out on one single, solitary date. Pathetic. Its driving me crazy. When I was younger my mom used to joke to her friends […]
Night is basically my very own poison of the mind time. It is where all my demons like to hide and plan all the ways they are going to attack me. It is the time when my mind likes to remind me that I am worthless, pointless, useless, hopeless, and unwanted. It is also the time I make all my suicide plans.
The future is bleak for me. If ever I’m still hanging to this thin thread of existence I won’t be doing it for me. But then again, what’s my worth that I feel the need to stay for other people? All I bring is pain and hurt for other people. I am just a worthless peace of garbage, a malfunctioning half corpse that is better off dead.
I’m at wits end. I don’t deserve anything. I don’t deserve happiness. I don’t deserve a job I can live off of. I don’t deserve a place to live. I don’t deserve love. I don’t deserve anything apparently. I try so hard, but I’m worthless, useless, ugly, no one would ever want me. I know I shouldn’t do this but I want to prove that I’m right, and show you just what an ugly, hideous, wretched monster I am. I’m not mad at the person I love. I’m mad at the universe or any higher power that made me this way. Why make me dream […]
i’m really devestated even though many good things happined during the last periode of my life (i succeeded in finals and i’m gonna go to college ) but none of that made me feel better i still feel like i’m a looser and worthless person even though i see no reason why i should feel like that but i’m so paranoid i can’t trust anyone and i feel like no one love me they are all pretending..how could any one love or even like someone like me and i can”t make good relationships with girls cause whenever a girl date me and be nice to […]
I’m a little bit new to this whole blogging my feelings thing, but i can’t keep it to myself anymore. I hate myself, i dont know how or wen i did, or i think maybe i always have. I dont think ive ever been happy. When I was really little it was me my mom my dad and my little brother. I always try and remember my childhood as being happy and i’m always that one person to point out the good in any situation, but it’s time i tell the truth. My dad was a rug addict. my dad did crack and cocaine and […]
I feel so sad , worthless and they look so happy. My worse days has been started from today.What I was fearing has been happened and I am feeling depressed, crying like and hopeless.I needs to die. I am thinking to jump in front of the train and hopes that I will die.
I’ve been depressed for over 9 years now. I can’t deal with this pain anymore. I have scars all over my body, and I want to add more so I can ignore my pain, just for a little bit. But, mostly, I just want it to end and the only way I know how to do that is if I kill myself. Then it will all stop! Right?
I’ve been bullied since day 1 of school, never had a good solid friend until i was about 10 years old, my mother passed away the day before I turned 12, and ever since then my depression […]
Sometimes I think I think too much. Actually, I know I think too much. What the fuck is this? Second post in like a week or something. Clearly I’m falling downhill, I made a strong vow to myself to not come back here and post unless I was in dire need of venting, and I guess I’m there.
1. Worried as hell about my new summer job, as I will miss a lot of other events I wanted to do this summer
2. Wanted to teach myself multiple languages this summer and can’t now because will be too busy
3. I’m ridiculously inadequate in terms of every single […]
Today has been worse than the last few weeks combined.
I texted with the closest thing I have to a friend today, and he gave me a very hard time about how I am feeling. He seems to think that I am selfish for being depressed, as if I chose it as a vocation. I have been very sad/sleepy/out of it for a couple of days, so I wasn’t very responsive to messages. We aren’t in the same state (let alone city), so it is usually just little back and forths. Never too pressing. Not as though we would be making plans or something.
Either way, he […]
Well I’ll start off with when it all started, about 5 years ago. I made the worst desicion of my life and I will still never tell anyone what happened. I got bullyed at school for years every single day. Nobody would give me a break. I regretted what I had done and everyday people treated me bad. I felt worthless. I stopped caring about everything because nobody cared about me. Only one of my cousins did. I started robbing houses, shoplifting etc. I would smoke weed and just get up to michief with my friends. I started getting in heaps of trouble with the […]
but its just so hard….. I suffer from manic depression and existential anxiety. two days ago, I stood by a main road and contemplated jumping in front of a car. my mind told me that I wanted to die, but it also told me that I might die, and I was afraid. my father ran to me and pulled me away. my mom is mainly the reason… she hits me and tells me im worthless. I don’t tell the authorities because every time I try my mom says that she know how to hit me in ways that wont leave a mark and that they […]
I’ve been suffering from the disease of depression for a while- my brother had it, my mom had it, and now I have it. More than once have I contemplated my suicide- I’m worthless, unattractive, stupid, mean, unloved, and pathetic. However, I have tried and tried and tried to look for ways to do it and I always come up without an answer. Clearly for me, the best way to go is consumption of pills- there are plenty of those in my house. However, I have heard of liver failures and such, and I’m so afraid that dying will be painful. I don’t want to […]