Everything hurts. The secrets I can’t tell anyone, and no one cares at all. Who do I turn to? How do I say the words to someone, someone I trust, that is going to make them understand? Who would I tell? Who can I trust? How do I get even one minute with them only three days before school is out? I’m going to die this summer. I don’t know what else to do. I can’t stand my life anymore, my mind… I have secrets that are killing me, literally. I’m going to die because I can’t take knowing the things I know. And even if I did summon the courage to tell someone, I’ll just hate that someone knows something about me like that who won’t be around forever. What do I do? And why can’t I find any answers? This hurts. The emotional pain is merging with the physical side of me, and I can’t stand it anymore. What other option is there for relief other than death? I have to die. I just hope suicide really won’t send me to hell.
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You don’t have to die, my dear. Be strong. You’ll get through this. You know… to be honest, things might not get better. They may even get worse! But if you give up now, then you’ll never have a chance to see if they do get better. Don’t kill yourself, dear. Not worth it.
Hello,
you should tell more about your condition. What happened? You can write it here.
If you need to say it to somebody, say it first aloud to yourself and listen to it. (if that sounds crazy to you, you can speak to a tree…). Maybe it changes something, maybe you will learn something.
It is not worth to die because of unspoken things, do you get the point?
Really not.
Maybe, as many people here you suffer from depression by which I mean unpleasant medical condition that can be healed. If I m right, even if you have something in your heart that make you pain – depression “exagerates” a lot – it says: it is not worth trying, it is really BAAAD and you are bad too and it never changes.
Try to find professional help, they are trained to hear different things, even hard ones, and are trained to help.
If one professional is of no help, find another.
Be the power with you, Hugo
Dearest Help,
I understand how it is to not be able to tell anybody the secrets that are held within you. I am the same way and I don’t know how to get rid of them. I have been contemplating suicide for the last 4 years and I’m only 17. I know how it feels to not be able to trust anyone and not be able to say anything. But we all need to get together and try and help each other be casue it’s not goingto get batter unless we do and trust me I’ve always thought it would never get better but it just might. Just know that there are more people out there like you…keep going stronge…
Do not kill yourself. But before you make your desision could you please tell us a bit of what this is about? It took a lot for me to say what is going on in my life. What happened to you?
I feel the same way. I have a lot of things weighing me down. I know things I shouldn’t know. I’m pretty suicidal about it too. It really hurts when there is no one that will listen. No one that would listen that would actually hear you out without freaking out or putting you in a psych ward (or, the worst thing possible, ignore and belittle your problems)… I know by experience. The thing that helps me is venting on places like these, telling strangers my secrets or my problems. Another thing that helps is cutting, but that’s another story. Better than hurting yourself is to let it all out. No one knows you on here, so you can tell us all your secrets. Who are we to judge? So go ahead, spill. I truly hope you feel better because I know how it feels.