The more I stroll the street or malls at night, seeing all the humans and couples and happy and dull faces of them,
the more I feel so distanced and separated..
Men in suits always looking oh so professional, with their seemingly chic I-Phones or Blackberry on their ears,
Women often with glamorous necklace, and latest/newest brand of bag,
Ads blaring everywhere you see, hear, and even approached by so-called “Sales girls”,
discount here, buy this, buy that, discount there,
You come out from movie theaters watching perhaps most fantastical & hypnotizing movies/films,
that you even freezes out and don’t feel like you want to get back into Real life,
‘cuz it’s so damn dull, bland,
and everyday repeats and repeats, seemingly without and end,
There are papers to fill,
constant bills to pay: phone bill, water bill, electricity bill, gas bill,
you work from early morning until night,
often in a job you hate too just because 80% humans around you said “well it’s normal! wake up, tough it up! this is Real world you’re living in, hello? helloo! wake upp, stop dreaming!”
And at the end of the day, whether you’re driving inside car, or riding on a train or subway
with perhaps music plugged onto your ears, you sighed:
“is there really any point in all of these madness and boredoms?
when…until when I have to keep going like this??”
“Why can’t I just be FREE ???
Why do I have to live this ‘normal’ life?
And why EVERYBODY seems to be OKAY sticking with it???
What’s with all those faces??
I’m sick and tired seeing all of ’em!
What is this world?
If not full of pains, sufferings,
while at other parts of the world: the often-neglected-and-ignored poverty, war victims, rape victims, pedophile victims,
while at the capitalistic side of the world: men chasing higher status and kissing their boss’ asses, and that’s all their life is all about, while women constantly comparing and fighting for newest brand of clothes, jewelries, bags,..a never-ending pursuit!
Everything just seems so shallow and dull..
Only rarely you feel that shivering feelings of Love, Peace, Touch….things that are basically really still *worth* for living and breathing on this blue Planet..
but too often you wish you’re just disappear away into your dream-world,
or into another multi-universe,
or you wish that cool science-fiction and movies come into reality, like there’s a portal to other world away from this dull & obnoxious world..
I don’t know…
I guess I just hate being normal, and don’t get why most people on the earth seems to stick and enjoy it…
it just makes me feel more isolated, distanced, separated from the “Real world”, and feel depressed..
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Pretty much how I feel. Every morning on the metro I watch these zombies going to work and I feel pain, I feel like we are prisoners but nobody wants to admit it. Freedom is an illusion, it is not of earth unless you are rich. This planet is a prison and sometimes I wander whether we were put here to pay for our sins or something. why couldn’t we just live off air and the sun, why do we need food and heat and shit, it just means we have to work so that we can feed ourselves etc…this is no life really….I can’t see how I would ever have agreed to this life or how anyone would. If we just die and then that’s it then really why the hell couldn’t evolution go a step further and made us immortal, like energy? I just feel sad that me and my loved ones are trapped in this situation and we can do nothing at all to save ourselves. We will suffer, we will die, we are not masters of our destinies and we have no clue how we got here in the first place or whether we exist or whether we are just a biological brain that rots…..how sad..
yea, thats pritty much life.
Controlled by money, always trapped
I hate money, I never want to be rich, But i want power.
Its better then nothing though.
I love this planet.
Theres endless things of pure beauty and amazement.
Knowledge is the key to enlightenment
This vibrating, rotating, orbiting orb we live on.
maybe this everything we can get and going into the darkness with the chance of just being darkness. Ha!
i want to think forever
I love the feeling i get, causing pain to people
I love the feeling i get, making people happy
I love a smile from a child can make anyone smile
Life isnt logical its Biological.
People cant realize how important the vibrating is.
It all comes down to how we are programmed
some people are 1’s(survivors) and 0’s (Prey).
Followers and leaders
“Battle-cry of a hawk make a dove fly and the tear dry”
Sins are never forgotten, In every family, their sins are past on.
e.g like the sins of the previous generations Have left us, with nothing but a dream of destruction.
But u all are being lied to. Its all up too u
My life is sentenced to damnation.
But thats just the what i see. I could live happy if i tried hard enough.
Even though all the evil in my life, all the blood i have shed.
Its all state of mind.
I dont want to change i love being the way i am, i mean i hate me, but i love how i can think of everything. i love how if i wanted to i could help, if i wanted to i could destroy. Its all my choice
I love my choice.
That’s deep, Nit3fr3ak..some nice and unique perspectives you have there,
Thanks for sharing.
Thats exactly what the Jehovah witnesses said