Hello I’m new here. i found this site a couple of nights ago and felt connected to most people’s posts on here. Basically my story is that I’ve been battling depression and suicidal thoughts for the past three years and am seriously thinking about ending it all. I’ve tried different medications and the ones I’m on now have helped some, but i just don’t feel like life on earth is cut out for me. i don’t enjoy being the person that I am – most of the time I just feel empty and withdrawn from everything, like my body is present, but the ‘I’ is […]
November 2011
You know how you hear about deadbeat husbands who let their wives do all the work and planning and don’t help much around the house? Â The ones who can’t get jobs, who play video games most days?
I’m that guy.  I’m in my mid-20’s and have been married a couple of years.  My wife is in a master’s program, and I am still trying to finish up my undergraduate degree.  I was once a star student, getting 4.0 almost every semester while holding down two part-time jobs.  Now, I fail most of my classes, don’t make money for us.  I will be graduating a lot later than […]
This is just almost too much to take, he moved in yesturday and now there are 3 here. He left 3 hour ago said he was going to work, he’s a pilot, and said he wouldn’t be back tonight.
The door opens and there he is with a chick in flanel pants, he introduces her and go to his room.
The problem is this is an old house, no insulation in the walls and he is banging her like a screen door in a hurricane !
Good for him, yet the way I feel right now I don’t want that shit, nor did I expect it tonight.
I’m not […]
        Why cant they just accept me.
Accept the new me. Accept the real me and my new ways of my life.
Accept my wishes of blood and a silver blade.
i am who i am, Stop trying to change me…….
Plz just accept me already.
Life is a dirty trick. I fall asleep when I’m young Dreaming that there is so much waiting for me in my future and when I wake up I work at a job I don’t like to support a life I hate surrounded by people I can’t stand with no sense of accomplishment to greet me at the end of the day or a sparkle of excitement to wake up to. It is meaningless. When I was young I wanted to be the hero and it all seemed possible and now I do good to not become the enemy. 1000 steps from happiness and 2 […]
Hi, I’m a sophomore in high school. I guess you could say I had a pretty okay childhood. Most of my time was spent with my grandmother or parents. At the age of five I had a friend, a friend who touched me when I didn’t feel like it, and a friend who didn’t know the word ‘stop’. That part of my life was difficult. But I remained strong, until my parents divorced. I then started to slowly go downhill. I was depressed all the time and I had no one to talk to… then I started to pull out hair, ever so often. But […]
I wish there was a button to push and my life was deleted, no mess left behind as with a firearm.
I am powerless over the availabity of the meds I need to delete myself.
Very nervous about when they will be available. I am ready to scream !
Why is it so difficult to make this happen.
I am so scared to continue living, I just want the end.
I wonder why writing this stuff is theraputic in a strange way
Everyday I wake up wishing i didn’t, and every-night i regret my day. i dont have one friend, no one even trust me, everyday im like a ghost. i feel like i could disappear and no one would even notice. i dont make a difference in anything, heck, things would be better without me. everything i do i drag people back in, and all people do is yell at me. i cant get away from all this and i cant take another day of it. But its ok, i can do what i want, no one watches me, no one cares for me, ill leave […]
Everyone told me things would get better, they even promised, said I will start to laugh again and eventually find myself. I think I did for a lil while but as soon as my confidence came back, and I started to feel strong, he came back ripping my heart out again. Not as bad this time bc my guards r up. U C when u leave domineering after 12 yrs, a month before there 30th birthday , when they r having health issues, well it hurts; bad!! I felt like my life was ending. It was bad news everyday for months, from the Doctors or […]
Every day I wake up I think about how It would have been so much better If I had died in my sleep the day before. I’m terribly lonely and feel like life is a chore. I’ve felt this way for over a decade and I don’t believe anything can make it better. I think about how I would end my life a lot. I wonder why God made me this way or if he honestly cares. I’ve hurt so much for so long that sometimes I just cry in the dark when I’m alone. I diet, pray, act kindly and open but its all […]
why is it that whenever i let someone into my heart they tend to fuck me over and act like nothing ever happend?.. im soo sick and tired of being treated like shit. everyone i love just ends up leaving me im all alone and i hate it, seems like no one cares. everyday i walk around like nothings wrong but the truth is im slowly dying inside i just wanna close my eyes count to three and poof all my worries are gone. (HA i wish it was that easy) ive lost so many friends and family in my life and growing up with […]
what killing me is I’m stuck here, feeling this push and pull on my chest and brain.
seeing everyone around me, down and up, rise and fall.
they seem like they are down with everything, don’t care, but each day they grow higher higher away.
and leave me in the darkest deepest hole.
how do they do it, where do they find it?
the hope and strength to go on
Searching for answers or possibly solutions again on the net. I do this from time to time wondering when it will be my time. Have screwed this life up and effected those around me in a negative way. Can’t forgive my self for that
I wonder.. when I will actually find someone who fully understands me. I’m not sure what to say. I am very depressed I’ve been told.. I don’t know.. just thought I’d let you know how i feel
I don’t know the point of this website.. but I’m feeling extremely helpless and alone at the moment and I googled I’m dying and this is where it brought me. I think about suicide every hour of every day, I don’t feel good enough to keep going at this point. I can’t talk about anything, my life is so complicated. I don’t feel like writing/typing/telling a novel so no one can help me.
I am in college, and everything was great and I felt like my life was finally on track and then all of a sudden one day I just wanted to die. The […]
Gosh folks, we only have like 2 rules here. One is to not post for suicide partners. The other is to not talk about suicide methods. And yet, everyday, we remove posts that talk about methods.
This is not a place to come to learn how to commit suicide successfully. Google that and you’ll find websites for that — we are not that place.
Please, respect our 2 blessedly simple rules. It’s really not that hard. Thanks.
I usually just rant on here to relieve the pressure in my brain that depression has me under but I need help now. I’m feeling pretty suicidal after coming to the conclusion that I could walk off a bridge or tall building relatively fear-free. Just a step and it’s over. I was googling flights out to san francisco this afternoon. It’s kinda funny(funny in a sick fucked up way) that the golden gate bridge is the most used suicide spot and yet they still haven’t erected some kind of suicide deterrent(that I know of). I could step off the subway platform one night but I […]
This was written several years ago, when I was 19. It is a tribute to anyone who has ever felt so isolated.Â
Alone-ly
   Inira sat back and admired her handiwork. It was a good job, she thought. No one who looked would believe them anything more than cat scratches. All to the good, she thought. Her beloved kitty St. Clair wouldn’t be likely to leave marks like these, but it wouldn’t be the first time.Â
  Of course, they would know. She pushed that thought from her mind. After five years of experience with crystals, she knew what crystals could and could not sense. It was possible […]
I wonder how different many lives would be if they didn’t have others saying discouraging things to them as they grew up.
Things that amount to Cursing a persons life, ;…… “You’ll never amount to anything”, “You can’t do anything right”, “Why are you so stupid”, “If you keep doing what your doing, your never going to succeed.”
Positive things said in the right way might make all the difference in a persons life.
I had been on the receiving end of the negative discouraging words all my life.
I like when I see others trying to lift people out of this dismal poop thats posted here.
I think when […]
I want to know what it was like, especially if you became violently ill trying to Overdose on Opiates.
Have any of you seen another person OD on opiates ?
Getting sick and vomiting wouldn’t be a peaceful way to go.