Music blares into my ears
lost in a sea of thoughts
The waves crashing into each other
cutting sentences off midway through
I can’t breathe, and I hate swimming
I try to yell for help but all that comes out is a whisper
It’s unlikely anyone will hear it
surrounded by beach day fun
The reality is, I’m not too far from the shore
Treading on the edge of the shark net
I look capable
How does one get so far out – if not a good swimmer?
Alone, tired
I decide to sink to the bottom
Maybe I’ll find some sunken treasures
Maybe the […]
January 2012
Today I qot In trouble In school,first day back and already I’m qettinq In my old ways.The dean told me your a child so what does It matter what you say.I’m seventeen and I know for a fact that I’ve been threw more shit then all the teachers there but don’t really let people know.The only thinq I’ve reallly told anyone on this site Is that I qot molested when I was little.Like I said before,I’d rather have qotten raped once then to qet molested countless times.I love Houston but I can’t help to feel like If I was born somewere else like North Carolina or […]
I am doing a project on how you can prevent  suicide and I am not allowed to add my emotions into the paper even though I have attempted suicide before. Please leave a comment on how you feel you can be helped. My cause is being funded please, I really want to help because I know how it feels to be in a hell hole or alone.
It makes you want to just lie there and let the waves of sad hopelessness wash over you and soon your face is damp with hot tears dribbling down your neck and this makes you even more upset because you hate being such a wreck and you wish you could be happy and normal but you can’t because your stupid feelings are dragging you into a vortex of self-hate where thoughts of death tantalize you at every moment and you’re seriously thinking of grabbing the bottle of nail  polish remover on your desk that says HIGHLY TOXIC on it and just chugging it all down […]
Alright my game is on…GO BIG BLUE..CATS, CATS, CATS..BLUE..WHITE..BLUE..WHITE!
Tonight I told my family about my suicidal thoughts, and I don’t know what to do or what to expect. I know I need help and I’m willing to try to get healthy, but what do I even say to them?
The one thing I want more is my own death. I am getting pretty tired of my life right now. My family. My friends. Everything. I have no life. So whats the point of stay here. I will never get better. If I get help I still wont get better. Really I could never channge my mind. I feel like crying but tears wont get me any further in life. I know everything I do wont get me far in life. The one thing that is holding me back is Andre. If I wasnt dating him I would had ended my life. Why cannt he […]
You get sent to be put on medication if youre depressed or attempt suicide. Sent to a hospital.
But what should stop you, if you want to die, you want to die. Its your life, its your choice.
Like what college to go to, what car to buy, any decision you make. YOU make it. I understand that no one can really stop you from doing it, but they try.
Why would they, shouldnt they just understand that you’re unhappy?
You wouldn’t wanting me telling you you should do something that makes you feel bad.
Hi
This is my first time using this site, but I found it Sunday when I was feeling suicidal and when goggling how much of an medication would for sure kill me. But, as I began to read some of the stories I have calmed down and decided not to do it (for now anyways)
But back to the story. Today I was having a pretty crappy day at school, so I decided to go to tje snack machine to buy a honeybun. As my honeybun was coming out it stopped half way. So, on a whim I pressed the numbers again and my honeybun […]
I have finally figured out why I felt the way I did for so long. Why I was always depressed, why I considered taking my life so many times that I completely lost the fear of it, why I was in so much pain for the longest part of my teen years.
It is with mixed emotions that I can say I know what happened to me that made my life so miserable. It is very painful to know that today I can do nothing to help myself, for what happened in the past cannot be fixed or amended.
All I can say is that when I […]
My life may not be going how I planned it, but it is going exactly how God planned it.
i don’t know why bu listening to piano calms me down. here’s a good song. and i happen to hate twilight. but i love this song. i hope to be this good at piano one day
enjoy 🙂
Dear depressed-Taylor,
I hope I’m not interrupting your busy schedule or anything. I needed to tell you something important. So shut off the music and listen. The simple fact is, I miss you. I miss your smile. I miss your laugh. God, I miss that goofy laugh. Remember how contagious it was? Remember when you were a kid and you would get into these terrible fits of laughter that practically landed you on the floor? I miss that. Everything used to make you laugh. Now you hardly ever laugh. I miss your stupid jokes. I miss how […]
Is it selfish for one to take their own life and bring an end to their pain?
Or is it selfish for others to force that person to live their life, always in pain and not enjoying any moment of it?
Hey, I saw your previous post where you were looking for me. I responded (eventually), but you never responded back. I just wantted to check in and make sure everything’s okay.
anyone know any good tips on running away?
I’ve done some research. thought about sharing. feel free to express your opinions.
Depression isn’t just a temporary mood swing or a sign of personal weakness. It’s a serious medical condition with many emotional, cognitive, physical and behavioural symptoms.
Many people feel ashamed or afraid to seek help, others make light of their symptoms leading them to suffer in silence. It’s important to remember that depression isn’t a character defect or something that you have brought on yourself.1
Who Does Depression Hurt?
During their lifetime about 1 in 10 people in Canada will experience an episode of major depressive disorder (the diagnosis given to those suffering from depression)
Unfortunately many people, unaware of how common depression is, avoid […]
in English we have to give an oral project on something we pick, i am picking depression and suicide. and why people get depressed. and feel theres no way out.. since this is how i feel i can relate to it. but i think i need more ideas. so if your willing to share why your depressed or suicidal, please share to give me ideas. and when im done the report i will post it on here for everyone to read.
so please comment your answers please, and thank you. 🙂
-Morgan.
I am finished with the world.
I am on the verge of losing everything I fought hard for. It’s just a matter of when. Things are never going to be the same, only worse. Â My very livelihood is at stake. I’ve been through so much trauma in my life, being homeless is not something I can take–not after all of my hard work and dedication to try to prevent a situation like this. All of that hard work failed. I will have to start at -1, not knowing if my efforts will prove worthwhile. I’m no longer interested in slaving away in this world, only to […]
Hello,
Just saw this site and read some comments, and I’ll add my story; there seem to be some here with a rational mindset who will let me tell it without trying to sway me to one decision or another, and may be able to relate.
I’m 42, married, 1 kid, decent job, nice home, etc. etc. Doesn’t seem to matter when it comes to the thoughts.  Seems I’ve had recurring suicidal thoughts since I was 16. Never tried it, or seriously planned it, but wow, the wanting to end it, and thoughts of how I would exit, have surfaced more often that I’ve cared to admit […]