underage high schooler living with  a clinically depress/paranoid mom.
everynight around 11pm-8am my mom would have these urges to freak out/cry/yell. the things I hear is that everyone treated her like crap. she would look in the mirror and yell at herself how she gotten so ugly as a person. the “freak outs” have been going on for a year. it’s getting financially and emotionalbad worst. let’s say, if tmrw I loose everything I own I won’t be surprise. I’ve been clinically depress since the 7th/8th grade. so far I’ve attempted suicide twice. ended up in the hospital and depression center both times. seriously I think about doing it again everyday when I’m home. thank god I have 2 job and is not home often. my depression is cause from lack of support from everyone basically. my mom wanted me to get a nose job since I was little like elementary little. she had always try to mold me into this model figure. I figured she thought if I wasn’t smart I should be pretty. btw my cousins are like top 10 smart. i lack self confident completely. I’m 118lbs on diet pills that my mom gave me. I really don’t know what I’m looking for on this site … help maybe ?
ps. my mom hasprogress daily to the point I feel like not only will she take her life but take my and my grandpa’s life also. she’s getting to that point where I feel like she’ going to try to save everyone by taking our lives. my room have 2 locks on the inside and 1 on the outside.
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What would help exactly..?