People say it’s life, and that whatever life throws at you, take it with ease. But then, they freak out when things do not go their way. I’m refering to my mum here, and others I have known, do the exact same thing, and it bothers me to no end. I mean, I’m not perfect, not perfect at all, but when life throws me curve balls, I try to take it. I won’t always say that I do well, but I try.
Another thing I’d like to mention is love and relationships here. I have seen the way my mum and dad treat each other. My mum is the more pushy one, and I don’t like that. It’s always something to wine about. I understand that I should treat my parents with respect, but a relationship between one loving spouse to another, should not be the way my parents is. My dad works 8 hours a day. My mum is a stay at home mum which I’m ok with. It’s comments that I hear like “If I wasn’t here I honestly don’t think you would care about the family,” she said to him this morning. I think she does not know that I can hear these things. I think she wants us, her kids, to believe that all is well in life and that she and my dad are in a happy relationship, which they are not. My dad is never mean to her, always tries to make her happy, I don’t know how he does it. They have been married for like 29 years or so, and I always knew the relationship had much to be desired, since about 8.
I read a study recently that suggests 89 percent of couples are unhappy. And from what I have seen from my family and others, I believe it.
From how my mum treats my dad, and other siblings treat my nephew and neice, I do not wish ever, to fall in love with a woman. If this is how a relationship is of romance and love, I want nothing to do with it.
My life isn’t tough, it’s not like some people’s on here. But I do struggle with depression and suicidal thoughts of most of which, you will never hear about. And people that are unkind to each other, and disfunctional relationships and toxic people, do not make this any easier for me.
People say, when your 15 through 20, you won’t like your parents, and after 10 years or so, you will. I don’t know about this one, for me, at least.
My parents are Christian, as I’d like to think I am as well, but people shouldn’t treat others with hurtfull words and such, like my family does to each other.
I already struggle with being alone and feeling lonely and such, it really doesn’t help to have others that are not kind.
I can’t tell many people close about my feelings because 1, they would say your just a teen, it gets better, or 2, Quit wining. I don’t want to take this life much longer.
Sorry for the rant.