Someone I’ve loved since the moment I’ve ever talked to them is slipping away. The sad part is I’m letting him. I can’t do anything about him not loving me anymore. I’ve fought for him for 9 months, if not more. I’m done. I can’t keep waiting on him to realize if I’m what he wants or not. I haven’t talked to him since Thursday. He says he cares and would do anything for me but I just don’t know anymore. I don’t know if it was love or lust. Maybe neither Maybe all of it was just a big joke, but I just can’t take it anymore. The unknown scares me. The scars on my wrist prove my point. Along with the empty bottles of pills laying in my drawers. It just makes me angry that I let a guy get to me like that. That I’ve ruined any chance of being normal.
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You have very strong feelings for this guy, im not sure if i can say that he has the same feelings for you, but i think he does have some feelings for you. If it was just lust he would have gotten up and moved on already, obviously he hasn’t, and his words do seem to say that he truly cares about you, maybe he is not that good with words and expressing his feelings, a lot of people aren’t but by the little things that he does say it seems like he really loves you. I dont know your guy’s situation, (maybe i should read your past post, i think i remember replying to one of your post) but i think you shouldn’t let go of him. Stay friends with him at least, if you guys can be good friends then you guys can be great lovers. Your relationship can develop into something more then it is right now. You should give him another chance, (unless he physically or verbally abused you) I think you guys have feelings for each other, you just have to work things out. Sit down have some coffee, and talk to him for hours about your relationship. And if things still dont seem to go as planned then you should try to have just a friendly conversation with him, about anything. Good luck, and sorry for rambling
It’s not that I want to stop seeing my best friend, I want to stop talking to my current boyfriend because he lives 2,000 miles away, we fight every time we talk, and I rarely even talk to him. Like I haven’t even talked to him since Thursday. I love him with all my heart but I think it’s time to forget the feelings but keep the memories you know? I need to do what’s best for me at this moment. I really want to try this thing with my best friend though. I would have never suspected ha had feelings for me. But now that he’s shown them, I’ve realized I liked him all along.
@miss mayhem sorry, I had no clue there was another guy (your best friend) well I’m glad you found a better guy then your boyfriend, because you do say that he wouldn’t treat you right and he would just fight with you, hopefully your best friend can treat you right, best of luck.
It’s okay, it’s confusing for me too sometimes. Thank you for the support :] means a ton