I could be ending it all here. Not now, but soon, I just have to find the right time and method. One method I’ve been thinking about was overdose on fluoxetine and strepsils (hopefully they’ll kill me). I tried hanging but I can’t tie a noose for shit, I have no access to guns at all, and I couldn’t be able to drown myself nor could I find a heavy object to tie to my feet. But that’s beside the point, the point is that I could take my life pretty shortly. I just feel like everything’s falling apart and that if I die now or any time between now and the start of term 3 that nobody would miss me or would talk me out of killing myself. I’m just so fucking hopeless and a waste of everyone’s time, no one would mourn for me at all. If sleep is for the weak, then I must be a stick among the logs.
Goodbye forever.
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If sleep is for the weak, then all mammals are weak. (all mammals also have an endocannabinoid system too…)
Sleep is for everyone, and is a necessary biological function. Don’t listen to people’s bullshit.
Whether or not anyone would miss you, shouldn’t be the deciding factor: it’s your body, your life, and your choice. You should base your decisions on what YOU want, not what anyone else wants (especially not what anyone who wouldn’t miss you, might want).
Yes but I fear the cannaboid system is also vulnerable to over-stimulation with today’s hybrids leaving some in deep depression. I hope it is not so.
hope you know german (–> your title)
hey man ich weis es kann manchmal schlimm sein aber wenn du einmal oder wie ich mehrmals dem tot entgangen bist durch eigene versuche wirst du merken wie kostbar das leben eigentlich ist… gib nicht auf und mach weiter
Unfortunately I don’t know German so I had to go to Google Translate. The title was from the black metal band Burzum’s song with the same name. It’s also the song I tend to listen to a lot when I’m going through a particularly tough time like this one.
Aburialatomens, i confess I have gotten energized by the planning. Somehow having a plan a, b, and, c provides me with a sense that I ultimately have control over something, and that there may not be any hurry. Give summer a chance. Besides, you may want to hang out for the NWO inter-galactic showdown.
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