So far, thing do look good and I do feel lot better emotionally. But… I keep have this um… dreams of mine that keep remind me someone I miss a lot. My best friends keep show up before I open my eye. When that does happen, I have dread feels, as if a snake crawl into my skin. My lower right leg shook and my body twist around… It used to be my daily route in morning in that four months of hell at the time. But now it is more of once a week now… I don’t mean to make it sound dramatic or […]
I’ve been reading many posts made by teenagers and, I won’t lie to you, I feel so sad. They’re young and they still have a lot of time ahead of them.Being young is tough,parents can be a pain in the ass a lot of times and being a student can be sometimes unbearable.But still,they can pursuit their dreams,they can try for what they want and certainly they can achieve many things.
In 2016 I read about a 16 year old girl in my country who committed suicide.Her classmates have been bullying her,because she was overweight.Three months ago I read about a young boy in my hometown who […]
i hate my life…not really but nobody really understand my feelings.. im smiling outside but deep inside im not fine..i feel like im all alone in this world…
Want to end it all. Losing this fight with depression and anxiety. Not sure how much longer i can keep going.
I met someone on here years ago, and he lived/lives a world apart from me. I still think about him every day, and wonder how he’s doing. I lost my old email, so I’m unsure I have any way of contacting him ever again.
Shephard, if you read this at all, I still think about you. I miss our daily emails and talking about stupid shit like Half Life. Please be okay.
I feel as though I’ve been changing in character over the last few months.
For a start, I feel increasingly disconnected with what is going on around me. My usual (music and language) lessons that I have done as a hobby for years are becoming more and more difficult to focus on. I’m struggling to see the relevance of them, the point of them. I think it’s because I’m struggling to be able to see beyond more than a month or two.
The day to day running of the house and family is painful. I look at things that need doing, even finances that need organising, and […]
“Sometimes it is hard, To wake up in the morning, mind full of demons, I don’t wanna hear them any more, got me heart broken, fine. ”
I’ve thinking about it for long.
I’ll accomplish this. I’ll graduate. I’ll succeed. I’ll get good grades. I will because I will give all I have.
I have to put my worries and sadness aside. This is not time for it. This is the only chance I’ve. I must by any mean, grow up balls, and be focus on the fucking target.
But I also […]
In the middle of august I tried to take my life, I was destroyed by pain and I was so anxious about school especially some exams I had to do in order to be accepted in the next class.
I tried.
I failed, and when my mom got home I was in my bed crying and I had a very bad scar that explained what happened, she called my dad and we went to the hospital and now I’m here.
After everything happened I felt so calm and relaxed, I finally had my mind clear.
Now I have a psychologist but I still feel the pain inside me and […]
If i do not delete this post before tomorrow, you will know that i have succeded in taking my life.
I am no longer able to keep going, i have lost all strive and will to keep going. Life has no meaning. I had one life and i had to spend it mentally fucked up and unable to function properly and im so done.
I wanted to make a long note, telling my story and how i got to this point, But i dont have the time.
I know people are going to be upset and sad. And i know this sounds selfish. But they should understand that […]
There was a dream where I wake up at 30 ,alone in my one bedroom apartment with a crappy job and no reason to live. Then I met her and she was like a light in the dark (as cheesy as it sounds). The dream changed to me and her being happy and married. I had my own bakery, we adopted a dog and a 8 year old little girl and I was happy. But these things don’t last. She was broken too and I helped her as much as I could. One day when I was already stressed out, my mom was in the […]
Everything about me is negative I never talk about positivity, but there’s nothing positive in my life so what should I do?
I wouldn’t be so hurt if I was in school like a normal kid with straight A’s, a job and lots of friends and a girlfriend. That’s success in teenage years. I can’t do anything right I can’t spell, I can’t read as well as I used to, I can’t learn because I was diagnosed with a learning disability in second grade, my grammar is bad.
Maybe all the rich people stuff I learned, “why the rich get richer and the poor get poorer”. Isn’t […]
lately ive been so uninspired, I’ve had zero confidence, and I have felt so, so lonely.
I’m writing a paper on my biggest inspiration (David Bowie) and I don’t feel like I care about it at all. I haven’t been spending as much time with my friends, and my free time is spent glued to my bed.
i know it’ll be better in the summer. I’m going to NOLA with my best friend, and in just a few weeks I’m traveling to LA with her as well. the sunshine will do me good.
i just gotta get through the winter.
A few days ago my fiancé told me that he almost committed suicide. This had torn me down and I thought it was my fault. I wasn’t able to help him because he kept this from me. He kept this from me because he was scared of hurting me.
Since he told me, I have had visions of being at his funeral. I have been an emotional mess. I know it wasn’t my fault but I felt like I failed him. I am so grateful that he was sound enough to call the suicide hotline number before he did.
He told me that I am his reason for […]
I’ve personally noticed that every time I’m happy, there’s a catch. Do any of you get this impression with life? Because… right now I’m not sure I’m understanding the point.
My kik name is Kalmahavak. If you don’t have kik, download it. It’s a messaging app that allows you to message privately. 🙂
Come talk to me! Let’s get through this cruel world together! 🙂 haha.
I want to live.
The reason for it is simple – I think I can make it.
I know many who look for logical explanation and balance of good and bad. I know people who put their faith in religion only to move on and wake up each day.
I cope with my burden by writing to you guys every evening and night. Sometimes I even stay awake until every one is asleep so I could write to you.
I don’t talk to my friends, or college friends, or roommates, about how and what I feel.
I don’t think they need to know. My life experience […]
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