It’s been good while, idk why I came back but I did! I failed my attempted suiside and I just idk how to feel about it this time…idk what to really say I just no one ever judged me on here!
KatRose
I just wanna be Not weird to the point were people think i need professional help…not saying i don’t but still like to feel normal for once in my life! i have scars Yes, I have short hair Yes, i like old school fashion, music, class….only so little no a days things! i used to do what i could to fit in, but i just couldn’t do it…it was hurting me more than me just being myself. Uhh man life so fucked…but for real its sooo hard for me to date or connect with someone because no ones on my level…not saying i’m high up […]
No matter how Happy, Sad, Depressed, or Anxious i am i always want to scream at the top of my lugs and cry till i cant breath and pass out!
When i take a bath i fill the bath up as much as i can and i just go under and scream, sometime i’ll cry and cry till i can’t breath…sometimes i wish i could stay under and never come up….when i die i want to have them spread my ashes in the sea..so i’ll be with the water for eternity!
Sometimes i break down and i just cant get up once i’m down, can’t […]
I been going through a lot of things and i think i’m going a lil crazy! But today my step dad sat me down and said that he was so so sorry that he hurt me and ruined me….tbh i was stunned i didn’t no what to do but cry…idk why but i did, and he hugged me after i said sorry for crying(bc i hate crying in front ppl) and he said awee sweetie you did noting wrong, then he looked me in the eyes and said i regret so much and i’m truly sorry for hurting you the way i did when i […]
I hope that you are okay hun, you mean something to me and i think about you! Lots of love to you hun!!!
I just to be a teenager why is it so fxcking hard! Why can’t i have normal teenage problems like “omg i broke a nail” but no its “i cut” “i just had an anxiety attack for the 3rd time today” “my step dad beat me” I fr trying here but its so hard…yesterday i broke down so bad i was so depressed i was about to slit my throat till my mum walked in…i just wanna be okay! I’m trying so hard but i feel like it just not good enough and now my mums trying all these herds and natural way to help […]
I decided that i’m going back to being thin, I’m fasting and eating small and drinking mostly water!
I’m going to do my makeup dark again or not wear any at all!
I will not talk to anyone in person anymore, just keep to myself!
I’m going to do school and give it all i got, and get it done!
I’m going to save up every little bit of money i can get my hands on!
I’m going to focus on working out and thinspo!
I won’t cut my arms anymore nor the rest my body!
I’m listening to more my music(Asking Alexandria, Nirvana, 80s […]
I’m failing school,
i feel like shit everyday,
i’m anemic,
i have depression,
anxiety,
i’m to tired all the time,
i have sleep insomnia,
i’m don’t have nice teeth,
don’t have the sexy tight teenage body,
i cut my hair off bc it ugly,
i have scars on my face,
scars on my body,
my arms are ugly,
my thighs are to big,
my boobs make me slutty,
my butts to big for pants and dresses,
never fit in clothes bc of my body type,
i […]
I feel so empty,
i feel so alone,
i feel like i could be dying and it be no big deal,
i feel hopeless without a meaning,
i just wanted someone to put me 1st for once,
its hard for me to cope around stuck up people,
its hard for me not to cry when my friends complain about there dads caring like a dad should,
i wanna break down and cry when people talk about there father daughter dances,
my whole life all i wanted was a daddy who loved me and only looked […]
Right now at this very moment my mums step dad is yelling and being a little kid…sitting on the other side the wall ignoring my mum…and telling her her worth isn’t even worth 200$…bc shes going to be a brides made and she has to pay for the dress and hes siting outside the bedroom(shes in the bedroom crying) and telling her she needs to stop crying and blaming him for her pains…and that certain burdens get put on ppl and certain ppl are burdens in this house of ours! He might get away with what he did too me but i cant sit back […]
When i cut ifeel but i can lose myself….and i lost myself and it felt so good….there blood everywere but idc anymore i just wanna sit here and let the blood flood out! the sp helped me and i thank all of you..i cant tell what tomarrow brings but for now imm feel free!
I was have a really hard day my depresion was taking over my and my anxiety was bad….i was going to just kill myself…normally i cut but it never went through,
neverkilled me so i was going to make sure i died this time so i looked up painful but peaceful deaths and i picked 4 i could do all in one..just to make sure i died,
I picked cutting, drinking bleach, taking pills and drowning myself,
then a link lead me to this sight and i got to reading these stories and i decided to just keep reading them more and more…i noticed everyone was covered anonymous […]
When your lips meet mine it’ll feel like i’m reborn,
i’ll feel alive again once more.
When you hold be it’ll be like the world has blanketed me,
i’ll finally feel wanted.
When i look into your eyes it look like the star,
i’ll get lost in your different universe of space.
When you put your hands on my body i feel your emotions,
it’ll feel like our souls are connecting.
When you put you hands on my neck and stroke me soft,
it’ll feel like water..like i can’t breath but i’m breathing perfectly.
When you go deeper it’ll feel like we’re the only ones on earth,
our bodies and minds are making love,
It’ll feel like […]
I’m always thinking to myself wth, like god girl why cant you just be like everyone else why cant you just do things other girls do, why cant you just be someone…someone people see…and not just as a sex item! but then i half to think well why should i half to be half the world population is full of fake ass people and if there wasn’t misfits like me there wouldn’t be real there wouldn’t be true people, i’ve come across some amazing outspoken talented people with a rare view on life and tbh i admire that more than i admire what i’m supposed […]
HE’S mean controlling and he did wrong and dirty but got away with it but yet he feels he has a right to yell call names and now that he no long physically abuses me he verbally abuses me and my mum!
But when i do something wrong bc he did 1st i get a lecture from my mum then she tells me we as in me and her husband put her in a awkward position bc she has to defend both sides,
but to be honest i think she should just pick his side she did when i told her (Twice) that he did inappropriate thing […]
I’m a Lesbian, i’m 5’7, i’m not skinny i’m curvy and over here where i live curvy is not that attractive, thin perky skinny is, and because of my aspects i’m very sexualized @ one point in my life i sexualized myself and took advantage of it but i gave in(wish i hadn’t). I’ve had my ups and downs, been called some pretty ugly things because of it, but i’d like to help anyone who want it, i been through more than i can type so ask me whatever and im sure i can help in some small or big way!
I’m here to ask about […]
I always fall into these patters, i slack off a lot, i argue, miss behave, i don’t smoke or cut anymore, dont have sexual relations anymore, but i seem to still fxck it up! I’m failing school..i just cant seem to find a way to get motivated(i’m homeschooled) and i’m behind…i already half to take the 1st half of this year over, get to look forward to summer school, i just cant seem to keep a girl..never had a relationship!
If anyone has some advice they’d share that be rad! <3
It’s finally happening i’m finally 14 and a freshman in high school!
Life’s been crappy in it ways but i don’t care i’m in high school now, meeting new people while making new friends, Being able to make a new me and leave the old one behind,
i’ve never been happier.
I’m at the bus stop nervous but excited i made sure it looked cute and stylish did my makeup curled my hair,
I got on the bus all these new faces looking at me..like a weirdo i sit down in the 3st seat and just ignore everyone,
i look behind me and there was someone i new and then […]
Hmm i don’t even know where to start, guess i’ll just start from day one of my depression and anxiety. I was in the 4th grade i was 9/10 one of the two, i was happy little girl i mean yeah i’d always get in fight with the girls in my glass but mostly because we all were just brats and mean, over all i was an honor role student i got all A’s most the time, but i had lots in my head going on…when i was 5 my teacher told me my dad wasn’t my dad….”i new that already deep down” but it […]
I’m new on here but i been reading stories on this site for while now i feel like i can share mine even though i still go through it i think it time to share!