I have almost no energy at all I do is snap over small things and lay around all day before I head to work. Even talking to people or having to explain myself makes me tired. I keep thinking I should just go get help but always cancel last minute. I don’t know why I’m super tired all I do is work and then go home. I’m always jumpy due to my PTSD, someone barely walks up behind me and that’s all it takes. I kinda just want it all to be over already.
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I’m just tired all the time, I wanna be better for everyone not even for me but everyone else. I feel like an outsider and a burden to all of my friends, I just wish I could be better for them. If not for myself than for them. I think I’ve lost a lot of em cause of my moods and depression. My ptsd isn’t even controlled anymore, it’s like I can’t handle anything.
I took 8 days off from work, I just wanted to get away. I felt like it made my stress worse, normally I can just handle it. But lately it’s like one thing after another, I don’t feel like myself, it’s the same routine everyday. Sleep all day wake up go to work all night, rinse, repeat. It isn’t even the fact that I don’t like my job, it’s the people I work with. They all hate me, I don’t know why, but they do. I’m constantly getting talked down too, or yelled at. I actually stopped caring a week ago, I no longer go […]
I try to just take it day by day, and I try really hard not to stress out about the future. But sometimes I can’t help it, it’s a lot of the things going on around me that just builds up. people who I thought I could always trust I can’t. I just feel like everything is spinning way outta control, and no matter what I do I won’t be able to stop it. My anxiety is through the roof I either sleep too much or hardly at all. Work which I normally enjoy is too stressful and my lovely co workers minimize my complaints. […]
I can’t stop thinking about everything I’ve lost or done wrong. I get it, everyone makes mistakes, but mine were pretty big ones. Getting married at 19, staying with him even though he abused me emotionally and physically. When I couldn’t pick myself up, I lost the one job I loved dearly. Spent the next two years working dead end jobs and drinking myself into a hole. Now I have a semi decent job and I love it, however I still drink whenever I can. Other night I started having a panic attack at work of all places, had to hide out in the bathroom, […]
Ever work with people that legit complain about every little tiny thing you do? Yet they are lazy and unproductive to no end? Yea I work with lots of people like that and then I get in trouble each and every single time they complain. It really drags me down and makes me feel worthless constantly, I just deal with it though. Accept it and move on, doesn’t stop it from wearing me down mentally and hurting me. I just can’t stand some people, half the time I wish someone would just take me out, end the suffering that I endure day in day out. […]
I recently got into a relationship, everything started off great at first. Now we’re at each other’s throats constantly over petty things. I’ll always apologize for my part in the argument and bend over backwards for him, but it’s like he’s completely innocent in his eyes. He doesn’t see what he does wrong and it just seems that because I’m so terrible is why he is always angry. He tells me his feelings get hurt, yet when he says hurtful things it just goes back to it being my fault. I really do love him and want this one so badly to work out, I […]
I put on a brave face and smile for everyone but the perfect outer image I’ve created for myself is starting to crack. I’m losing my temper more often, and on people who don’t deserve it. I’m constantly having nightmares again so now I’m taking extra time to cover up the bags under my eyes. It seems like even driving down a busy road is enough to give me a panic attack. Im trying so hard to keep it all together, mostly because I can’t afford even a small amount of time away from work, despite intrusive thoughts. Most of my nightmares are about death […]
I’m a very caring and compassionate person, I give and give and give. But I can’t ever catch a break from anyone. I just get lectured about how I need to be more responsible and how I shouldn’t struggle. But damnit when everyone else needed a break I gave it to them. Heaven forbid I get the same courtesy when I hit a rough spot. Part of me wants to just lose it. It’s not like I’m needed by many people. Only thing that keeps me going half the time is the burdens I would leave on my family and friends. And because I’m a […]
After everything I’ve been through, people say I’m strong, or that I should be able to handle anything. Truth is, I just wanna catch a break, even if it’s for just a day. I wish I could make people understand how much it hurts. I’m always in constant emotional pain. I have nightmares, I get flashbacks. Anything that triggers my PTSD is a living nightmare. Everyday I wake up I don’t count my blessings instead, I’m more depressed knowing that now I have to go to work, or actually deal with the day. It isn’t like I haven’t thought about telling my therapist about all […]
It’s been a terrible weekend. Not in terms of being lonely, or anything like that. I had friends over and I was around people. The problem was being in my head all weekend. I hate not being able to have normal relationships due to my PTSD. I don’t let anyone get close, keep em’ an arms length away. Mostly to protect myself, but now it’s interfering with having someone significant into my life. At the same time though when things got rough this weekend all I heard was ‘you need to chill out’ ‘you need to calm down’ ‘you don’t want to see me mad’ […]
I work in the medical field, I see people who struggle or have horrible outcomes. I have PTSD and sometimes feel there is no getting better or making it through the day. I work hard, have an amazing support group yet still feel hopeless. I’ve tried therapy, medications, removing myself from situations and to no avail feel pain. I wish it was the pain that physical meds could fix. But it isn’t, my trauma follows me everywhere shit even the news sometimes. I try and push through go to work, but I just feel like I don’t belong anywhere. Like I’m just there, existing. I’ve […]