Pandemic is in a swing
Nightmares becomes dreams
A Holocaust is upon us
What a hell it will bring
Narcissists will becomes the normality
Feed that ego with toxicity
We all will lose our humanity
The world takes and it takes
You didn’t have to sell your soul to lose it
O, Cry Mercy, for the hell that awaits
When, we are punished for the crimes we didn’t partake
There’s a reserved seat for me, that’s full of torture
That will lead me to insanity
The world will break me down until it consumes me
6ft into the ground,when the world finally broke me
You make me scream in slience
You make me rage in violence
You kill my hope and dreams
You are a destructive science
Your goal is to take parts of me
To try to take completely all of me
You can only take so much before i scream in rage
Because i have to fight the pain
All the fakes disintegrate
All the family secretly hates
Only person standing by me is myself
To take on a world that knows hate more than love
Were people love to play God
And be the judge of your life
Were money determines your life and how you live
Were money determines how much respect to give
The only religion i ever knew was money
Were decency and morals are lowered everyday
When you wake up, you’re in a monopoly game
Were money was so important, we sell our souls
And kill the planet to make that money
As short as life is, i’m sick of actual living. My forth coming. My shit family that i was born into, literally almost no help or friends. Just me and my suffering. Just me and misery. And health problems you do get in life, don’t get better. They gradually get worse and worse until your problems consume you. I wish i was much more careful and wary as a kid. But thats not how life works. Any given day, your life can change for the worse or better and what happens, can be for the rest of your life. You know people out in prison […]
Arthritis is one hell of a injury. I have had two finger surgeries if anyone has read my posts through out the community. It delivers a shockwave of pain through your nervous system. I have freak injuries. One day I woke up, nothing unusual happened, but when I woke, I was in a tremendous amount of eye pain. I lost bottom muscle of your eye, which is suppose to hold eye in your place but now it sits on top of the bone socket, and hurts like a living hell. I saw two eye doctors, no big specialist, they count diagnose me. I know for […]
This is an attempt to recover from whatever agony or ongoing mental illnesses are plaguing my mind and possibly my brain. I have suffered from depression ever since a teenager. I find bravery in telling my stories or my life experience. I probably could listen to hours of people life’s stories or perspectives on life since no sees through the same window pane. And more importantly, your values. What creates meaning to your life and what makes you feel as you have a purpose, or whatever is making you cling onto your life preventing suicide, which can easily can be our primal instincts of survival. […]
When you dream, and you have nightmare. Your subconscious mind is acting out your fears and anxiety. Most importantly, your response to those situations. Our brains are like computers. You have sh$t programs running, inability to function, so code errors. Only thing a computer is lacking is emotional intelligence and morals. Plus, we are the sum of all our life experiences, and daily habits. If you have done nothing with your life like I have. You have no superior knowledge or a great plan with your life. I just lack alot of family support, or willpower to live. My anxiety and fear just preys on […]
How many people here draw SSI or SSDI from their mental ilness or other medical conditions. I’m trying to file for SSI claiming fibromyalgia and Clinical Depression. I already live in low income housing. And it is hard for me to work due to my depression, anxiety and fibro. I already know i’m a waste of life. I just want to hide away from this evil cruel world. But if did you file or claim SSI. Can i know your claims or how long it taken you to get it. Please tell me yout story.
Would you ever die or take risks for somebody you love? Well, that was today. My daughter is 2 weeks old, ever since, the hospital called Child Protective Services and we have been investigated ever since. We weren’t allowed to take our baby home from the hospital when she was born. The only option was a safety plan through Cps to have the child stay at the mom’s parents for 2 weeks. Well, the safety plan was never courted ordered, we made the attempt to take the baby home from their house. They ripped the baby out of my hands, 2 on 1 fight. The […]
I have always felt unworthy of living. As I don’t deserve my life because I don’t know how to live. Hardly anyone accepts me. It is hard to make friends. Hard to find a good job. Hard to survive. I’m tired of being frustrated. I have tried ending it but could not. But its okay to try to live. To keep trying to change your life little steps at a time, trying to change your toxic and self destructive habits. I hate myself. But i’m going to make a attempt to live
I been trying to kill myself for awhile now. I have no super lethal means. Yeah I live in America with no guns. Pretty Un-American. If that was case, I would already be dead. Trick to suicide, is forcing yourself into a situation you can’t back out of. But being able to stop to save yourself is comforting, if you want to opt out. But that’s a dream, Death is usually a slow and painful process, disease, hunger, drowning. If you consider takings minutes to die a slow death, which to me, it is. It’s hurt like a b*tch and you’re not even sure if […]
There’s could be a lot of reasons why you consider suicide. It could be your health, wealth, happiness.
Think about it, you’re stressed out over money, stressed over your feelings (health) possibly depressed (hardly any release of happy chemicals from the brain). Everything has a psychological factor behind it. As in personality types, every mood. Your conscious self, your self esteem. You come here needing to express feelings, or find comfort with others as in how you feel. The “you’re not alone feeling” is comforting but sad at the same time. We are probably miserable of the same ideal problems, different story but same basis. If […]
My fibromyalgia pain has been coming in strong. Its so strong. You literally feel like you’re dying, but you are awake and live through all the pain. Well if any good news, i been trying to change my life. 10x harder with Fibromyalgia. You feel bedridden, sick, and with no energy. You can sleep 8 hours and just restless when you wake up from all the pain. The sh*t takes it toll on your nervous system. It actually from any trauma you had in your life. I had two finger surgeries and mentally abused all my childhood starting at age 4. God, it makes me […]
Alright, yes. I’m f*cked up humaan being that wants to die. I was hanging myself in my closet. And i started having convulsions. How close was I?
Still here, I told you guys around January 1, I was going to end it. But didn’t. Its truly an accomplishment if you’re able to pull it off. I have failed multiple times. I have been more religious since then. As corny as it sounds, I been trying to find God and become more faithful. I used to worship the devil. But that was because all the hate I had for God. Couldn’t imagine why he would put me through so much hardship. Well I listen to a really great story, it changes my views on it, his name is John Ramirez, he has a […]
I’m really going to try to kill myself tonight. These last 2 two years, soon 3, have been hell. I always thought i could find a way out. I can’t. The pain just gets worse. The depression gets worse. I became so anti-social. So alone. My thoughts feel insane. Anybody I ever loved left or won’t help me. I wish people cared about me. But in a sick&twisted world. Those are just words. Nobody shows that they care. I was born to lose So I’ll die to win. I never thought that would mean taking my own life to find peace. Can’t win in life, […]
Electromagnetic Waves traveling through our brains
Mine says kill yourself until it drives you insane
Its more my body than myself
My body wants to end this hell
But I keep going, only time can tell
Where I’m Going Where I Been
Its like all the same shit has been hand in hand
I’ll smoke weed to forget myself
To forget I am even alive in this hell
Completely obliterated
I don’t want to consume energy and be existing
My heart is beating and I have a pulse
But I don’t feel alive
I have thoughts and feelings
But I don’t feel alive
Nobody cares about me
That’s why I want to die
This is me. But my fate has always been terrible. At this point in life, I don’t believe in a loving God. There’s just hate , and human nature. Which is usually narcissism.
If a picture can tell a 1000 words, mine are all lies. I grew up in a low income apt. Still poor. I remember being a happy kid until i was 4. My mother tossed her responsibility as a mother to side. I still lived with her. But she didn’t care for me. She allowed her […]