Family & Friends Effects

Dear whomever this may concern,

I have nothing worth hiding, not anymore. If my parents and teachers already know, how much worse could it get for me? My friends still have no idea, they still see me as shy. Never my name, and the word “suicide”, never could they possibly be connected.

Only the word missing.

That is what I plan upon. It’s early fall here in Ohio, the leaves are beginning to change their colors, buckeyes falling to the ground, the air is getting cooler with every passing day. I was warned early on to never eat anything I find in the woods, and with eight years […]

i hate being sad. everyday. i want to scream and to cry. i tried talking to him.. because he knows everything but he shut me down.. if he would ask what im going through.. thats all it would take  one question one i love you from my “Best friend” and it would make it all go away but he cant even do that for me..

i started to believe him.. now i don’t want to eat anymore.

he left me last night with a giant hole in  my chest, after months of silence the hole was numbed, i had let myself forget how much pain he causes when he is not there, and how much happiness he brings me when he is there.

It was as if i had been starving myself, the hunger pains soon became but a soft annoyance in the back of my mind and with the smallest taste of him i had to start from the beginning all over again, i lay curled in a ball clenching my stomach… the numbed feeling could not come soon enough.