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Family & Friends Effects

The effects of suicide on family and friends.

I’m a loser

by gioia 6/8/2017

written by gioia

I study a subject in the medical field. It’s a very tough university program in which one relies a lot on the professors and whether they like you or not.

You have to be there all the time. And I just can’t. I am scared of failing. But I am failing because I am scared. There are days I just can’t get out of the bed, even though I know the consequences.

So now I’m about to fail a very important course the second time. It started out great in the beginning, I worked faster and was motivated and tried to always smile and be extremely polite. It was utterly exhausting […]

6/8/2017 4 comments

To the ones who know loremaster

by My life is over 6/7/2017

written by My life is over

He is in the CCU and he tried to slit his wrist open and failed. He almost died he is in the hospital. Sorry for the death the hospital just called and said he is in critical condition.

loremaster82@gmail.com if any questions

6/7/2017 7 comments

Goodbye

by My life is over 6/6/2017

written by My life is over

I’m gonna do it from me to humanity hold on and don’t give up stay strong.

It will be rope this time

6/6/2017 5 comments

quiet house

by plasticflower 6/6/2017

written by plasticflower

tonight when i arrived from work, i was welcomed by silence and lights out, which meant everyone was asleep. i was not surprised, considering i just got here and it’s 11:10 pm. even though i understand why they’re asleep, considering it’s a Tuesday night, i still know that deep down i wish they were waiting for me. but they don’t care that much, and i understand that. i’ve felt very anxious all day, and i don’t know why, considering last night i tried to get more sleep than usual. it’s weird. speaking of weird; today is the birthday of an old friend of mine. she […]

6/6/2017 3 comments

I did my first attempt today..

by GerbzBaby 6/5/2017

written by GerbzBaby

Today I attempted to kill myself by overheating in the car. I drove to school, parked in the lot and didn’t get out. I was sitting in there for over an hour and a half. The only reason why I’m here now was because my best friend saved me. I texted him as I was sitting in the car telling him about how much I was sorry and how I appreciated him a lot for all he has done. I was practically telling him goodbye.. He got worried (I think as any other great friend would do in this situation) and asked me were I […]

6/5/2017 4 comments

the sunrise

by plasticflower 6/4/2017

written by plasticflower

i’m about to post things that have been going through my head for more than 10 years, but i’ve never shared with anyone. now, why am i saying it here? because no one can know. and here, everyone knows yet they don’t know; and i just need to get this things out, because i feel like it’ll maybe help somehow. last night i couldn’t sleep, and so i was sitting on the couch, watching the sunrise, when thoughts that haunt me decided to keep me company. this time, however, i wrote everything down. keep in mind i didn’t check what i wrote and don’t plan […]

6/4/2017 4 comments

Today…

by GerbzBaby 6/3/2017

written by GerbzBaby

I felt today didn’t start so good. I told my two friends I didn’t want to hang out because I was in a depressed mood (told them I didn’t feel well) and I had to clean. But they ended up showing up at my house anyways. I agreed to go but I told my sisters not to come even though my friends asked them to come (I get jealous and lonely when I, my sisters and my friends hang out together.. all they do is pay attention to them.. but that’s another story). The whole time I felt horrible. Horrible for not letting my sisters […]

6/3/2017 2 comments

eh

by plasticflower 6/2/2017

written by plasticflower

even though i had a day off, i wasn’t able to actually rest. i fell asleep at around 5am, and woke up at 9am.

i’ve been getting random headaches constantly for years now, i’m not sure why; but i’ve had one since around 4pm and it’s currently 1:19am.

even though it wasn’t a good day, i went to the movies so that was nice.

6/2/2017 2 comments

July 17th

by july17 6/2/2017

written by july17

That’s my date. Other people have others but that one is mine. I’m determined to end it all on that day, but I’m scared that I won’t carry through. I’m scared I’m going to flake like Aysel in My Heart and Other Black Holes.

I literally have nothing to live for except my cat. But I know Reimi loves everyone so he won’t miss me for long.

I keep thinking of ways to end it rather than if I’m going to end it. According to the psychologists of the internet, that means I have “major depressive disorder”, and I’m a “high risk of suicide”. Who cares though? They didn’t tell me anything […]

6/2/2017 2 comments

I’m beginning to hate my “friend” again

by GerbzBaby 6/1/2017

written by GerbzBaby

Okay before I give you any details in what’s happening now, let me start by saying me and this person have had beef together in the past. And.. we both liked each other.. not to sure we both like each other anymore. If you want to know about some of the past issues I have had with him check a few posts from 2016.

Moving on…

So the other night on snapchat I saw him making very concerning posts. Stuff like “I wish I died before the ambulance arrived at my house,” “I already know I’m not wanted, don’t have to remind me,” so on an so […]

6/1/2017 2 comments

I don’t know how you do it.

by Velveteen Human 5/31/2017

written by Velveteen Human

“I don’t know how you do it.”

“You’re so strong.”

“Most people couldn’t go through as much as you have.”

I’m not sure if it’s supposed to make me feel better or what. It’s like getting a gold star for having survived torture longer than “most people” could have, even though they haven’t been tortured in the first place.

And what’s the alternative? I mean, if you’re reading this, on this website, you know the alternative. But surely that’s not what these folks mean, right? So what else? They’d have a nervous breakdown and stop functioning?

I’ve done that. My body even started to shut down so I have to […]

5/31/2017 7 comments

a summary of today

by plasticflower 5/30/2017

written by plasticflower

today i was expecting to get home and find everyone asleep again, but it wasn’t the case. for a second, i thought they were waiting for me, but as it turns out, they just lost track of time and were planning on going to bed at about 9pm. not surprising.
today my fingers hurt a lot, and me having to constantly wash dishes and such at work doesn’t help. I’ve always been clumsy and i use band aids very often, but I’ve never had 4 at the same time on my hands; it looks kinda funny, actually. i can’t type very well though, but meh.

5/30/2017 3 comments

at night

by plasticflower 5/29/2017

written by plasticflower

i just got home from working, and it’s 11pm. normally, my brother waits for his wife to get home and then go to bed, but i guess it’s only for her. they’re both asleep. i guess they don’t care, and i don’t blame them for that, nor am i mad at them. i just found it a bit sad.
in other news, this morning was very difficult for some reason; having said this, i was really struggling to not harm myself. i managed somehow, but at work i did get hurt many times, though not on purpose. at least i don’t think so.
life has […]

5/29/2017 7 comments

What Hurts The Most.

by kellinandrew 5/29/2017

written by kellinandrew

Many things can happen in life,

This I know.

But what do you do,

When the pain is to much to bare.

You hurt yourself,

And call It fair,

You tell yourself that it is your you fault,

That you should have cared.

Now it’s to late.

I didn’t think it would happen to me. At all. Why would it happen? That is what I don’t understand, he tries to help, and I know he cares. It hurt him too, but why? Why does it hurt? Why am I so upset? The baby, can I […]

5/29/2017 4 comments

Goodbye

by Suicidal13yrOld 5/26/2017

written by Suicidal13yrOld

I’m gone. I’m sorry but I’m gone. Before I go I want to thank mehikka, photographyismylife, and the one dude who’s name I can’t remember for trying to stop me. Hugs to you guys, it didn’t work for me but keep it going and it may work for someone else.

5/26/2017 13 comments

My Story Part 2

by gioia 5/25/2017

written by gioia

I’ve decided to not tell anybody else about the abuse; their reaction just made me realize how inconvenient and unpleasant this was for everybody.

I knew before that I wasn’t an easy person, but I never felt that rejected in my whole life -not even when I was bleeding and bruised from my exboyfriend.

But I made a mistake. I’ve tipsily told a guy I’ve been with for a while. We’ve never been officially dating but we spent almost every day with each other.

I didn’t want a label for what we had and neither did he.

But I’ve told […]

5/25/2017 0 comment

Home alone.

by Suicidal13yrOld 5/25/2017

written by Suicidal13yrOld

Well, I’m home alone. Bad idea. Run or Suicide?

5/25/2017 26 comments

Lost of Interest in Video games, and Missing Childhood

by BlueDiamond 5/24/2017

written by BlueDiamond

I don’t seem to care about video games that much anymore. I have these video games that I brought, but now I have no interest in playing them. Fun hack to afford video games: wait until the gaming console is a gen old, then buy it. It should be at least 150 dollars, and then buy all the games you wanted to play on it. They should like 10 to 30 dollars mostly in the 10s. You can it though Amazon or Ebay. I have reason on why I’m starting to grow apart from the gaming community. One reason is that I’m near-sighted, don’t how […]

5/24/2017 11 comments

I’m going to do it.

by Suicidal13yrOld 5/24/2017

written by Suicidal13yrOld

Now you can try to stop me, I won’t listen. You can refer me to a hospital, that’ll make me more determined. So here’s my story.

Im 13, and my parents hate me. I’m that one fat kid in school who tries to fit in but gets made fun of. My own parents make fun of me. I can’t get a girlfriend, and it’s the end of the school year, so only one option. Suicide.

5/24/2017 45 comments

Can I wake up please?

by Maddie.Shit 5/24/2017

written by Maddie.Shit

Is that reality?
i look at the old me ,4 or 5 years ago,i was quite happy
then in 2012
my parents love, me i have friends,not too much but they are loyal and i love them
my weight is appropriate ,when am sad i can describe my feelings,people listen to me
whenever i shut my rooms door,dad follows me ,tries to make me happy as he can
on my birthdays i get gifts from my parents,relatives and friends
mother is my best friend ,i tell her everything about me
my house is a sweet home
………….
oh god ,what happened?where had all these days […]

5/24/2017 7 comments

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