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Family & Friends Effects

The effects of suicide on family and friends.

i am sorry….

by Butterfly904 6/17/2017

written by Butterfly904

I’m sorry to all of my friends for lying to you and telling you many things I should have. For pushing you out of my life and telling you nothing is wrong and I am fine. I know they will NEVER be on this site, but I really truly am sorry. But not for this one friend. I not sorry for being shit to her. She never cared about me and when I would actually tell her something that has been on my mind for two fucking weeks she would just brush it off like it is nothing. IT IS SOMETHING THAT HAS CONCERNED ME […]

6/17/2017 0 comment

12:51am

by plasticflower 6/16/2017

written by plasticflower

it’s hard to tell what i feel when my brain doesn’t want to work. i’m starting to get tired of people thinking i just choose to not sleep. it doesn’t matter that i’m extremely tired from working, i still can’t sleep; yes, even if i just lay in bed with my eyes closed. family doesn’t seem to understand that, but whatever; i think they just don’t care that much, and who could blame them.

tomorrow hopefully will be better; as i say to myself every day. still waiting for the day it’ll come true.

6/16/2017 1 comment

by tyrfing 6/13/2017

written by tyrfing

I honestly didn’t think that the middle child syndrome was a thing, but apparently it is because both my parents show favoritism to my older brother or my younger sister.

I sometimes want to think it’s just me thinking that this is what it is; I have some hope that perhaps my depression and paranoia has made me skeptical of my parents, but my parents are biased people who routinely remind me that I don’t deserve to live as much as my siblings do.

They’ll probably deny it though because they have this weird perception that they’re good parents to begin with… But, that’s another story to tell another […]

6/13/2017 2 comments

Second

by Demonqueen 6/12/2017

written by Demonqueen

He’s destroyed me.

I won’t survive in prison.

He’s got what he wanted all along.
I won’t be able to have kids.

He’s destroyed every inch of me.
I have nothing left.

6/12/2017 17 comments

Helpless worthless and everything inbetween

by suicidalcindy 6/11/2017

written by suicidalcindy

I don’t know where to start so much
shit has gone on in my life I’ve
tried to kill myself more times than
I care to count, life should be
great and perfect but it’s the
opposite, I have 4 beautiful
children and a wonderful husband
I’ve just had so many issues
including my self and mostly my
mother my dads death then my step
dads death while trying to do GCSEs
then leave school get pregnant at
17 which changed how life would be
and I wouldn’t change it for the
world, but I’m drowning under my
issues and to my family I have […]

6/11/2017 6 comments

I tried once, I will try again.

by Suicidal13yrOld 6/11/2017

written by Suicidal13yrOld

I tried to commit suicide. I failed, got sent to CCU , I am now back home, and ready to try again. I will hang myself and slit my wrists. If not today then another.

6/11/2017 15 comments

Benzo withdrawal-my time is up.

by FFS80 6/11/2017

written by FFS80

I cannot tell the majority of my story here because if I did, I am sure the people I want to protect the most, will work out who posted this should they find it. I’ve even changed my writing style and the lot to post this, that’s how important it is that these people do not find out what I am intending to do. I DO NOT want ‘saving’ and I DO NOT want ‘help’ because there isn’t any.

A very long story cut short, I am an ‘addict’ who abused research chemical Benzodiazepines for a long period, and I stopped them last year after a […]

6/11/2017 9 comments

He made me feel like a fool again. This time our relationship paid the price

by GerbzBaby 6/10/2017

written by GerbzBaby

I’m irritated to say I’m writing about this particular “friend” again. I’m beyond angry with him. If you don’t know we and him have a history of “love” together. The last time I hung out with him he was kissing me on the cheek, cuddling with me, laying on my leg/ chest and jealously asking about my love life. Which to me seemed as thoughts still like me but boy was I fucking wrong.

Today I found out that he lead me on and fucked me over for my sister. At first he refused to tell me, saying I would be mad at him forever. Damn […]

6/10/2017 2 comments

First

by Demonqueen 6/10/2017

written by Demonqueen

I just really want to die.

The last seven years have been a blur.

But 7 years… 18-25. Years I haven’t lived.
Heck, I wasn’t even living before then.

Don’t get into a relationship, you’ll lose everything.
Time, friends, sanity, freedom are just a few.

6/10/2017 2 comments

The Worst Nightmare Ever

by GerbzBaby 6/8/2017

written by GerbzBaby

So if you don’t know in one of my past post I talked about having dreams that make me cry in my sleep or dreams that make me upset or sad (although I’m sure no one read it at all). They are harmless dreams that just reminded me of my past which I was sad I couldn’t relive differently. But this dream I had last night was not like the others I had.

The dream starts with me and my family on a passenger airplane. All seems well until something happens and the plane spirals out of control. In the dream I saw we […]

6/8/2017 1 comment

I’m a loser

by gioia 6/8/2017

written by gioia

I study a subject in the medical field. It’s a very tough university program in which one relies a lot on the professors and whether they like you or not.

You have to be there all the time. And I just can’t. I am scared of failing. But I am failing because I am scared. There are days I just can’t get out of the bed, even though I know the consequences.

So now I’m about to fail a very important course the second time. It started out great in the beginning, I worked faster and was motivated and tried to always smile and be extremely polite. It was utterly exhausting […]

6/8/2017 4 comments

To the ones who know loremaster

by My life is over 6/7/2017

written by My life is over

He is in the CCU and he tried to slit his wrist open and failed. He almost died he is in the hospital. Sorry for the death the hospital just called and said he is in critical condition.

loremaster82@gmail.com if any questions

6/7/2017 7 comments

Goodbye

by My life is over 6/6/2017

written by My life is over

I’m gonna do it from me to humanity hold on and don’t give up stay strong.

It will be rope this time

6/6/2017 5 comments

quiet house

by plasticflower 6/6/2017

written by plasticflower

tonight when i arrived from work, i was welcomed by silence and lights out, which meant everyone was asleep. i was not surprised, considering i just got here and it’s 11:10 pm. even though i understand why they’re asleep, considering it’s a Tuesday night, i still know that deep down i wish they were waiting for me. but they don’t care that much, and i understand that. i’ve felt very anxious all day, and i don’t know why, considering last night i tried to get more sleep than usual. it’s weird. speaking of weird; today is the birthday of an old friend of mine. she […]

6/6/2017 3 comments

I did my first attempt today..

by GerbzBaby 6/5/2017

written by GerbzBaby

Today I attempted to kill myself by overheating in the car. I drove to school, parked in the lot and didn’t get out. I was sitting in there for over an hour and a half. The only reason why I’m here now was because my best friend saved me. I texted him as I was sitting in the car telling him about how much I was sorry and how I appreciated him a lot for all he has done. I was practically telling him goodbye.. He got worried (I think as any other great friend would do in this situation) and asked me were I […]

6/5/2017 4 comments

the sunrise

by plasticflower 6/4/2017

written by plasticflower

i’m about to post things that have been going through my head for more than 10 years, but i’ve never shared with anyone. now, why am i saying it here? because no one can know. and here, everyone knows yet they don’t know; and i just need to get this things out, because i feel like it’ll maybe help somehow. last night i couldn’t sleep, and so i was sitting on the couch, watching the sunrise, when thoughts that haunt me decided to keep me company. this time, however, i wrote everything down. keep in mind i didn’t check what i wrote and don’t plan […]

6/4/2017 4 comments

Today…

by GerbzBaby 6/3/2017

written by GerbzBaby

I felt today didn’t start so good. I told my two friends I didn’t want to hang out because I was in a depressed mood (told them I didn’t feel well) and I had to clean. But they ended up showing up at my house anyways. I agreed to go but I told my sisters not to come even though my friends asked them to come (I get jealous and lonely when I, my sisters and my friends hang out together.. all they do is pay attention to them.. but that’s another story). The whole time I felt horrible. Horrible for not letting my sisters […]

6/3/2017 2 comments

eh

by plasticflower 6/2/2017

written by plasticflower

even though i had a day off, i wasn’t able to actually rest. i fell asleep at around 5am, and woke up at 9am.

i’ve been getting random headaches constantly for years now, i’m not sure why; but i’ve had one since around 4pm and it’s currently 1:19am.

even though it wasn’t a good day, i went to the movies so that was nice.

6/2/2017 2 comments

July 17th

by july17 6/2/2017

written by july17

That’s my date. Other people have others but that one is mine. I’m determined to end it all on that day, but I’m scared that I won’t carry through. I’m scared I’m going to flake like Aysel in My Heart and Other Black Holes.

I literally have nothing to live for except my cat. But I know Reimi loves everyone so he won’t miss me for long.

I keep thinking of ways to end it rather than if I’m going to end it. According to the psychologists of the internet, that means I have “major depressive disorder”, and I’m a “high risk of suicide”. Who cares though? They didn’t tell me anything […]

6/2/2017 2 comments

I’m beginning to hate my “friend” again

by GerbzBaby 6/1/2017

written by GerbzBaby

Okay before I give you any details in what’s happening now, let me start by saying me and this person have had beef together in the past. And.. we both liked each other.. not to sure we both like each other anymore. If you want to know about some of the past issues I have had with him check a few posts from 2016.

Moving on…

So the other night on snapchat I saw him making very concerning posts. Stuff like “I wish I died before the ambulance arrived at my house,” “I already know I’m not wanted, don’t have to remind me,” so on an so […]

6/1/2017 2 comments

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