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Family & Friends Effects

The effects of suicide on family and friends.

Bye Bye

by linus 9/14/2021

written by linus

Heute ist der Tag der Tage, dachte ich; vor ein paar Tagen, an meinem Geburtstag; da wollte ich es beenden. Das Leid, das sich durch mein Leben zieht. Hat leider nicht geklappt. Nochmal auf diese Weise werde ich es nicht probieren. Heute wird es drastischer.
Ich denke das ich schon mein ganzes Leben suizidal bin, nur hätte ich es bis vor 9 Jahren nie zugegeben; aus Angst meinen Schöpfer, den ich sehr liebe zu verletzen. Liebe die ich erst für mich finden müsste. Dich dieser Glauben ist passe und ich glaube an keinen anderen Gott als den in mir.
Wie ich in diese Welt […]

9/14/2021 4 comments

Feminist rage.

by Melon_Lord 9/10/2021

written by Melon_Lord

The world tells us so many things, feeds us plenty of lies, and way too much bullshit.

I’m so sick of being sexualized for wearing a plain shirt with bra straps underneath. God forbid, I’m a woman, and GOD FORBID I wear a bra.

I’m tired of being catcalled on the sidewalk while walking home from the library by 30 year old white men yelling “nice tits” out the car window. I’m sixteen you creeps. Catcalling, is trying to humiliate you, reinforce their own dominance over you; it’s a way of trying to say, “hey, I’m able to tear you down and say what I want about […]

9/10/2021 8 comments

Surfing Away From My Problems

by Melon_Lord 8/25/2021

written by Melon_Lord

Previously, I went to visit family in California for the summer. I was in a pretty bad place mentally, so I used the money I had saved up to go surfing all summer long.

And for the first time, in a long time, I was happy.
Not just happy on the waves, but at home too. It’s like the board was an extension of my body, and I was free to be me when I went out.
No homework, no stress, no group chats, no toxic friends, no mom, no dad, no yelling, no crying, just me, and the board.
Just me, surfing. […]

8/25/2021 5 comments

Anger

by Melon_Lord 8/22/2021

written by Melon_Lord

I was so angry.
no, that’s an understatement; I was livid.

The problem?

my mom said we were out of butter for the toast I was making.

I got so pissed because we ran out of butter. BUTTER. I don’t understand why the littlest and stupidest things are starting to set me off, but i’m worried i’m going to snap at the people I care about.
Why does this happen?
I just don’t get it.

8/22/2021 4 comments

I could let myself die, and no one would care or notice.

by UnknownUnheard 8/17/2021

written by UnknownUnheard 5 mins read

Ah yes, depression. The thing that’s been haunting me all my life, and just gets worse and worse. There were some points where I would get better for a while. But then I would spiral back into that dreadful state. Crashing harder and further each time. Sometimes I wonder, “when am I finally gonna give up?”

Here’s the thing I’ve never told anyone: I want to die. SO badly…..and it pathetic. It feels like a living hell each second I’m alive. And worst part is, nobody really gives a s***t.
My parents, brothers, and even my extended family quickly dismiss my suicidal ideation. I tell them. […]

8/17/2021 3 comments

a hard day

by plasticflower 8/15/2021

written by plasticflower

today’s been rough. not sure why, honestly, it’s just been a hard day

i’m pretty frustrated with myself; kinda want attention but also i don’t want to inconvenience people by asking for it. eh, i don’t know

rough couple of days

8/15/2021 1 comment

Samantha Sings

by 1 m p 3 r m 3 n 4 n c 3 8/15/2021

written by 1 m p 3 r m 3 n 4 n c 3

She overcame sadness by sharing her gift. Listen to my dear friend at soundcloud.com/ samanthasings ~ may you be renewed and find comfort and joy in this life

8/15/2021 0 comment

Smokey

by LifelessAnatomy 8/12/2021

written by LifelessAnatomy

I remember December, a season that I shall not long forget. A time when its resplendent blanket of white enswathed the earth and concealed from all the life it was known to harbor. I suppose that it is fitting that during the season when Persephone was stolen away from Demeter to the land of the dead that so too should another soul be spirited from this world to the realm of hades, and along with it my innocence.

Life offers many different paths for us to traverse some linear and others consisting of many different twists and turns, and yet it is impossible within the moment […]

8/12/2021 1 comment

by The riddler 8/8/2021

written by The riddler

If you need a friend and have nobody, follow me on IG and we can be each others friend. I’m lonely and been in a dark place. I’m losing so many friends.

*I accept all follow requests, just DM me after so I know this website is the reason for the add*

riley_with_a_d

8/8/2021 1 comment

Are you still here?

by EvilOni22 8/6/2021

written by EvilOni22

Still the honor roll!!!! This was a post from obviously a while ago. These people meant a lot to me back in that time. I was actually getting back on to see if these people are still active on this site currently by any chance?

SP Honour Roll
written by @
12/23/2014
Bisban (Morlock)

Clevername

CyanidesOfMarch

C4 (and his various aliases)

Dawg

DeathDreamer

Distant.Road

Distress

Duke of Marmalade

Koji

Nias

OnlyLoveisReal

PainNLife

Persa (and her various aliases)

Procel

Quaero

RealTalk30

Rocketman (and the Hot Tub Gang)

RogueShadow (I forget the numerals)

Searchingformeaning

Shepherd (RogueLonesome)

Snuf (and his various aliases)

Stendarr (and her various prefixes and affixes)

StruggleOn

Thanatos (and his various aliases)

Tristeza

TheWhispersOfMySins

Xanadu (and his various aliases)

8/6/2021 12 comments

by plasticflower 8/2/2021

written by plasticflower

lately, a few memories have been flooding my mind, not sure why. it’s been a rough few months, honestly. and flashbacks haven’t made them any easier.

classes and homework are taking up a lot of my time, but still, feels like i’m spreading myself thin. friend of mine started to talk more regularly with me this year and they think it’s great and all but half the time i don’t know what to say. every time we talk, i feel so drained; i just physically can’t keep talking for the whole day.

kinda hard to explain, but it just constantly feels like i’m being talked down to, […]

8/2/2021 0 comment

i might do it soon. i dont know where to go from here.

by damidami 7/10/2021

written by damidami

just 1 am thoughts again. its always in a cycle, i get extremely suicidal, im in this weird state where im just numb and i feel okay i guess and then i spiral. im back in my suicidal part of the cycle, except one important thing: my brother killed himself. thats what the police say anyways, im not sure, i dont know. he came to me alot to vent, i shut him out, our relationship wasnt always the best, so right now the only thought that has been repeating is that i killed my brother. i drove him to suicide. i dont know where to […]

7/10/2021 3 comments

Imprisoned with no accusation

by ira_prather_mccraney 7/9/2021

written by ira_prather_mccraney

Today is Friday. Mom’s night out for my granddaughters’ Mom – my daughter-in-law. At least that was true a couple of years ago. Now, Friday is the day that my wife of 36+ years gets to see my granddaughters while she is at work, but i am not allowed to see or talk to my granddaughters.
I am almost 60 years old and spent most of my life trying to keep up with the bills, but decided after being laid off after almost 22 years with the same company that I would rather spend more time with my son and his family than to try […]

7/9/2021 1 comment

I feel empty

by tolstoi 7/6/2021

written by tolstoi

I don’t know how to start. I don’t really know what’s the main problem. I know I have a shitty life and I am kind of used to it. It sucks that I have to dissapoint everyone I care for, but I am used to it. I could go on without giving it too much thought, but the problem is my girlfriend. (I’m 21, she is 19). She is a constant reminder that I am not good enough and that I don’t deserve her. She reminds me all the time of how I dated my ex (which was fat, ugly and stupid) and how she […]

7/6/2021 10 comments

Personal Introduction

by jamk 6/26/2021

written by jamk

Hi, my name is Jamie and I am plagued with suicidal ideation. My first hit was when one of my parents died when I was 6. I was molested as a child before I was 8 which caused me to wet the bed during my entire childhood and even early adulthood.

When I was 14, the dark cloud had progressed due to physical and emotional abuse from my one remaining parent. I almost called Child Protective Services but something told me they do not have kid’s best interest at heart. It was a serious threat, so my parent called a relative to talk to me and […]

6/26/2021 2 comments

Family chains

by afval 6/25/2021

written by afval

I can’t even silently exist near someone without coming off as a ***** (my brother says I have to watch my body language because I can come off as a ***** he didn’t say that exactly but thats essentially what he said). What the hell can I do? I don’t mean too I just try to stay out of the way and make as low of impact wherever I am, and if I speak I’m annoying or at least no one seems to care what I am saying their eyes wander they look at their phone they don’t even register what I am saying I […]

6/25/2021 1 comment

in a sad madness a monster exists

by afval 6/23/2021

written by afval

my mother/family effect everything I do sometimes I wish I had no family I mean I have always felt alone and all my family does is make me feel like crap . I cant stand this sad madness in my mind I cant take it! who am I? am I this monster they say I am? am I really so horrible? I try to be good but all they do is tell me or make me feel like I’m a villain my mother is the worse contender she’s the main reason the rest of my family think I’m so terrible she gossips about me to […]

6/23/2021 2 comments

Back In 2013

by madetofade2 6/11/2021

written by madetofade2

I used to come to this site a lot as a 13 year old. My username was MadeToFade.
Im Jamie. I’ll be 24 in late July of 2021. Before suicideproject was a .org, I came to type out my feelings. I expressed my frustrations and sadness, but I also conversated with a male 22 years older than myself on that website, underneath the old username Ive given above.
Due to observation by members of the site, it was pointed out that “Nolen” was in fact an adult, and “MadeToFade” was in fact a minor.
I am thankful that someone noticed and felt alarmed enough to […]

6/11/2021 3 comments

Break up

by Unsheard 5/31/2021

written by Unsheard

My girlfriend, well ex girlfriend, broke up with me about a week ago. I’ve had relationships in the past where i have been broken up with and i thought i loved those people but this one hurts so much more. Her reason was because she felt like she lost her self worth, not because of me and she said that i deserve the world but she needs to focus on herself. My last 3 ex’s broke up with me for pretty much the same reason. They all said that i was great and it’s not my fault but all i can keep thinking is what […]

5/31/2021 3 comments

Each and Every Passing Day: A Deeper Look at Life

by SadG 5/30/2021

written by SadG

Each and every passing day I get closer and closer to being able to fully commit to killing myself and throughout my life its caused me to take a deeper look at life including my own as a whole.

Life is rife with issues and has begun to feel like its not even worth living for, even with all that I have in this life. Family, friends, acquaintances, and activities are the only things that really keep me in this life living through it all. But even now I find myself giving into these horrid thoughts, even with the kind of blessings I have had. I […]

5/30/2021 5 comments

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