Family & Friends Effects

The effects of suicide on family and friends.

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First post

August 7th, 2017by Eccedentesiastsoul

“We do not chose to be born but we do have some kind of decision in the way we die”

It’s funny how life works at times. For as long as I can remember it’s been this way. I just don’t know if it is ever going to end. Its really hard, living like everything is fine. I tend to focus on other people’s problems then my own. To be able to survive this I tell myself that maybe there is a reason I’m like this but I’m tired of lying to myself, I’m tired of believing something that isn’t true and nothing but a sham.

I’m …

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Art and Life sucks…

August 6th, 2017by helllight

I wanted to believe that my art might perhaps somehow brighten me up, and fill that emptiness I feel every morning. An objective that I ended up creating perhaps as a crutch. But gradually it seems that I am losing all the essence that I have acquired over the years, through everything that I have created. The meanders of life, The opportunities that I received, and that I denied, and gradually I distance myself from the initial will, my goals, and I’m stagnating more and more … Every day I go further, than before Being in search of perfection, now it seems only an impossibility …

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I Need a New Body – Mine’s a Worthless Lemon

August 4th, 2017by Hopeless89

I wish that I could be reborn in a new body. Cosmetically speaking, I have got to be one of the biggest freaks ever to exist. My body is a lemon. I have hideous body acne almost everywhere – including sometimes on my forearms. I’ve lost some hair. I have hideous teeth (possibly malocclusion). I am 28 years old but look like a puny 14-year-old. I’m also only 5’3.”

Before I continue, I must state that I know that these problems, individually, are not necessarily freakish (aside from forearm acne).

Yes, some people have bad body acne, and I’ve even found some rare examples online of people …

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Is it pitiful to die over a friendship

August 1st, 2017by FilteredSoul

Long story short im dieing, not actually dieing but spiritually and mentally. I dont feel alive among other things. The only thing I wanted in life was this friendship with a friend and we became really good friends. My happiest moments was when we were hanging out and i dont mind that my life was completely falling apart. Some shit happened that was out of my control but we stopped being friends and i tried to kill myself for 2 months because I had never felt so alone. I didnt really have anyone else or anyone I cared about. I stopped because we started being …

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Worthless bum

August 1st, 2017by Justanotherbody

So, since my grandfather passed in 2010 I haven’t been much of a person. Like my name suggest, I feel like I’m just another body. More like a nobody. I have an amazing wife and three amazing children. I’m truly proud to be their father, but I know they could have better than me. My wife is the most awesome person on the planet. Through every ailment I have had to suffer, and am currently suffering, she is right there to make sure it’s easier on me as I go through it. She is always making sure I eat, even when I have no appetite. …

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Mom

July 23rd, 2017by firefly11291998

My mom is sadly really sick rn. I am the youngest in the fam. I haven’t wanted to tell anyone any of my problems or worries bc there are other bigger things to worry abt. Recently i have started wondering if her sickness is my fault. I fucked up too many times when she was still with us. And my mom always told and asked me to stop. What if God is punishing her bc of me? What if I were to go……..what if then….everything with this family would go bck to normal. I was the accident. The one who after giving birth to my …

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My Parents are Narcissists

July 22nd, 2017by BlueDiamond

I’m afraid of writing this post because they might be watching this web-site. I talk and they pretend not to listen, but they’re watching me closely.

I discovered this weeks upon accidently stumbling upon Narcissist parents. They resemble this parenting style the most. When I learned about narcissism. It all everything clicked. Why I’m  so unhappy. Why my self-esteem is so low to almost non-existing. Why my parents confused me, and yet I never wanted to blame them for fear that I’ll upset them like feel their wrath if you challenge let alone question it their ego.

Here, I thought that my mom was overprotected and my …

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Quietly Leaving

July 21st, 2017by 826

I always wanted it to be quiet and a secret so it would not leave  a negative impact on anyone.

But, I hesitated a lot before my first attempted and they caught me.

Now everyone know about it.

Doing it feels harder because I do not want to hurt them. I saw how bad that affected them.

One day it felt so hard to resist and it was a successful one, anyone would think that iam just sleeping. Unfortunately, I did not realize that i had school on that day, my mom came to wake me for school and i woke up 4 days later to find out that …

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Dating and Friendship Advice for the Fat and Depressed

July 21st, 2017by BlueDiamond

I had multiple guys contact me, but then I felt emotionally exhausted because I never juggled with so many guys. Flipping through the emails and it’s hard to remember things about each guy. Not to mention, they have to be aware that they flake out, or things don’t work out.

I met a guy today, and we ended up being bored with each other, so it was quick and we shook each other hand good-bye. We really didn’t have much in common.

Plus, I need money to go and do things, but then when I have a job. It’ll be all work and no time to do …

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Just have to let something off my chest. Is suicide by cop possible? Down on a dark path. I need help.

July 21st, 2017by Black Holez

It’s 2 AM in here and I can’t even sleep with so many things going on in my mind. I didn’t even have thoughts of suicide and killing myself  when first coming to this site but things have been going downhill right now that this is actually the first time that the thought of committing suicide by cop and taking the bastards down who wronged me with me. It scares me that it has come down to this. I just have to let some things out of my chest if I go through with it. I’ve been putting out the facade for too long that …

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One More Step.

July 21st, 2017by kellinandrew

I tell myself, one more step, every day. When I wake up, I think, just one more day. I try to keep my mind on one day, one moment, at a time. Because when I begin to let my mind drift, I start to slowly drift away. Sliding into an uncontrollable downward spiral. I cannot keep living my life through the small window I have allowed myself. I feel as if I am completely alone. My boyfriend, is gone. Our relationship fell apart after I lost our baby due to a miscarriage. My rape case against my father has been dismissed. So, he is on …

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So long, my beloved

July 19th, 2017by mranony

I saw my mother died.
I saw every breath she struggling take.
I saw the twitches of her body as she dies.
I felt the warmth slowly leaving her body.
I saw my family breaking as my mother breaks.

And it was petrifying.

And as she was being embalmed,
I burnt every imperfection in my mind.
The scar on her left chest,
The stretch marks that bare the three of us.
And all the hardships she’s been through
etched in every part of her body.

And it was beautiful.

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Ig this is me

July 18th, 2017by firefly11291998

Well this is my hello, might as well be my goodbye. I am a teenage girl. Recently…or maybe not. 6 months ago my mom had a stroke….fell into a coma. Has been in the hospital ever since. Being a already depressed, lonely, alone, suicidal teenager..it was extremely hard on me. I was sent to live with my sister who I was not close to at all. Here no one ever cared abt how I was feeling or if i was down bc there was so much other things to worry about. My mom could not walk, talk, move, eat, and was in a coma for …

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I’m here for you

July 18th, 2017by firefly11291998

Hey guys, if you see this and want/need to talk. I’m always open to talk. I really want to make someone(anyone) feel like they are worth it….

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What do I do?

July 12th, 2017by Isolated

Okay so usually the depression and anxiety is constant without any particular reason as to why I feel that way. I’m sure you all get that and know what it’s like. However I currently have a problem and I don’t know how to fix it. I have been isolating myself, trying to ignore it but obviously this is only making me feel worse. So please tell me what the right thing is to do. I am already a piece of shit and I don’t fancy the idea of hurting those around me.

They story begins with me and my best friend. Everyone thought we were an …

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Birthdays

July 12th, 2017by millionth

It’s my birthday soon but I don’t want it. I don’t want the attention. I don’t want the happiness of everyone around me. I don’t want the confirmation that another year has passed and yet, I am still here. Not by choice or desire, but I am here. And it hurts.

I know everyone will resume their uncaring ways by the end of the day, but the fact that they can become so fakely obsessive with the celebration of life without seeing the painfully evident irony of how they act during the daily times of actual life is laughable. How do they not see? How am …

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I really want to die

July 8th, 2017by Demonqueen

… But I’m scared of failure.
Will I be paralysed?
Brain damaged?

Fail and I’ll be watched and not able to reattempt.

………………..

Vent.

I have mental health, undiagnosed… But imo it is severe.

Vent.

I’m almost 26. Literally everybody I’ve met this year thought I was 12.
When I was 15…. Everybody thought I was 10-12.
You get the picture.
I’m paedo bait.
Not everyday you get to legally “bang” a “12” year old.

Lost count of the times middle aged men have tried to prostitute me and continue on to tell me they thought i was 12-14.

Walking home today with my mum and her partner and two men …

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Mum Dad are you wondering Why did she kill herself?

July 8th, 2017by beautifulmonster

 

I’m her mum I loved her more than anyone

so where were you when you I had been raped as a kid? Why didn’t you be the mum and help me ? Why did I have to lie and hide to protect your feelings? I was the kid. I was the one mean to be crying. Instead you cried and lost your shit so i protected you. I just needed someone to help me, why did you have to be weak?

Why are you so depressed ? Why were you so sad all those years? What why? Your a mother your meant to be strong. You brought …

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My Parents Should Have Never Met suicidal urges are getting stronger

July 6th, 2017by BlueDiamond

Seriously, they hate each other so much that they can’t stand being in the same room together. Me and I know my brother is screwed up from witnessing this bad marriage. They both always put us down. It was always about them showing how they could get us to behave or negging us until they got what they wanted. Control Control Control

My dad is so into himself, and deep down inside I resent my mom. She created this co-dependent relationship. I’m forced to love her because if I don’t then I’m a bad person. Maybe I don’t hate her as person, but she sucks as …

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am 11:11

July 5th, 2017by mynameisnight

“you’re ugly. and fat. and disgusting. like the shit of a pig. and no one is gonna love you.
how so silly. why do you think somebody will loves someone as ugly as you, when even your very own mother does not?
you’re such a waste of space and time. you should’ve died when your mother tried to aborted you 26 years ago. why do you have to be born? why do you have to life? you don’t deserve happiness. you don’t deserve to be loved. you’re that one child that was not supposed to have been born. you’re a huge mistake. unwanted, even by people you …

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