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Family & Friends Effects

The effects of suicide on family and friends.

who knows what goes on in people’s heads

by plasticflower 11/7/2021

written by plasticflower

it sure has been a week. honestly it feels like years have gone by between monday and today, days feel kinda blurred? who knows. my head feels like a cat’s litter box.
food is still kinda difficult; i found my body feels hungry but i have no appetite and honestly not enough energy to actually eat, so there’s that.
at some point this week i found myself crying because for a few days i’d been craving a milkshake, or something like that? but just thinking about having to go downstairs, prepare it, wash the dishes and then drinking it was too much effort, so i […]

11/7/2021 0 comment

need some help with family issues.

by elkadaia_ 11/1/2021

written by elkadaia_

I’m going to do a psych eval soon, per my mother’s wishes. I’m— excited? Kind of? I’m happy that after three years I can finally rest easy and get these diagnoses. But I’m also, somewhat, scared? It’s understandable, the last psych eval I did ended in chaos — with me only getting a diagnose of unspec-anxiety and getting off with no therapy. My mother is slightly worried, but believes I’m “a-okay” and am just having a reaction to allergies (which makes. zero. sense in my book). I want to tell her that I’ve attempted eight times but I’m scared that if I do, she’ll disown […]

11/1/2021 0 comment

lately

by plasticflower 11/1/2021

written by plasticflower

i’m pretty tired. life’s been quite rough lately. honestly i just want to actually feel like i’m talking to someone, since people are busy with their own lives.
when i was younger, sleeping and eating came so easily to me, i could sleep and eat whenever i felt like it with no issue. that’s honestly the only fact that made me realize i’m kinda going downhill lately lol. ate a little bit of cereal for breakfast since i wasn’t hungry but knew i had to eat /something/. then, a bit ago i though i should eat a snack but felt like throwing up as soon […]

11/1/2021 2 comments

Disappointment.

by Melon_Lord 10/25/2021

written by Melon_Lord

I don’t want to disappoint them.
It’s to the point where I don’t even care about my own health and well being anymore.
Although….when will it be enough for you?

When will I be enough?

10/25/2021 0 comment

Suicidal

by emana 10/18/2021

written by emana

I have a girl friend who is suicidal and I’ve been by her side but I know she needs a therapist after reading a few comments I feel a little hopeless I just want her to be happy and I don’t want to lose her her family is the cause of her pain and she has told the school counselors and they notified her parents but her mom and dad aren’t taking any steps I’m on the phone with her rn and I know she feels like there’s no hope or reason to keep living in agony and I know she thinks that she doesn’t […]

10/18/2021 2 comments

I don’t understand myself either

by lostcase 10/15/2021

written by lostcase

the thing is, i don’t understand myself either. i am also a stranger to my own emotions and my own thoughts, my memory doesn’t work anymore too. they ask me what i mean and why i am like this as if i do know, they get mad as if i like being unbearable. i don’t think i have truly talked to anyone is a long while now.. i’ve spoken but not actually talked. i’m always mad too.. and hopeless, and frankly i want to punch every person that tells me it’ll get better.. no it won’t, the problem isn’t that i’m just not trying hard […]

10/15/2021 1 comment

Life is just boooooring

by deathonnile 10/15/2021

written by deathonnile

Hey there! This is deathonnile. New here, always wanted someone to share my story with, luckily I found this site the thing is I have range of diseases not the serious ones but minor ones like asthma, allergy and yea ocd. It also looks like maybe my parents want me dead you know so they could be happy coz you know they are tired taking care of me ,to them am just an investment , my parents have been supportive my entire teenage life but the thing is they expect so much from me yea both my parents are doctors earning loads of money so […]

10/15/2021 0 comment

Ugly

by sova 10/5/2021

written by sova

That’s just what echoes in my head. People/parents/friends/former didn’t left and that was the saddest part . Remember the day when I used to have panic attack and my parents dragged me to get on my ass. My mom exactly knew when I would shout back and thanks her for conferencing with all my family members(uncle/aunt/grandmother) and just waiting for the moment to trigger me to shout back and say them to leave me alone. Nice team you got with all your saddist/narcissistic friends. Been a looser/pathetic. My soulmate left. Just murmers inside my head. I am left with no purpose atleast I want to […]

10/5/2021 2 comments

Life goals and living for others

by chris_mgt 10/2/2021

written by chris_mgt

My death wish is the only constant thing through my life, bad days, good days, best days, my secret wish is always right here through all of them.

I have conquered most of the challenges that came my way through my 35 years yet my main goal still eludes me due to the knowledge of its consequences to others.

I don’t want to hurt those who care for me but on the other hand I live an unwanted (and empty) life because of them.

Should I estrange myself first? Is it better to be hated, missing, gone or plain dead? And why do I care for the difference, […]

10/2/2021 1 comment

I wish I wasn’t so goddamm soft and weak!

by lonewolf23 9/25/2021

written by lonewolf23

I’m 24 years old and I still struggle with having some decent self esteem. I’m a fucking joke of a man! It hurts so bad. I swear when I get my own place and leave this place……my mom and dad need to learn that I don’t want their protection. Overprotective parents ruin a child’s life especially if that child is a boy! I’m leaving one of these days and when I do I won’t be telling em. I’ll just be gone some morning. I know exactly what I need to do. It’s only a matter of time now. Im actually thirsty for some hardship in […]

9/25/2021 3 comments

Soulmates as Teenagers

by Virus.Found 9/23/2021

written by Virus.Found

Almost 8 years of friendship brought to an possible end, by not being appreciated by the better half… Your focus seems to be on new demeaning acquaintances, some crush you won’t conquer and some heavy veil of depression. I understand, yes I do.

Do you know, what freedom feels like.? I know. I have tasted it’s beauty, while taking exactly 7 days of radio silence from you. It has not peaked, like it does, when we laugh together. However, it is constant. A constant in my life, is what I need the most. And it is not you.

It was supposed to be airplanes, to visit each […]

9/23/2021 1 comment

Bye Bye

by linus 9/14/2021

written by linus

Heute ist der Tag der Tage, dachte ich; vor ein paar Tagen, an meinem Geburtstag; da wollte ich es beenden. Das Leid, das sich durch mein Leben zieht. Hat leider nicht geklappt. Nochmal auf diese Weise werde ich es nicht probieren. Heute wird es drastischer.
Ich denke das ich schon mein ganzes Leben suizidal bin, nur hätte ich es bis vor 9 Jahren nie zugegeben; aus Angst meinen Schöpfer, den ich sehr liebe zu verletzen. Liebe die ich erst für mich finden müsste. Dich dieser Glauben ist passe und ich glaube an keinen anderen Gott als den in mir.
Wie ich in diese Welt […]

9/14/2021 4 comments

Feminist rage.

by Melon_Lord 9/10/2021

written by Melon_Lord

The world tells us so many things, feeds us plenty of lies, and way too much bullshit.

I’m so sick of being sexualized for wearing a plain shirt with bra straps underneath. God forbid, I’m a woman, and GOD FORBID I wear a bra.

I’m tired of being catcalled on the sidewalk while walking home from the library by 30 year old white men yelling “nice tits” out the car window. I’m sixteen you creeps. Catcalling, is trying to humiliate you, reinforce their own dominance over you; it’s a way of trying to say, “hey, I’m able to tear you down and say what I want about […]

9/10/2021 8 comments

Surfing Away From My Problems

by Melon_Lord 8/25/2021

written by Melon_Lord

Previously, I went to visit family in California for the summer. I was in a pretty bad place mentally, so I used the money I had saved up to go surfing all summer long.

And for the first time, in a long time, I was happy.
Not just happy on the waves, but at home too. It’s like the board was an extension of my body, and I was free to be me when I went out.
No homework, no stress, no group chats, no toxic friends, no mom, no dad, no yelling, no crying, just me, and the board.
Just me, surfing. […]

8/25/2021 5 comments

Anger

by Melon_Lord 8/22/2021

written by Melon_Lord

I was so angry.
no, that’s an understatement; I was livid.

The problem?

my mom said we were out of butter for the toast I was making.

I got so pissed because we ran out of butter. BUTTER. I don’t understand why the littlest and stupidest things are starting to set me off, but i’m worried i’m going to snap at the people I care about.
Why does this happen?
I just don’t get it.

8/22/2021 4 comments

I could let myself die, and no one would care or notice.

by UnknownUnheard 8/17/2021

written by UnknownUnheard 5 mins read

Ah yes, depression. The thing that’s been haunting me all my life, and just gets worse and worse. There were some points where I would get better for a while. But then I would spiral back into that dreadful state. Crashing harder and further each time. Sometimes I wonder, “when am I finally gonna give up?”

Here’s the thing I’ve never told anyone: I want to die. SO badly…..and it pathetic. It feels like a living hell each second I’m alive. And worst part is, nobody really gives a s***t.
My parents, brothers, and even my extended family quickly dismiss my suicidal ideation. I tell them. […]

8/17/2021 3 comments

a hard day

by plasticflower 8/15/2021

written by plasticflower

today’s been rough. not sure why, honestly, it’s just been a hard day

i’m pretty frustrated with myself; kinda want attention but also i don’t want to inconvenience people by asking for it. eh, i don’t know

rough couple of days

8/15/2021 1 comment

Samantha Sings

by 1 m p 3 r m 3 n 4 n c 3 8/15/2021

written by 1 m p 3 r m 3 n 4 n c 3

She overcame sadness by sharing her gift. Listen to my dear friend at soundcloud.com/ samanthasings ~ may you be renewed and find comfort and joy in this life

8/15/2021 0 comment

by The riddler 8/8/2021

written by The riddler

If you need a friend and have nobody, follow me on IG and we can be each others friend. I’m lonely and been in a dark place. I’m losing so many friends.

*I accept all follow requests, just DM me after so I know this website is the reason for the add*

riley_with_a_d

8/8/2021 1 comment

Are you still here?

by EvilOni22 8/6/2021

written by EvilOni22

Still the honor roll!!!! This was a post from obviously a while ago. These people meant a lot to me back in that time. I was actually getting back on to see if these people are still active on this site currently by any chance?

SP Honour Roll
written by @
12/23/2014
Bisban (Morlock)

Clevername

CyanidesOfMarch

C4 (and his various aliases)

Dawg

DeathDreamer

Distant.Road

Distress

Duke of Marmalade

Koji

Nias

OnlyLoveisReal

PainNLife

Persa (and her various aliases)

Procel

Quaero

RealTalk30

Rocketman (and the Hot Tub Gang)

RogueShadow (I forget the numerals)

Searchingformeaning

Shepherd (RogueLonesome)

Snuf (and his various aliases)

Stendarr (and her various prefixes and affixes)

StruggleOn

Thanatos (and his various aliases)

Tristeza

TheWhispersOfMySins

Xanadu (and his various aliases)

8/6/2021 13 comments

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