For non-suicidal topics that are fun, entertaining or informative.
i just want someone who can understand?
if anyone is interested , i’m 14 , female , and my name is riley
talk to me
please.
For non-suicidal topics that are fun, entertaining or informative.
i just want someone who can understand?
if anyone is interested , i’m 14 , female , and my name is riley
talk to me
please.
Its weird to say I’m 24 and a virgin have not had a actually serious boyfriend and only got 2 kisses in my life. maybe because I have falling in love with people who never loved me. or maybe it when I started to feel I liked girls or maybe when I realize that I was never happen in my life why I don’t know I ask that myself and a thousand times to God but mmm well as a said before sometimes you don’t get all the answer you live until you die and ask GOD why
I haven’t posted in a while but… things are getting better less crying, less sadness. I hung out with my friends which made me feel like I’m worth something, needed, wanted, which makes me feel actually no a worthless piece of shit. But I know something always makes go downhill, I hope it doesn’t go wrong this time.
On topic of suicide and im just curious… what would YOU do if you came across someone in the midst of a suicide attempt? They havent sucumbed yet and based on your quick surviellance of the situatiin, you may have to chance to intervene and potentially provide them with another day on this earth. You can decide who the person suiciding is whether it be a friend, family member, significant other.
With the above in mind, an interesting point would be that most people on here live with pain or suffering of some sort. Also bear in mind that oftentimes suicidal persons are […]
I miss you. I miss the way we used to be. I miss how we met up every night. I miss being around you, feeling you graze my skin. I miss the way you kept me warm in the winter. I miss how you used to calm me down and tell me things are going to be alright. I miss how you made me happy and how you let me use you whenever i needed relief. I’m sorry that we can’t see each other anymore. People don’t want us together. They don’t want me to get hurt anymore. People who love me want me to […]
today I had a sudden recollection of a story I heard a long time ago. It is very short if you care to read it.
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Two monks were washing their bowls in the river when they noticed a scorpion that was drowning. One monk immediately scooped it up and set it upon the bank. In the process he was stung. He went back to washing his bowl and again the scorpion fell in. The monk saved the scorpion and was again stung. The other monk asked him, “Friend, why do you continue to save the scorpion? It is in its nature to sting.”
“Because,” the monk replied, […]
i just asked my dad for help on my homework and he really f**king told me not to cut my veins because of it. thank you dad i really appreciate you helping me in life in general since you’ve been always by my side (not).
He worked on another country for about 6 years maybe more and yeah i know he is trying to earn money so i can be in a good school and get better education and shit but like seriously i left my country where all of my friends are, im having a shitty time here aaaand he still can’t fking help me […]
So I want to try something. A ‘Proof of God‘ project if you will…
I’d like to be clinically dead long enough to see the “other side” and if possible ask God a few questions and then be resuscitated. (If there is such a deity).
This would actually be pretty awesome to do “Live” on Facebook or YouTube. It seems I would need a partner to resuscitate me after I have been in fact, clinically flat lined with a heart monitor hooked up to verify time of death.
I have some ideas as to how I would do this, but suggestions are very welcome.
and eachway I head to, I know I’ll meet new things…..including feelings experience and challenges.
What differs me, as 21 y. o man from the baby I was when I were 3y.o, is mostly experience.
Tonight I’m inviting you guys to share with me your burden. I will read your comments and stories, and let us, for few minutes, walk together.
Some people here helped me a lot to gain the power I needed to pass the hardest times in my life. I want to regive. Perhaps I know things that will easily help you, and perhaps you have the […]
Tell me your story, tell me what you would want to wish for, tell me what would it be like if you were happy and successful at the age you are now or just tell me if you are happy with your life and why.
At the age of 16 and a half I would be in a public high school with Straight A’s, friends, and a girlfriend.
I would have a job and be saving up for college or future Investments,
I would be very intelligent, reading books all the time and making goals for myself to make myself better,
I will be more patient with people that […]
Few years ago, I was a dead boy walking down the school’s corridors. Walking back, forth, between rooms for each class, and from there back to the empty house.
I always had knew what was expecting me at that house.
I always feared from those ‘good’ days. I was so.. under pressure, I could have felt that life is a – if you enjoy today, tomorrow you will be in sorrow, and if you are really lucky, your suffering will start from the same day you dared to fucking smile.
I kept my mouth shut for so long, didn’t feel anyone around me. They were merely humans […]
I lost so much at the last years.
I know I would never be the same person, I already saw myself changing with the years.
I became a mad-man ;
Lacking sympathy, don’t feel love or any kind of true social bond.
I became more and more sociopath, but with the understanding of human beings. I can identify most of the people’s weaknesses and I usually take advantages of it for my own good, only to survive.
Look… It is just that I’m pissed of on my reality.
But I guess it doesn’t matter. AS LONG AS I KEEP PUSHING THE SHIT OUT OF IT.
anyway good day you all, […]
I lied to you guys about quitting this site…
I just can’t, you strangers are the only one to talk to.
I’m getting really lonely, and afraid of losing control.
I’m at my second semester, February is going to be the finals (University tests). Last semester I scored 88.5 average which is pretty high. But I promised my mom to score around 95 this semester.
I’m focused on the target…..but at the end of the day, when it gets silent, and I feel like talking, I’ve none to talk to.
I’m a friendly fine looking man, it is not that I […]
Hi guys, its been only one week since i found here and i feel a lot better than ever. I feel like i have a family in here. I have learned a lot from you guys. You guys are my heroes. I hope youre doing well.
I have said this so many times, and im sorry if im saying it again( i apologise, im young and unexperienced) :
Please Read These books. For god sake!:))
They helped to revive. I haven’t used any med (i couldn’t) until now but books about philosophy or other science majors.
If you don’t give a f*:
Mark Manson – The Subtle […]
Does anyone else feel like sleeping is like dying but without the commitment? It’s like I can sleep all day just so I don’t have to think about anything. Some days that’s what I try to do. Like today I woke up at 9 and after I was up for an hour I passed right back out and went to bed till 3 in the afternoon. Sometimes I feel bad about doing this and it turns into a vicious cycle of sleeping till 3 or 4, feeling bad, then wanting to take to the bed and sleep, to just saying fuck it and laying down […]
I remember the psychiatric wards.
I remember the ice cold floors in the morning, and walking barefoot to the unlockable bathrooms to take a piss. Rolling out of the beds in a drugged daze for the nurse to take my vitals.
”How are you feeling this morning?”
”Fine.”
I remember the series of emotions that flow through me as I process my situation again- for the 5th day in a row:
How long am I going to be here for?
Oh God, I can’t believe I’m (back) here. How the hell do I explain this to everyone? Am I crazy? Does anyone even know I’m in here?
This isn’t so bad, right? […]
Hey, good day for all of you.
This will be my last post
, because I have changed, and I’m quit-ing this site.
For those who didn’t follow my posts, or read the last posts of mine, I wanted to wake up today, fearless and with out feelings.
Fully honest with all of you strangers: for the last days I have been fighting in my mind, over the control of this body. As if I fought with my “anxiety” persona, which fears failures. Today I guess my other persona won, because I’m fearless. I’m focused on what I want and when I want it.
I’m just a […]
that is it. I had enough.
I had enough of this kind of life.
I screwed up a few times. other times I got screw over.
Im fucked up.
I want to be soulless. I want to be with out feelings
I want to be a fucking robot.
I don’t want to communicate. I don’t want to love, to cry, to be mad.
God. If you are out there, when I wake up tomorrow morning, please wake me up feeling less.
Please help me become this hollow shell.
Why would you take away from me so much, without taking my feelings too? […]
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