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You will be in my prayers tonight; my forever loved Michel<3, EndlessWhispers, b1urr, and everyone else on here for that matter. Â I want what is best for you.
Goodnight and sweet dreams
For general topics related to the site.
You will be in my prayers tonight; my forever loved Michel<3, EndlessWhispers, b1urr, and everyone else on here for that matter. Â I want what is best for you.
Goodnight and sweet dreams
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Thanks The Crew of SSPP Stop Suicide, Prevention Project
This has been such a bullshit day. I have no idea why I woke up in such mental pain…could it be the recent separation, the two kids that are grown and on opposite ends of the globe, the fact that my life is just completely fucked….Or maybe its hormones. A drug reaction to the antibiotics i’ve been on. No, I just wanna die. I have to wait until my daughter is out of college and I know she is happy or settled or something, so that she will have her own life situated and can go right back into her own life, after my death […]
I found myself revamping my suicide note without realising it. I had written one in summer last year, but it was horrible; I couldnt translate how I was feeling properly, and also write it so my family could understand.
I had a best friend Katie, she was suicidal at one point and I thought she was just looking for attention. Im one of those horrible people who dont believe things until I experience it myself, we’ll call it a learning curve.
I was horrible to her, I always have been; people who love me have always been my outlets…
Its a shame though because I really love her. […]
I thought about jumping in front of the train again today… old thought. I try to figure out the logistics in my head. I thought about drinking and taking a bad combination of pills… making cyanide… putting a bag over my head after drinking a lot… I don’t have the guts. Maybe finding a way to get ********… might be easier. I watch the documentaries of people who go to foreign countries to end their lives… they have people there with them when they died… wishing them a safe journey… I wonder if I could ever have that.
I think I wouldn’t… I know I don’t.
Today was emotionally draining. I was upset and hurt for petty reasons. I hate not being in control of my emotions, especially when I hurt others while spiraling out of control.
Sometimes, when I’m sad, I’ll put up this front because I don’t want people to take pity on me. I don’t want them to see me as one of those overly dramatic girls who is unhappy with their life for ridiculous reasons. Because of this, I often say things to people that I regret the moment the words spill out of my mouth.
I said something rude to my friend Mike today. I’m still angry with […]
the title is kind of self explanatory you all have something to live for let the time come and soon you will be a t peace with yourself don’t end it on a dime its the one regret you will not be able to fix .
Am I going insane? This is tearring me apart? Everytime I recall a bad memory I jerk around and twitch. Other times I will lose control and start hitting myself or choking myself. Yesterday I recalled something and blacked out for a few seconds. When I regained control my hand was holding a knife to my chest so that the tip was hovering over my heart. I don’t know how much longer I can deal with this and my parents. Can someone please help me?
please?
I have decided that its my time to take a break. I’m taking a break from just everything. If you thought I was reckless before then now is the time to let go. I’m done with it all. IÂ will try suicide again. I will do whatever the hell I want because I’m dying anyway…so what the hell does it matter anymore? All the friends that I have (which is few to none) don’t even know. My life is so useless…I deserve all that came towards me in the past couple years. I deserve the pain. But now I can’t fight it anymore so I’m giving […]
i should be happy. i’ve got a great girlfriend, i’ve got a few good friends, i’ve got my cat..
i’m not alone, so why do i feel this way?
no matter how many times someone will tell me i’m worth it or that suicide is never an option, i can’t help but think, fuck you. seriously though, fuck you, to everybody who thinks they understand, to everybody who won’t listen when i tell them they don’t understand. i feel so alone because nobody really knows me, only i can know myself, who of which i can’t even fully comprehend. so yea, people can tell me i’m worth […]
Why is hope considered a good thing? Hope is the root of all suffering. If we were truly without hope, then we would accept all the pain and become numb to it. But no instead there’s this cruel thing called hope that makes us think we can beat it, so it stabs us and makes us expect salvation that we never get. It makes the pain so much worse because we keep comparing the pain to some imaginary life that’s better. But it never comes. Hope is just a drug that makes us hallucinate great things, but once the high wears off–and it always does–the […]
I guess my best wasnt good enough. See you all on the other side. Im done.
Everything is so fucking wrong.
EVERYTHING IS SO FUCKED UP AND I JUST WANT TO SCREAM. I’m so angry these days. And so so lonely.
I can’t do anything as well because people will just be like ”what’s your problem” but my problem is EVERYONE. I just want to cry and hide and go back and fix everything. Everything has yet again fucked up. I fucked shit up again and I literally did not see it coming AT ALL but it just happened because that’s what happens to me. I fuck up. That’s all I do.
I don’t want a thing from life. Everything is just […]
Everyday feels the same. Everyday I want to crawl into a corner and never come out. Does this ever end?
here’s a sum up of me. I am: a *****, a wannabe, stupid, annoying, a loser, a twat, self centered, whiny, judgemental, biased, traitor, lier, ugly, unwanted, big headed, bitchy and over powering
I should be; dead
Why??!! Why??!! Why does everybody always say that I’m happy, and I’m funny and laughing and stuff?! Do they really don’t see that HUGE mask I wear most of the time??? It’s just so crazy. Today too, I was at the part-time therapy (monday till friday from 9am till 3pm) and the group and the therapists thought that I was happy and that everything was okay, and so on. And that while they know I wear often a mask and that it goes really bad with me right now. But how hard I tried, they wouldn’t believe me I’m feeling really bad and that all […]
Hi I’m lostfaerie. I WANT TO DIE. I have wanted to die for just about every day of the last 22 years. I ‘m about to turn 33 and I’ve been suicidal since age 10. It is so hard for me to get through each day without cutting or harming myself. I truly want to die. I’m supposed to have surgery in a week. I’m hoping that I will never wake up. All I am is a burden to my husband and family, it’s all I’ve ever been. I’m worthless, a piece of shit on the road. No one in my family understands how I […]
So.. Hi. This is my first post.
I’m not really sure what to say? But I guess how i feel or what not.
Depressed, Confused, and Alone.
My 3 best friends, who won’t dare to leave me, Like everyone else did.
I’ve been cutting for almost 7 years.
I don’t know what to do,
I don’t know how to stop.
Or if i can.
I’ve been hospitalized many times.
Inpatient- Outpatient.
Put on meds,
Put on more meds.
and nothing seems to work.
I keep telling myself that i will eventually grow out of it.
But will I?
Once i’m dead, maybe.
I’ve been thinking […]
So I’m so fckin depressed, I want to kill myself! Why would god put me through this, I know I’m triping but still I pray & pray!! Yet no one helps fck friends! They can die slow! Why why… Fck everything in this world! It can burn in hell!! I’m tired of family. Why the fck with god put me with them… I guess the devil might help me.. I hate so fckin much! I just want to leave this ***** and never come back. So fckin depressed and sucidal, I’m lost and confused, I’m probably gonna fck my life up, but it is what […]
I’m just getting weaker and weaker every day. This world brings me so much pain that even looking outside the window tears me apart. I feel hopeless, like I’m trapped in some medieval torture device and can’t escape. I’m afraid of life and death, both options just scare me so much it’s hard to breathe.
Life? Decades of suffering, loneliness, working a job that I will hate (if I even will get any job at all), growing old alone, dying alone and sick… all the moments that I will cry, wish for death… I can’t imagine actually living, outside, working, talking to people. It all seems […]
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