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I want to die, I wish I could find my pills and OD on them but I know how much it would hurt the ones who love and care about me. I am feeling very suicidal right now, but every time I reach for the pills I know how much it would hurt those who love me I just do not have enough energy too really keep going. Its only a matter of time before I’m gone <3
There was a time years ago when I was so depressed, I cried myself to sleep every night but everyday, I smiled. I was a clown who couldn’t wash off her make-up. I didnt really know myself, a girl I was “in love” with broke my heart, lied to me and led me on. And yes, it sent me further into depression. I did some drugs, pills. I drank some, vodka. But really, what depressed me the most is everyone thought I was fine and looking back now, I know thats what really bothered me. My family thought I was fine, hell, everyone thought I was fine. […]
So it is awfully shitty to take a pre test online for ajob and realize u cannot even begin to do the math on the sample questions,,, how scvrewed up is that? its simple percents and iam not able to do that so i feel quite defeated right now!! as if i could think yself better~na not happening in this lifetime\1 SUCKS TO B ME!
I’m almost 14 years old and I don’t know what’s happening. I’ve always had a good life. Protected, secure. Always a good student and had a lot of friends. In December of 2011 I started cutting I stopped after 3 months. I felt alone even when I wasn’t. Myy life was in great shape for awhile. But all of a sudden I’ve started feeling alone, I’ve cried myself to sleep and the worst part is no one in a million years would even guess that I would feel this way. I recentley fell in love with my best guy friend. My parents are splitting up and my friends […]
tick tock tick tock.. the clock made it seem like life was passing so slowly. I sat there looking at myself in the mirror as the tears rolled down my face. Pill after pill I began to feel sleepy. I had the rope and knife next to me. I got sick over and over. the blood dripping down my sides never felt any better. As I fell asleep I was hoping I would never wake up again. but I did.
Recently, I’ve befriended this guy during my math class. I’ve always known of him since all of my friends are his friends, and he always appeared to be this average, hilarious, nice, druggy guy, which he is, but at the same time he is so much more. I like his presence more than he likes his own.
One day, he looked over to me and just goes “you are depressed or have been” and I was shocked. Then he was like “you used to cut” just sort of guessing facts at me. And I asked him how he knew and he told me that he just […]
This past month ive had a relapse of depression. I was depressed as a kid (age 7-10) and now I’m depressed again (age 15). The reason for my relapse is frustration and stress at school with grades and such. It has escalated so quickly. I think of suicide most of the time. Today at school when i was walking in the hall i saw a sign out of the corner of my eye and one of the words read “Suicide” and did a double take and the word was gone. I guess i hallucinated. Anyway, i was never diagnosed with depression and i want to […]
Planning my suicide is my new obsession.
Will I actually DO it? Â Odds are against me because it’s 7 months from now, exactly one year from the date my life really ended. Â Also, they say if you talk about it, you won’t succeed. Â Does talking about it here count? Â We’re all anon here… no one to save us… no, I say it doesn’t count. Â Maybe talking here will scratch that annoying itch. Â I don’t WANT anyone to know about this. Â I don’t want to deal with their Emotions About It on top of my own, I don’t want them to feed me the requisite bullshit to […]
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I’m a 16 year old guy.
My only friend is this girl in my 6th period class. We don’t really hang out, but we talk in school. So that’s a friend right? We talk at night over the phone about all sorts of stuff. Since I don’t even sleep at night I always have to hang up on her because she’s so stubborn and refuses to sleep until I do. But even though we talk about lots of deep, important stuff at night, we have never had to say anything like “Don’t tell anyone!” She just trusts me and I just trust her.
Sorry I should choose better words. […]
My hanging is still a plan. When I will go through with it is undecided. It will not be now. I have too much to do for the holidays, and things that i must deal with and take care of.
I have an ex that i need to deal with when the new semester starts in a few weeks.
I NEED to deal with that before i can leave this earth.
The hardest part though will be hurting my mother… She is the only thing that will hold me here.. ( ill write about her later if your curious)
But i am not worrying about that now, because for […]
all i ever wanted was a hug… i am crying my stupied eyes out right now… watching my blood fall on the floor.. i fucking hate life.. i have a gun in my safe and im about to go blow my brains out couse i cant handle this house anymore… help..me..
my ex the girl i love more then anything in the world just told shes dating the guy she developed a crush on while we were dating. she decided to move in with the guy a few days after the break up n now shes dating him. my one true love is gone. n i think im gonna kill myself tonight
It’s been so long since I’ve written. So glad to be back with my family. Have you ever just sought comfort from a stranger? I know I have.
A lot had happened.
Me and Brice (love of my life) went out…once again. He ended up not talking to me for 2 whole weeks. Then he said he never wanted to talk to me again. I once again wrote my suicide letter, thinking I had nothing more to live for. I think it was the 6th time. But anyways he eventually ended up talking to me again. We still talk. Everything is not solved and I’ve promised so […]
I don’t know why i try anymore, honestly. it seems like everything i do actually does nothing in this world. I give my friends everything they ask for and keep my promises, you know, being a good friend, and they make up excuses, “oh, i had to stay home and watch my sister” or “I forgot” a couple weeks later. Dropping classes with me because it makes you too tired to be able to go hunting and leaving me to be with your cousin who buys you stuff. It’s crap because im supposed to be her friend, but she leaves me to be with her […]
I feel helpless.
Unmotivated. Unloved. Pathetic.
It’s not because of my pessimistic mindset but it’s what everyone thinks I am. They’re right. I am worthless. I feel like I’m hanging off the edge and no one is there to save me. My parents would never understand why I’m unhappy. They would say how blessed I am to live under a roof and have food.
Maybe I’m ungrateful, too. But it’s not my fault that I feel this way. Depression has taken over my life and I think I can handle it on my own with a blade and self-loathing. I’m a coward as well. Instead of discussing my […]
always my parents told me “ald these problems are made by our fault” is this normal? because i’m 15 years old and i have other way to see the world and please i’m just 15!!! i cut my veins in the shower because i don’t know how to face the world… i don’t think that it’s just my fault i just play truant one time and the huge trust go to the toilette in a second…
do you just want to be heard or do you need someone to talk to? can I help?
(Sorry for my english I’m chilean)
I offer a no-soul body, a broken heart and a intelligence like a baby monkey… If someone want it just call me
I feel like i’m in the same hole since september and it comes worst day by day..
Goodbye hope!!
So here is my story..
i am a 22 year old female and I’ve never been more lost in my life. I really don’t know why..i have a great family, friends, job etc…but i feel empty, i cant control the way i act, think, or feel. its like someone else takes over and i cant even find myself.  What i find most difficult is to explain how i feel. No words can really express it. I’m usually just all over the place. Say one thing, do another. I’m not exactly sure what i want and I’m very indecisive. i worry about absolutely everything and when i even try to […]
For those who’ve kept up with my post. I almost cut last night but chose to make this video about self harm. The pictures are of my self harm they are graphic so if your easily triggered please dont watch.
Leave your comments on the video do you like it?
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KH0xxe3Kra0&feature=youtu.be
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