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My dad suck fucking dick!!!!!!! He’s such an asshole and all he ever does is irritate everybody . And whenever he drinks he always has something else to blame it on like its never his fault and he’s such a fucking saint, and he’s forever judging people like he’s so much better then they are, like he’s fucking perfect,,, I can’t even stand to look at his face, it revolts me and I have to control myself from hurting him, why can’t he just disappear and fuck off!!!!!!!!

I know what it’s like to self-harm. What it’s like to have the feeling of relief after a quick slice. What its like to hold that blade and feel like nothing can stop you. Trust me, I know. Thankfully, after a year and a half, I have overcome that escape. But now, I have three friends who do it. One because she gets yelled at by her mom. One with absolutely no reason to whatsoever. And the other because of a boy.

Im sorry, but there’s no fucking reason to do it if there’s nothing wrong. No reason at all. It angers me so much that […]

I’m always thinking if i ever go crazy, what would be the thing that makes me crazy. This seems like it’s getting there, and that is making me close…what would it be? When will i get crazy?
What would be the thing that makes me suicide. I’ve tried once in high school, and it was from a fight with a staff, thinking that i’ll make the staff regret for yelling at me, and go to the hospital and make the thing big. But i know that it’s from things that build up with my other friend. But i was saved…
now what would be the […]

Ever have one of those days where you just want to smash every goddamn thing, take it and burn it?

I’d like the earth to spiral into the sun.

Nuclear holocaust.

Zombie apocalypse.

I don’t give a shit what happens; it’s the end result I’m concerned with.

I haven’t been on here in a while, it’s been about 2 months and in those 2 months I’ve been content with myself, I’m not anymore I don’t even know why. There’s pretty much all new people on here since I’ve been. on I haven’t seen one person I remember. Not saying its bad just differen. I am sad though that idk what happened to those people. I remeber a girl named Sophie that would post random thoughts, I really liked those.

I don’t really know what to write. Don’t really even know why I’m here. Well lets start off by saying I’ve been depressed for ATLEAST a year. I don’t honestly really even have a reason, I just want to leave this cold world and never have to deal with anything or anyone again. Well last saturday, like a week ago me and my mom went to dinner with her ex and a boy he works with, we kept smiling ar each other, and were throwing ice at each other. And then afterwards we went to the movies, held hands the whole time and gave me a big hug […]

I try and try, but whatever I do I screw up. It’s always my fault. I’m tired of trying to act like myself, I know I’m falling into a hole an I’m so scared. Im talking less and less buy know one is noticing. You know why be asue none cares I’m just taking up space! Im not even trying anymore to put up a act.
I feel shitty ad ugly every single day! I’m not happy in this life anymore.

Well I’m giving up. I can’t take it. Just when things look up I go right back down. Tonight may be my last. Fuck off world I love you jesus

im sorry mom dad and Josie and all my family. I still love all of you after death

I’ve just cut myself for the first time,and now I feel like shit,but also kinda relieved.

Tired of this life, this shit, the same struggle, the same fight over and over, same feelings, always worthless, always pathetic, never good enough! It’s exhausting. So why can’t I cut? I can’t be that painful. A few quick slices and its done, oblivion, and yet I can’t do it, I can’t even scratch myself. Plenty of you self harm yet I can’t even nick myself with the scalpel. Just. One. Little. Cut. It can’t. Be that difficult, can’t hurt that much, can’t possibly hurt as much as this shitty life does. So why can’t I do it??? I just don’t want to do this […]

I’m lost. I can’t be found. I don’t know who or what I am. If you ask me two years ago who and what I was I could’ve told you. Now I can’t even begin to wonder. The relaxing thoughts now don’t even dare to step into my mind and it makes me rather sad. At least something made me relaxed and I miss the thoughts. I want them back. I’m done with my pills because even though I may be getting better nothing else is. I’m not strong. I can’t live life. Like I said, life is a test to see who’s strong enough […]

I’m in so much pain, my stomach hurts, my chest hurts and ohh my head is killing me.
God i really don’t know what happen. I used to be the girl who never had a negative bone in her body and now am a girl who just want an escape.
I never meant to brake my promise to her. i said i would sleep over and have the best Christmas with my best friend, especially since she was having some problems at home and things were finally getting better again.
I FORGOT OKAY!!! and the worst part of forgetting was that […]

I’ve been on this site before and took a pretty long break. A lot of stuff has happened, but I’ve decided to probably end my life sometime today. I’ve been suffering from severe depression since I was twelve and have had suicidal thoughts every day since then. I’ve tried to live for others but I don’t have a will to live anymore. I tried to die multiple other times as a child and carried the pain around me for a long time, no treatments have worked and it hurts to wake up everyday so I’m going to finally liberate myself through death. If you want […]

im going crazy these two days. i dont know why. I sent to ***** all of my Loves. Sitting all weekend alone by tv and being a vegetable. Tomorow i totally move out from my city and i will be living totally alone in a small city with no friends. I am going to quit my job at ambulance tomorow totally – i will even delete that one shift.. Somehow im deleting everything and preparing for a new start from 0. I just dont know why. I miss my friends and i miss attention, but somewhy im pulling myself to sadness black and dark period. […]

I hate myself

i fell worthless basical everyday people think that i am happy hyper girl they expect but deep inside i fell like shit like everyone hates me i struggle to learn i am a really slow learner i try my best. i hate everthing about me my body my eye my face everthing i wear jumpers in summer and leggings somtimes because i fell so fat and that people will judge me i hate getting notice by people i somtime fell like i want to be invisble i fell like no one cares about me no more i hate looking at my self in the mirrow […]