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I am alive. I didn’t die. No one knows I tried, I passed out for hours, I woke up and threw up. Didn’t die. Didn’t go to the hospital. I still want to die. I know people look at my life, and wonder how I could possibly be unhappy. My parents are married, seem happy. My dad lost his job, we are in danger of losing our house. Our family is fucked up. I have diagnosed depression, ADHD, anxiety, panic disorder, PTSD. I was raped and I never told anyone. I have always hated myself, that made it worse. I started using drugs, skipping school. […]

To be, or not to be–that is the question:

Whether ’tis nobler in the mind to suffer

The slings and arrows of outrageous fortune

Or to take arms against a sea of troubles

And by opposing end them.

To die, to sleep

And by a sleep to say we end

The heartache, and the thousand natural shocks

That flesh is heir to.

‘Tis a consummation devoutly to be wished.

To die, to sleep

To sleep…

perchance to dream:

ay, there’s the rub,

For in that sleep of death what dreams may come

When we have shuffled off this mortal coil,

Must give us pause.

There’s the respect.

That makes calamity of so long life.

For who would bear the whips and scorns of time,

The […]

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When you are hurt, there is nothing to do , because no one is every there. I struggle with the constant reminder of getting bullied and my parents not understanding. all they say is “Ignore them , they will go away.” Its not easy. i have been ignoring, and if anything, it makes them stronger. I want to fight back but the fear of getting hurt once again stops me. I sit at home and cry every night because of my parents and or school. Then i think, There is nothing that can help. Not crying at least. I start to think, Cutting is my […]

So I posted a while ago about cutting. I ended up with my parents seeing it. They took me to the ER I stayed there 3 nights then my first ride in an ambulance was to the psychiatric hospital I was being admitted into. It was such a scary experience. I didn’t even cut myself bad I didn’t even bleed but it did leave scars. I arrived late at night, I had to share a room with a roommate. There was a lot of kids there. Then when I woke up the next morning that I can say was the worst day of my life. […]

sometimes it really IS that easy

choice dawg

Call you up in the middle of the night
Like a firefly without a light
You were there like a slow torch burning
I was a key that could use a little turning

So tired that I couldn’t even sleep
So many secrets I couldn’t keep
Promised myself I wouldn’t weep
One more promise I couldn’t keep

It seems no one can help me now
I’m in too deep
There’s no way out
This time I have really led myself astray

CHORUS
Runaway train never going back
Wrong way on a one way track
Seems like I should be getting somewhere
Somehow I’m neither here nor there

Can you […]

kay so for those of you who know, I’m doing an oral report about depression. and i got this so far”

“Depression can be a terrible thing. Some people may not think it, But Depression is a mental health disorder.  Depression is were you’re basically sad for usually a long period of time.

Some people wonder what the signs and symptoms of depression are. so im going to tell you a few:

 

A constant feeling of sadness, anxiety, and emptiness
The person feels hopeless
Individuals can feel restless
Patients may lose interest in activities or hobbies they once enjoyed
Levels of energy feel lower
 Hard to concentrate, remember details, and […]