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So this is what I’m thinking about doing write a note to my mom saying sorry write a note to my school saying they’ve taught me a lot since my freshman year then get one if my tied nooses from the garage and my knife and hopefully this time successfully commit suicide. 🙁 goodbye world and to all my abusers I hope you can be happy now.
While I am perfectly capable of writing some poetic, deep, artful little essay about why I want to die, I am not going to. Death is not beautiful, it is not poetic, it is not some great adventure, and to write in prose suggesting as such would seem wrong. For the past three or so years I have tried to tell myself that there is a reason not to do this. I’m not about to share any personal details (other than that I am not in school/college, and am old enough to do this sensibly). Over the past three years, I have tried medication, therapy, […]
I was16 years old, I have tried/thought to kill myself four times, and this is my story… It started in Feb. I overdosed on 8 pills, no one knew. Then in may I tried to jump out of a window, i only started to open then i stopped. Things started to get really bad in Oct , my cousin that past away, my mom was taking care of my aunt, so she was out of the picture for the time being, me and my little sister were always fighting, i have been struggling with anxiety, depression and a eating disorder, for years. Only if i […]
When I was 10 or 11 i was naive and unaware (ignorance=bliss) and now I am 16, and excited for my death… I don’t know when/where it will be just yet but I’m happy for once.
My only question is this: Could I have predicted or even prevented this depression from happening? Or is this just how things are SUPPOSED to turn out?
Life’s a joke, a game, a playtoy for us to fumble around with until the inevitable… Ah it’s good to release thoughts.. 🙂
I’m Going to do it. Sooner or Later. I’ve got issue’s.
Just me trying to be nice dont like to be messed with but I didnt start problems (last year) some guy kicks my ass , my first fight wow I cried after only cause.i felt stupid it didnt even hurt , kick some guys ass even though he already hates himself , ha. This year: I cried during sports p.e , went to restrooms tried to make myself throw up and cried in stall than some people realized how sad I really am because I wasnt talking but my emotions change in a snap . Hopefully people dont realize I cutt my upper […]
Wow, the people I live for there the best people you will ever meet. What if one of them is disliking you or I think that , I think he knows because my amazing friend(girl) is going out with my other amazing friend (guy) she tried to overdose one day and she told me. And she told her boyfriend two days later it freaken sucks I couldnt tell him because I promised her if he does know and he dislikes me now guess if I dont have the complete four theres only one road to take suicide 🙂 .
Each cut is like a battle scar, like a fading glory. I dare myself to go deeper and deeper each time, feeling the rush of life, but then it’s gone. I don’t know what to do anymore.
I hate therapists, I hate people who pity me, and I just hate everything. Nothing good comes out of when they just say things, because they aren’t helping.
The date is set, but it won’t be for another 3 years, until I’m a senior, until I become that perfect person that my parents, friends, family, and teachers want. I’ll be just like Terrence, no one will know what hit them.
I’m not […]
I’m 27 I can’t take it!!!!!last week I tried to do it. I waited for my boyfriend to go out and I slit my wrist. He came back before he should have and found me. If he had just left me a lone i’d be dead. I injected a dose of drugs that should have killed me, but didn’t. My depression, drug use,cutting and weight are out of control now. I have thoughts that everyone would just be better off if I was gone. I know I will. I don’t know what my next step should be: live die whatever.
gone
my god how could you take him.. how could you murder him! K. my poor sweet K…. how can you be dead?… you were just at my door talking to me face to face…. how can you be gone… please let this be a nightmare….. my god please im begging you let this be a nightmare…..
K. my sweet K. i loved you. i did. you were the first boy i ever loved. and now your gone.. never again will i here your deep voice say my name. never again will i look into your gorgious blue eyes. never again will i see you smile….
how could […]
“What  the fuck were you thinking!!!???  Do you care!!??? Does it even bother you!!???  You almost killed yourself and who knows how many other people!!!”
No… I couldn’t find even an ounce of regret. Â I have searched the deepest parts within me and no, I didn’t care. Â It doesn’t bother me… Is that bad?
What would have happened that night? Â Oh God, I am suicidal, but maybe a little more subtle than a gun to my head. Â I am reckless, completely and totally to the point that the thought of dying is barely an afterthought. Â I’m consciously putting my life in as much danger at any given […]
I’ve once more attempted suicide and failed I’m 14 I have a creative mind I guess I’ll just have to see what happens tomorrow I’ve realized I do need someone to talk to so if you can just please comment.
It’s the loneliest feeling in the world – to find yourself just sitting there and not knowing anything or who you are anymore. To have everybody ask how you are, and not really know what to say. Walking down an empty street, listening to the sound of your own footsteps. Shutters closed, blinds drawn, everything closed. And you aren’t sure whether you’re walking toward something, or if you’re just walking away. I hate what I’ve become to escape what I couldn’t handle being.. and I don’t know whether I was actually getting better, or I was just getting used to the pain.
I realized long ago […]
I posted on here nearly a year ago, when I was fifteen. Well, I’m sixteen now, and things have not improved in the least.
My dad is still an angry, violent alcoholic. My mom still stands behind him. I still come home with outstanding grades, only to be put down by my parents, saying it still isn’t good enough. That I’m not even trying.
Here’s the thing; I actually haven’t been trying. I can’t anymore. The depression has turned. I used to cry a lot, and reach out to friends when I was at my worst. Now, I don’t feel much of anything. I have no motivation, […]
This is it, I’m sitting on the edge of no return and theres no take backs. I wish I could just make my life better but I was born this way and can’t change it. I’m 19, never kissed a girl and no physical contact with girls in my life. I have almost no friends and all of them are boring and never want to have fun. I’m short and socially awkward. I thought I was good looking but I guess I’m not due to the nothingness that people see. Everyone rejects me, I’m a nobody. If I had a gun in my hand ready […]
Why am I at this point? I suppose that’s what many of us who get to this point will ask! I know. I have been in hell physically sick, never well, a day here and there, but no meaningful life for 3 years now. That’s enough. I am 33 and have no quality of life, no one who cares about me or stuck by me through my illness. It has grown old to everyone, like Oh…she’s sick again, and now not even my parent’s are here. I lost my husband, my job, my health, my mentality, and close to losing my spirituality as well. I […]
I don’t understand why people always get so upset about this subject or why there is such a social stigma about suicide. If I can choose to take the life of my unborn child, legally, why can’t I choose to take my own life? I honestly don’t understand why that is wrong. The most ardent pro-choice people I know are totally against suicide. People don’t like suicide because of how it will affect them, personally. They are not thinking about the pain the person who wants to die is going through; they are thinking of their own pain of losing someone.
When I say, “suicide is a […]
I have never thought of an afterlife simply because it made no sense!
But lately i need something to believe in.. i’m not religious but I dream of an island… With huge expansive plains… Wheat fields, frozen mountains. Basically all the beauty of Earth only I can control it! It’s true paradise and I CAN’T WAIT TO DIE AND GET THERE! I know this sounds so stupid but it would be soo insanely great
im 14 years old and i have good friends, im not good at school and i hate my life, it isnt the friends nor the school, i hate my mother, she told me that if i think my parents dont love me i should go away from home, or they want to give me away, or theyre just waiting for me to get 18 so they dont have to care for me anymore, im always helping my parents if they want me to do something but they only see the negative side of me… i do my best at school but i only get bad […]
Why do we suffer? I feel like somehow all this is making me grow. I find it very hard to believe that we suffer this much and nothing comes out of it, maybe that’s why I’m searching for hope all the time and waiting. To suffer like this, there’s bound to be something that’ll be worth it all. I don’t know if it’s worth it, but I can say from what I’ve heard and managed to feel before, maybe it is worth it; to function, to be happy, to be alive. We can “treat†all these mental disorders sometimes, such as depression, anxiety, OCD, or […]
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