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My life is complicated. My world is crumbling. I need help but where should I go. I feel weird calling a hotline. My problems are not anyone else’s but mine right? I’m not sure but maybe writing this will help me and someone else, all you can do is hope right?

I guess feeling horrible about myself started about 5th grade as soon as I moved to VA. Being the new geeky kid, with no friends that didn’t help. I mean I had my first “love” in 6th grade. (What a loser right?) Loving him was like my need to breathe, we ended up getting […]

I just discovered this site about a week or so ago and did my first post a few days ago. I am so relieved to find an outlet where I can express myself or read that others are going through similar experiences. We aren’t all miserable or unhappy or even suicidal, but all of us are facing some giants. I find some hope, for myself, in reading about your strengths and experiences. Thank you all-for being willing to bare your soul.

I’ve started cutting again. I’m really lonely. I just sit in the basement(that’s where my room is) and paint black and blood red hearts. I hate seeing how happy other couples are together. It makes me sad. It reminds me of how I have no one to go to, no one who won’t get mad at me for being depressed. I wish I had a special someone. I don’t like crying Alone on my bed anymore. At least I can sleep. But I wish I wouldn’t wake up. Life is painful. And it hurts to breathe.

Hey I’m 14 and very suicidal because my grandfather is sick and I’ve recently started cutting again. I just need someone to talk to before I do something terrible. Please talk to me anyone.

Loneliness, A longing for just one hand to hold, for someone to love you unconditionally no matter who you are. To live happy, not a mask of happiness, real happiness. Sometimes it feel as if the stars are the only ones who love you. Never judging nor betraying. Yet there hands are to far for one to hold. So the dark continues to envelope me in darkness. Must it be to ask. Probably so. So hard to fight for salvation. All I want is to be able to enjoy my gift of life. That’s what we all want. I don’t even know who […]

Today is the last day of summer. The weather seems appropriate, cold windy and gloomy.

I feel like every time i post something on here im at rock bottom and you can only go up from there. But yet here i am once again, posting something new. Today is the last day of summer, and im scared because i dont know what i want to do with my life. I feel like ive lost the will to succeed in my life. I just want to fast forward like 5 years of my life. I see my self as a sad person who i desperately want to […]

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i dont feel good i dont feel good at all. I want to throw up till the point i will throw up my insides. Why dont i feel good? I barely ate much today and i already sick. I got over a cold a week or two ago and look at me. A complete failure at my own health. God… can you please do me the honors of killing me. As a birthday and christmas present can you please kill me. Im stressing, im depressing, and im tired of living this life. :L I just dont wanna be here much longer than i have. I […]

Every time I looked at something I saw. His face. Every time I thought of something it was him. Its like a fly that just won’t go away. Why can’t people just open their ears a little

The latest Holocaust is happening as we speak. Scores of thousands of men and woman are finding themselves financially and emotionally wrecked by the greed of Wall St., and the otherwise slashing of our safety nets by the Conservative Right. Day after day, as steady as the flow of trains were to Treblinka in ’43, humans are hurling themselves off bridges; taping plastic bags over their heads, after a deadly cocktail; hanging themselves in garages; and slitting their wrists to the latest figures at FOX. A whole generation wiped out by greed and empty consumerism.
It’s like CLOCKWORK ORANGE, SOYLENT GREEN, and LOGAN’S RUN all […]

I’m messed up. So very messed up.
I just want this to all to be over.
I want to die.
I can’t take anymore ridicule.
I can’t take anymore abuse.
I can’t take anymore blame.
Tonight once my house becomes completely silent I will leave through my window for the last time.
With a bag full of every prescription pill I have I will walk to the old rail road track bridge.
Once I get there I will swallow every last one of the pills that were supposed to help.
After I will write one last note explaining myself.
So that whoever it may be that finds me won’t bother to call for an ambulance.
I […]

I’m still alive because from the little pieces of my heart I still have left, I feel there might be hope, and I don’t want to miss out on things that I want, especially marriage. I still have another good 6 years or so, but I’ll be dead before then. I can’t keep waiting around for the perfect guy. I always dream of him, there’s actually someone I like who I really want to marry someday, but that probably won’t work out. And then there’s my family. For some reason my sister just hates me, and my dad likes working me to death. My mom […]

Going to my garage
Turning my car on
Inhaling the co from the tail pipe
100% death
Or
Not?

I don’t need to fail @ this
I wanna make sure I DON’T wake up

For years i’ve been trying to cope with these feelings i have. i tried to make it better with cutting, smoking , weed , and mindless sex.. but nonee of these have worked. i quite cutting for a few months, but now i’ve gone back to it and i’m scared…