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Blank stares within the rain, if only you endured my pain. You shall know how much i love you. Despite my feelings of blue.
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Blank stares within the rain, if only you endured my pain. You shall know how much i love you. Despite my feelings of blue.
“Get over it†they say, staring right through me
“Talk it out†she says, holding my hand
He pulls back “to set me freeâ€
So I’m drifting like cold sand
Sitting in my room, staring out the window
Razor in my hand, blinking through the tears
Waiting for the world to slow
Stumbling through my fears
And the whispers…wrap me up
And my stories…screaming to be heard
But now I know my time is up
And I’m streaming out the words
Please make room for us inside your heart
They think they know me well, but that’s not the truth
They don’t know, it’s ripping me apart
So I hold myself aloof
Holding back the screams tearing up my soul
Keeping up […]
as i was walking to my mailbox i found myself marching to my own beat. nothing but warm cracked gravel beneath my feet. i found myself smiling as the breeze brought movement to my lifeless hair. im still waking with no emotion on my face but a blank stare. the soil beneath the earth in which i was given birth. i long for a taste of the blistering sun wondering how hot the burn would be when im all done. i can feel it in my chest. the urge to keep walking and talking to myself. you know its out there but it hides in […]
I drag you along like a lost weight from my jail cell. Your evil and as cold as stone. I drag you around to all my classes, to every meal I eat, every breath I take, and when I think I can get a good nights sleep, and a rest from you; you show up. You twist my dream into a nightmare of you. When I finally give up and admit there is nothing else you can possibly do to hurt me, I wake up and see you standing above me; looking at me with your twisted smile.
I find myself looking in a mirror.
It’s all your fault mom.
The reason why I cut.
The reason why I cry.
The reason why I scream into my pillow everynight.
It’s all your fault mom.
You push me to the edge — you push me over.
Just when it gets good.
Just when I think everything is going to be different.
You yell! You hit! You hurt — me.
So yes,
I’m selfish. I’m dumb. I’m failure. — You won!
I’m Done!
The prison of mirrors… we can’t see,
Yet trapped we are… by its reflection,
It sees all fear and watches our downfall,
It will rip all lies and pride from the soul.
You are all… all that you hate,
Force fed memories, suffer humiliation,
Victim of darkness, of the inner hidden kind,
I am the eye within the gleam,
Shatter before a mirror that stares into (a shallow soul).
Poison yourself… revel in waste,
Poison yourself, in the name of evil… destroy yourself.
I will always be the reason to hate your self,
Mirrors… will oppress your mind,
And follow all… all that you hide,
Blind, step inside […]
Do you ever feel like you are completely worthless? I do.
Do you ever think how much easier the world would be if you weren’t in it? I do.
Ever day i cut myself. It feels amazing. Like all the stress in my life is just released.
I live with a shadow- heavy on my shoulders. I’m dragging every fucked up memory around. I keep looking for that moment that it will be taken away.
After every pointless day i feel death is the only answer.
I may be crazy but im done fighting. I want to just give up. I want to be realeased from all my pain.
I’m done.
im reallly fucking happy today. i chopped all my hair off. its like a new me. i keep smiling and dancing duidfeui im at a loss for words i just wann sing and dance and run barefoot through my yard
does anyone have any specific films or tv shows or music they watch that go with their feelings, or like how they would like things to be, like at the moment i’m watching frequency, which i like cause it makes me feel, maybe, just maybe, i could change the shit thats happened, and make things better.
I’d like to believe that things are getting better but they aren’t. I’d like to believe that things will change but they simply won’t. I keep dreaming that I have friends and that people will actually want me for once. Instead I have people who pretend to like me because they don’t have a fricken back bone to admit they don’t like me. Or they just ignore me, like that’s any better.
I’m so fucking tired of pleasing people.
Put on a smile no one cares how you really feel. If you’re not happy you don’t belong. You know that quiet fat girl over there sitting by herself? She’s […]
what if tomorrow I woke up and I was loved … what if tomorrow I woke up and all this was just a terrible terrible nightmare …. what if my childhood was filled with toys and happiness, instead of bruises and fear …. what if I chose a husband who loved me, instead of one who fit my version of what life is … what if I had parents who weren’t addicts and who blame me for not taking care of them properly and who still still still are like a cancer in my life … What if …. Man, I would sleep for a […]
i’m always planning for the worst
i signed my will right after birth
i got my eulogy rehersed
Why cant i not be left alone? Why is my name being call out every five seconds? There is other people in the fucking house you know. I cant even sleep anymore without my name being call. Ugh im going to go insane. It makes me sad and mad to even have this name. Makes me less of a person and more of a slave.:/ I cant wait to kill myself so everything is left alone without me. At least i get to sleep for once. At least i could be left alone out of this world. v- v
I’ve never had strong feelings for someone like I did with this one person; however, we never met. Apparently this means nothing to some people. Anyway; today I learned that he’d been more suicidal than I originally expected (with a history of attempts). I’m frustrated because my love couldn’t reach him -which only proves to me that love is bullshit; it cannot exceed the limits of distance, and it cannot heal broken hearts. I usually don’t bother myself with this kind of issue as it usually is just a matter of brain chemistry… but it’s making me feel uncomfortable.
I want to see the blood
I want to feel the pain
I’m trekking through the mud
I’ve slowly gone insane
And now I just don’t care
It’s crowding in my brain
I’m ripping out my hair
I’m drowning in the pain
My heart has turned to ice
My body is all numb
You think that I’m so nice
But honey you’re just dumb
I feel I’m in a cube
Boxed in from every side
You say it’s a bad mood
So I’ll just go and hide
I peek out from my hole
The darkness keeps me in
The thoughts, they take their toll
There’s no way that I can win
The days are dragging by
The end is creeping near
I’ll leave it with a sigh…
One […]
Anna my friend i certanitly hope you are ok. Please do not go through what you said you were gonna do PLEASE i beg of you. Im worried about you,      Â
I cant help ur lonliness but im always availiable. if u dnt want to talk just give me a sign ur ok. Please. Im not sleepn til i get some sign your ok.
Brandon(Nihilism00)
@ 34 I may not belong here
That’s it, I’m finished.
I’m going to hang myself.
I’ll drink and I’ll do drugs before
I’ll even cut myself like I do everyday.
But I swear, I’m gone this time.
5th time lucky I guess.
Baby join me in death
Baby join me in death
Baby join me in death
We are so young
our lives have just begun
but already we’re considering
escape from this world
and we’ve waited for so long
for this moment to come
was so anxious to be together
together in death
Won’t you die tonight for love
Baby join me in death
Won’t you die
Baby join me in death
Won’t you die tonight for love
Baby join me in death
This world is a cruel place
and we’re here only to lose
so before live tears us apart let
death bless me with you
Won’t you die tonight […]
my heart hurts I sit in bed and think for hours why the hell does it hAve to be me why? There’s nothing that seems to take away the pain and just thinking about him makes me realize he’ll never be mine. Why go through that suffering why do it when I can make it stop why do I deserve to be this? Between the shit at home and school I just can’t do it.
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