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So, I suppose everyone has always thought that their life should be special. That they should have achievements in their life. I thought I had plenty of achievements in my life. Since saying things to random people can help even if there is no response I’ll give it a try. It may be selfish but I hope that I’ve deserved it. I’ll start from the beginning.

I’ve had a skin condition that makes my skin look like a fish (ichthyosis Vulgaris) since I was born. In public school I was harassed and had no friends. Even the teacher treated me as if I was infectious. Since I […]

the bordum is getting to me ive been depressed in the past am almost a past cutter but damn with nothing to do i dont know what will happen next……….. suicide?

I dont want to boring all the people reading this, and im too lazy to tell you the history of my life but trust me its been very fucked up and maybe today i will commit suicide, and i would love to do it in front of the camera but obviously i cant uploaded tothe internet, so i need help i jusst need someone to add me to my msn, an record the livechat and the that person put it on the internet, please i need help to do this, i hope someone help me on any of this 2 mails you can find me :

If anyone wants to ask me about the ******** method, please email me to this adress;

JonesHenry@hotmail.fi

I cant talk about it openly here, since the moderator wont allow me.

its so cold…being alone

I can’t seem to cry, I’ve taken notice, i don’t understand I really believe I lost the ability to and Ive los the ability to dwell on my past it might be ADHD or whatever but idk the choking has side effects it might be that. I’m jealous of the fact that I ain’t depressed I’m just actively suicidal and have bipolar depression. I am starting to like my dad again and am feeling very gullible at that. Not much else to say other thanthe fact that I hope my time is near and if you bring religion into this. I will become violent and […]

I just wat to grab a knife and stab myself repeatly in the chest. Grab a scraper and scrap ever dead flesh i call my skin. Go down into my basement and grab an extension cord go outside(its like dark here btw) and just go hang myself. I am through with life. I am through of feeling this sort of emotional pain. I would go cut right now if i had the oppritunity. But you know what, i will be selfish and take the cowardly way out. I will do some good for the world for once and end my life for good. If its […]

i’m running out of reasons for me. i feel like i make everyones life hell. my family, my boyfriend, and even my friends. i see things and hear things. i can’t stop emotionally eating and i constantly think about hurting myself. i had a problem with cutting and smoking p*t because it helped me feel better..my boyfriend says if i do it again he’ll leave me. but i feel like those things are little but they help me hold on. at night when everyone goes to sleep i fantasize about all these ways to kill myself. my mother wastes money on pills for me that […]

So yeah I sort of set a date I want to terminate my life on, have you ever set a date?? I am actually worried I might chicken out or something…

I’m so fucking done. Honestly, this decision is so rational and considered. Ijust can’t take anymore.

I always feel guilt, towards others… When I cut. I’m scared to commit suiced. I always think of how bad it would hurt if I lost someone that is important to me. My boyfriend is going through some shit right now and we got on the phone and talked for a bit. He said he hated his life and everything and everyone in it. I’m either nothing or everything… I still havent figured it out yet. He threatens to kill himself quite often… I always tell him “Brett dont. Suicide is permanent there would be no going back to a life that you CAN change […]

Have you ever feel so depress that you feel like you are dead? That you cant continue on anymore than you have now. That every minute your typing this your just wondering? Does anyone really care what i write how i feel and what i want. That feeling you are just going jump off the edge of never coming back but you end up waking up in a hospital with your family there seeing you in this condition or your friends finding out what you had done. Or be one of the lucky ones that had finally achieve what they wanted and that you just […]

Hi guys.

Been doing it pretty rough recently. Been suggesting from depression for last 8 years but only been diagnosed for 2. Before that I just dealt with life how I thought everyone did not realising that actually I was sick. It all started when I had to leave the forces and then my best friend was killed in action. For last 2 years I’ve been suffering with depression and anxiety and the fact I haven’t dealt with stuff before.

3 months ago my marriage broke down and in turn I’ve lost my house and am living with my parents. I’m off work sick as […]

so yeah i’ma off myself soon now

idk what to say, i’ve already told you all so many times. so i’m just gonna say bye.

goodbye.

I wanna write something here plz tell me buddys how to i do that?