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well my name is brittany im 17 Ive been through a lot in my life my dad always tld me i was the biggest mistake of his life:( which i though a lot about in whn i turned 13 n i got rly depressed. my mom has always tried really hard to keep me and my sisters a roff over our head n food in our stamchs. when i was 14 i stoped eatin anythin i wound up getting anerixa but i got treatment for it 🙂 i started cutin then als0. ive tryed suicided twice bt thankfuly i was stoped. ive came to relize i have […]

I think I’ve discovered the lesson I’m meant to learn in this life. That is… suicide is O.K. People fear suicide and always want to “help” someone because if someone kills himself it makes others have to question their own life and meaning.

I believe that deep down everybody is unhappy with life and feels it’s not worth it. This is why deep down everybody is unhappy and feels empty. This is why humans treat each other so badly and carry on like they do. However, people have convinced themselves that life is worth it, because once you realize the truth it is difficult and chaotic.

It […]

I’ve been having the weirdest feeling lately. It’s not really a ‘feeling’, but it’s hope. I’d never thought I’d feel it, ever. Being hopeless was one of my ‘best’ traits. But today I actually felt happy. I was home alone all day of course, but still. I opened the blinds, curtains, doors and let it a lot of sun. I made myself some bacon and eggs and I got my usual tutor. I cleaned for crying out loud, and I made my own ‘organisation book’ and a shopping list. And I even sat down and did my homework. That’s also usually the last thing I’d […]

I’ve been reading some of these posts for a few months now, and I finally made a profile tonight. I’m 17 and I’ve been super deppressed my whole life, and suicidal since I was five. I was beat really bad everyday when I was little and devoloped masochism. I finally managed to start convincing myself that everything would get better when the preacher at my church asked me to fill in for him Sunday night, I broke down and started crying while I was up there, and since then can barely gather the strength to get out of bed in the morning and all of […]

I’m normally okay in the morning. Mornings are usually my strong suite for the whole day. I like watching the sun come up in the morning while I’m lying by my window, a tree waving in the wind with its green leaves. It’s the best view I ever get nowadays. When I was seven and I had to be in that house all the time with my rapist there weren’t any windows. I’d lie there in my bed waiting for the morning to come but I didn’t when that would be. I could hear the rain pattering against the […]

Well, kinda woke up early watched some vids with BF that he loaded, he gotten me some food. Took another nap, woke up again to BF stating it was too quiet. LOL He turned on the TV to Law and Order. After a while, he offered his comp, while he played on his PlayStation. Made myself some ramen and rice. Nothing too productive today. LOL

Well, this is me.

I live everyday starving myself, trying to reach my perfection..

The ultimate nothingness.

I thought I should post some pictures so you all can put a face to the name.

As strange as it sounds, hanging myself has become my coping. I tie a cord around my neck and hang there for a little while until I start fading in and out. It just, I don’t know. The feeling of being so close to death comforts me. My life is at the worst its ever been, or should I say, my head. Everything around me is just fading away, becoming so incredibly meaningless. And I’m just stuck in this complete blackout in my head. I feel completely numb to the point where I can’t stand it anymore. I always thought I wanted to be numb, […]

Hello Again, Friend Of A Friend.
Damn it’s been a month or something. I was sure getting away from the bad would make me better, for a couple days maybe. And now everyone is gone, no Maelin, no Deep Abyss. I hate how people are disgusted by cutting, what would you know?
Suicide Is Painless, biggest lie I ever heard.
Anyway I guess it’s good to be back, as good as good can be.
Thanks for reading, Frontier Psychiatrist.
(New username is gonna take some getting used too :/ also I am not actually a psychiatrist :P)

hi everyone… i’m a newbie, my name’s amy. i just wanted to post and say i’m sorry for the loss that is effecting everyone tonight.. i didn’t know her, but i’m sure she was amazing, and had a beautiful soul… rip, young lady. you will be missed by all of your friends you made here…

No more debate. Helium method is decided. I ordered some stuff from the exit people in australia. it arrived last friday.

i’m so consumed by my doom that nothing else matters.
i know it’s selfish.
i know i’m a horrible person.

i’ve been diagnosing myself for years and gotten prescriptions from doctors. it’s no use. life is for the beautiful. life shouldn’t have this kind of ugly in it.

i just need to order my helium tank and this friday, i’m doing it. i just can’t keep up with life anymore.

i have no help. i shit on everyone. i’m so full of shit even i hate myself. […]

I’m tired of life- it has nothing to offer anymore- everyday is exactly the same and no matter how i try, nothing changes- it’s dull and boring and lifeless- it feels like life has been predestined for me in a sense, i don’t feel i have control over it (like living out some sort of prewritten script) and i don’t have anything to gain from it anymore whatsoever. I’m always expanding way more time, focus and energy on doing things than necessary and everything’s meaningless to the extreme. 21, never liked a girl to ask her, out, have no career in mind, bare minimum ambtion, high-school education and no interests, living at home 

I’ve always wondered what […]

A Day to Remember,
They understand, and will help you every day.
Look ’em up, get their latest album, actually all of them.

I have my lists made.  I have my plan.  The only thing stopping me are my 2 rescued pups…. the thought of them being separated breaks my heart.  They came from tragic backgrounds in Iran….I just can’t, can’t, can’t off myself and leave them to fend on their own until someone finds me.  Suggestions?

Well, I finally got a gun today. I was going to wait till next month to do it, but why bother?

I was going to write notes to the people I love, but why bother?

Once I’m gone, I’m gone, no time to look back.

At 10PM (3 hours from now) I’m driving over to the ass-cheap motel nearby and calling the cops. When they knock on the door, boom, I’m gone.

I am so freaking mad. My ex comes to my house the other night shoots in my back yard, I call the police and he files a restraining order? I cannot afford to represent myself from this right now. I just finished maternity leave and am at 60% pay right now. I owe the electric company 1500 bucks and they are going to shut us off just around the corner soon. I am so sick of being stalked and smashed by this guy. He wrecked everything my house and broke my face as well. […]

I want to cut.
I went from being happy… to just… so fucking depressed…
FML

If you die
You have no eye’s to see
You have no mouth to kiss or eat
You have no arm’s to do what arm’s do
You have no hand’s to tought & write
You just don’t exits

got ear’s to hear.

Anyone heard anything from drowning? Drowning, you still around? People want to hear from you. Hope you’re doing okay.

I recently got my phone back (with internet blocked, sneaking here on main) and my mom said she knows i go on this site (hopefully ignorant i have an account here) and says she’s alright with it.  Should i be worried?