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I feel so alone and attempted to die with pills but it only caused vomitting and made me look like a sick freak to my family even though they don’t know what happened. I realized that that was a bad method and made me look like a bigger freak to my family for getting sick. Please someone tell me where to get easier access to potassium cyanide. Is it possible to get it without a license please If someone has it I will buy it please email at hnli374@gmail.com. The pain is too much and also is sodium […]

I’m 20 and my life feels so depressing my grades are bad to the point where I won’t be able to well to conentrate I have extreme anxiety so can’t focus on much of anything without thinking I may fail. I feel so behind in life and the pain is constant no one understands and just tells me to do better but I feel hopeless and depressed about myself that it’s hard to have any motivation. I’ve attempted with pain killer drugs and took 15 at once but just threw up the whole day and made me look like a sick, weak person that always […]

the one thing that makes me want to die, is i have no one who wants me here. at least, not to me. i’m a worthless, horrible excuse for a human. i am the baby of my family, and so i was given special treatment basically. i got out of trouble when i should have been in trouble, i got extra presents, i got what i wanted usually. but now, i hate that fact. i hate the fact that i was given special treatment, because it has turned me into a narcissist, who always expects everything to be given to him. i expect everything to […]

Everyone has a story to tell. We come here to release feel like where not alone..no matter how many people say I feel your pain its never the same as your own..im the youngest of four always been called spoiled get whatever I wanted. Things changed when I turned 13 I started getting pains in my legs went to a specialist found out I have bad hips…that was 7 years ago..thought that time never been the same…im limited to what I can do I can’t ride bikes I can’t run to much I can’t walk alot I can’t kneel a certain way the list can […]

Nothing ever changes. Nothing ever gets better. There is almost nothing I can think of that could happen to make my life feel like it’s worth living, and the few things I can imagine seem unattainable. I’ve tried so many times to find a way out of the loneliness, the isolation; to find a sense of purpose so that I could feel like my life is worth something. No matter what I do, I always end up back here again, fantasizing about my heart giving out in my sleep so I simply would not have to wake up in the morning. Or of finding some […]

I guess I came to a reasoning today that my mom is the reason why I’m like this.
I love her, because well shes my mom. I guess I’ve always been close to her.
But, she’s been dealing with depression for the same amount of time I have been. So it’s not like she could always lend a helping hand.
And it’s not like she didn’t try. she really did try to help me. But her reasoning was all off.

When I would come to her crying in 5th grade about the kids that made fun of me for being ugly, she wouldn’t tell me I […]

I am 19, i left school to help my mom raise my siblings while she was in a abusive relationship. I was verbally abused by that man but i have always been the strong one, the one who dried the tears of others and never dares to cry. I fell into depression and sometimes didnt leave the house for months i would laugh and do normal things but had a fear of the outside world and the pain it could bring. we moved and now  theres no more abuse. i am in a relationship now and hes great and my mom gets along with him […]

I’m exhausted of feeling everything I’ve endured for the past four years. Tonight I will seek my way out. I’m looking for a means of suicide, a poor endeavor, I know, though tonight is my deadline, period. Can anyone please supply some information on what would be the quickest? I want to escape this torture as quick as my nimble hands may allow using any means necessary. If nothing is supported, I’ll take random pills, overdosing on anything and everything I possibly can.

I have a brother that has pills for ADD and some others I believe. And my father takes some pills to reduce his […]

This is my first time on here and I’m not really sure what’s going on in my head right now or why i even feel the need to share my thoughts with others.  My life is wonderful and i shouldn’t have anything to complain about or be upset about, but i just feel so lost right now.  I feel alone but i know that I’m not.  I wish i could shake this feeling and maybe in time i can…

What you wrote brought tears to my eyes. You described your mom in such a way that I kind of feel like I know her. It’s obvious that despite going through what no little girl should ever go through she became an amazing person and a very kind and loving mom.
It was also very obvious that she loved you very,very much and you her. I think if she were able to she would come back here and hold you forever and never let you go.
That she would tell you, “I love you and, I am SO PROUD of you! Hang in there!”

why am i here!? why did my parents have to me! im not even worth it i screw up everything and i suck at everything why did god have to put me on this stupid world! i just wish i was dead or i would dissapear and die in my sleep sooo i will never wake up. i bearly fifteen and i already want to die i knw sad throwing your life away. but i never asked for it i dnt even want it! i have nothing to look foward too my parents hate me! some of my friends are fake and u cant trust […]

I can’t do this anymore. I have tried. I think that finally I am just slowly erroding. I can’t explain it but I feel as if the only thing I want to do anymore is to create or work, but not relate to people, or make friends, or try to find love. I think I am so disgusted with people and how terribly I have been abused and misused and under appreciated, I think the bullying, the slanders, the evil eyes and crude comments have finally destroyed me. I tried so hard. I tried. And I can’t try anymore because my feet feel heavy and […]

For anyone new or who never got the memo:Okay people i want to  try and help some of you and im NOT gonna try and stop you from ending it unless you want me to and my life isn’t getting any better if that’s what anyone’s thinking i just think that maybe some of you people would want to get the weight off your shoulders before you end it i mean i know i wouldn’t want to have all that crap it’ll just make me feel bad even when im dead you get what i mean?I guess i just wanna help anyone get through the tough times […]

I want to kill myself. Nobody cares anymore. All my friends are gone. My parents don’t give a crap. I told my mother today that I wanted to kill myself, and she told me to go ahead with it. Middle school is hell. I spend lunches in the bathroom crying silently. I feel lifeless and dead inside.

I always have been. I can’t help it. I’m too shy to make friends on my own and I’m too unattractive for someone to actually want to be my friend. I can’t help it.
Middle School has been complete hell for me. I’m constantly being called the fictitious label, “emo” and nobody seems to treat me right. I know everyone else is young, naive and immature but at the moment, I don’t think I can take much more of the snide remarks and comments.
I can’t remember that last time I got a hug. My best friend doesn’t even give me hugs anymore since suspicion […]

I have been on here a few days offering my help, experiences and support. I am feeling very drained and have decided that I am not going to wear myself out. I really want to help people but I know from experience that it has to start with the person in question. I can give you all the advice and help in the world but if you are not open to trying to change then I have lost the battle before I start.

I will still come here to check up on you if you want me too…. If you are serious about trying to turn […]