General

I’ve been visiting this site more and more often over the past few months. I know it’s a signal that I’m in yet another downward spiral, but as usual, I have no idea how to break myself out of it. I can never really manage to do that. Not completely. I’m what the therapist I’m seeing calls “passively suicidal” — I don’t have an immediate plan, but I think about how I’d rather be dead than alive, and possible methods for actual suicide, should I get back to the point of wanting to make an attempt, every day, over and over again. When I’m walking […]

I am 41 and a no hope waster, with no prospects. I am a miserable small dicked twat. My wife has left me for a patient that she treated in her hospital. I have my 10 year old son who I am trying to care for and do everything he used to do. It is all so overwhelming and I am slowly dragging him down with me. I have no friends and every minute of the day he is not with me I cry. […]

Hey everyone! I wanted to share my story of my suicide attempts. I’m 16 years old, I’ve attempted suicide four times.

The first time I was 13, I tried it by cutting my wrists, i lost a lot of blood and ended up fainting, went to hospital, got stiches, and spent a week in the psych ward for observation then i went home.

My 2nd attempt, I overdosed on 30 prozac pills and 10 paracetemols, and 7 pain killers and 15 sleeping pills. I was going through a mental breakdown and had already told my parents i planned on killing myself that day (i think this time […]

Shut up

Have you ever loved somebody like with all your strength? like Eminem said:

“Have you ever loved someone so much, you’d give an arm for?
Not the expression, no, literally give an arm for?”

But what happens when the person who you love leaves you? Can you start all over again? Like erase everything from your mind and say “ok I’ll meet someone else”. I don’t, I was supposed to be happily married with the love of my life and then she left me… the thing is that it’s been more than 2 years and I can still not recovered, it seems that she left me and she took everything, […]

After much debate and worry, I’ve decided to use the helium exit bag method. I kind of tried it before but was not doing it correctly. I experimented with my depleted tank and now see how to operate it properly. I’m not sure when my roommate is getting home so I may check into a hotel to do it.

I think tonight I will go out and get a little drunk and then go buy supplies tomorrow and finish this. I’m oddly happy to know I have a plan of action and my pain will be over soon. I’m almost tempted to go ahead on to […]

i had this conflict with my mom and my brother a few years ago and now i hate everyone i have no friends and i want to die i want to cry but whenever i think of crying it makes me mad i think i treat my family horrible but all i want is for them to leave me alone i fell noone understands me and noone ever will so why wont they leave me alone i get angry way too fast and when my parents talk i dont hear them i hear angry hurtful words that stain my soul and it makes me cut […]

I have been thinking about this for sometime….I have a gun (taken from my dad) two bullets (just in case one is a dud) and I know where to go. I actually lay in bed and think about my walking to this spot and doing it. It actually makes me feel good. wtf, Ihave made such a mess of my shit life, I always made the wrong decision or have my hopes raised very high , then I get an “im sorry, we cannot hire you” or you have not been chosen. I have tried to make things better but as soon as they seem […]

run run run dont look back just run, until you get somewhere. maybe you’ll reach that place where you really feel fine and dandy, maybe not, but atleast you’ll be getting yourself out of this fucking hell hole. just maybe.

Thats what I started writing when i tried to update my facebook status. I really wonder what do i do from here, Im stuck in this loop of feeling fine and then feeling crapy. im fourteen and im stuck.

I really try hard but i end up failing my self and im just so tiered all the time, i dont know what to do, maybe […]

today February 5th 2011, at 5am my father died…. this all feels like a bad dream… i want to wake up…. My father is gone.. And my world is falling apart…. I cant stop crying…. It feels like a nightmare….. i wanna wake up…. i keep thinking hes sitting in his hospital bed waiting for me and my mom to come and see him…… but hes not….. hes gone……

……….i love you daddy and i always will….

R.I.P. Nicholas C.

1955-2011

My name is Carly. I’m 30 years old and am from Alabama. I attempted to slit my wrist at age 16 and had to be hospitalized twice in one month. I didn’t even complete my sophmore year of high school because of my problems,but by the grace of God I passed anyway and finished high school in 1999. Being born with Spina-Bifida and being forced to wear diapers because of bladder and bowel controls problems I was the object of constant ridicule all through grammar school and high school. In fact,I was the only person in my senior class who didn’t have a date for […]

Shut Up

I’m 15. I’ve been through about everything. I know what it’s like. Not eating to be skinny, trying to change myself to look good. You know what? After trying and trying, I’m finally happy with the way I look.

That’s the only thing I’m happy about. The way I look. I’ve become this miserable person.

My friends ditched me, I’m depressed, have tried to kill myself, cut, starved, and I have panic attacks.

My life has become hell. I’d love to talk with anyone who feels/has felt the same way.

Skype: rachel_andress

i dont want anyone to judge me cause i want to die…they dont know how i feel so noone has the right to tell me im a coward or god will save me or any of that…i just want to talk to someone who also wants to do this and its decided to do it as i feel right now…send me a comment with you email or however you want it…

You may be dead, but I am here to bring you back to life. I have read your stories, holding sympathy for everyone of you. I have burned in my own Hell, over and over again. I was wallowing in it, crying continuously, I cut myself continuously, I drank myself to the point of death. I know Hell. I know how to get out of it. I can not judge, it’s not me. I love to talk. I would be glad to hear your stories. I will listen, and talk with you. I will post my own stories, and hope to get some comments. I […]

well some people say i am really out going and that i should not cut myself but i cant help it!! the hole reason i do thatt is because my little sister died. the story is that i was baby sitting her and we where reading a book and some one broke into are house and we where hiddinng and the guy took her and killed her and i blame myself for it and so do my parents do to it all my falt and i no it so if she coulnt have a happy liffe i cant either because ever one in my family […]

i need someone… im dying and i may end it all tonight. i feel it. like its calling my name. i was born messed up and i had the ubilicle chord wrapped around my neck when i was born. i should have died then. im dying… very quickly. i dont know why im writting this post if im just gonna die

So, I was watching the 2003 version of Astro Boy and have  fallen in love with an anime character. You know why? They always love you, never leave you, and they never ever aren’t there for you. Dr.Tenma… He’s something. Everyone tells me I’m stupid, but I found it quite fun to say I love Tenma. Even I don’t know if its really love, but I do know that it keeps me happy and stuff. <3