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I’ve been taking a psychology class at school.

We’ve been talking a lot lately about people who certain psychological disorders, mostly the basics. Schizophrenia, bipolar, BPD (borderline-personality disorder, which is something I was diagnosed with), oppositional-defiant, dependent-personality,  PTSD (another one I was told I have), and just overall people with depression.

Apparently, there are certain requirements people have to meet in order to be called “SMI” which stands for seriously mentally ill, which I guess is just the proper doctor term for “this person is a fucking psycho”.

As my teacher was writing them on the board-the different symptoms-my mind started to wander around, looking for the things […]

I woke up this morning and wanted to buy a gun. But, I didn’t.
Very violent, and I’m not violent. Too expensive, couldn’t not justify
the cost. Instead I will continue to suffer at work, until they get rid of me.
Need to make a decision, on whether move to a cheaper apartment.
This place is awful an expensive by my standards. But moving is such
a hassle.
When I don’t work, i don’t do anything except use the computer.
I don’t clean, the place is wreck. I never gave 60 days notice, that time came and went.
I can not get motivated to do […]

Glad to have found this site, as I need to express some things about my state of mind at a forum where no friends are and no one will attempt to make everything better by saying “hey don’t be depressed you’re a good guy” and “things’ll get better just you wait”. It so easy to write that, and so useless to read.

Less than a week after a great (or so I thought) NYE party, where I normally rejuvenate myself from holiday depression by hosting friends and fireworks, i find myself totally UNenthused about life and thinking constantly about how pointless and useless it is and […]

I’m 20 years old, I study at university in the UK.
I changed course after my first year, and now im on a new course, but its still not much better. The biggest issue i have is my parents, they’re always saying ‘when you graduate’ and assuming that i will graduate all the time, i dont think they quite understand that you have to actually work a lot to graduate, but i struggle for motivaton because i really hate the course that much.

Also I dont really value my friends at university as much as the ones from my home town, but they’re all at different […]

I’ve been diagnosed with it…and I just wanted to hear what it’s like for others with it.

The psych told me I will always feel this way(the saddness)…I shall also tell him at my next visit, that I’m perfectly content with killing myself in 6 years. My mother called me weak, and needy, that I have no tolerance, really, if there’s nothing wrong with the way we live, then why does my father tell us he wants to die every night, and why is my brother now scitsophrenic? Sigh…

The walls were white and all I could think about was how much I hated staring at the white walls, but there was nothing else to really look at. The lobby where Dr. White’s (seriously, how much more obvious can you get?) office was located was like a vast example of why interior decorators are much needed. I bit my lower lip and my mom patted her hand on top of mine, a gesture meaning “if you were to bite that lip any harder you wouldn’t have one”. She does things like that all the time, in a way it’s kind of like sign language, […]

who knew you would turn out to be just what i need ? Yeah i suffer sometimes in this life, but i get so much good out of it in the end, ive been blind this whole year, not seeing that what i’m looking for in a friend, had been here the whole time ( lol song ). My problems seem to have paused for my best friends, since they gave me the most amazing day i’ve had in a long time. Then my long awaited hug, no matter how many times postponed or forgotten came, and i swear i’ve never felt anything better in […]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CmyUkm2qlhA
hope this brightens up your day 🙂

Call It Love. Call It Lies. Call it anything you like.

Weed and cigarettes being a dealer for my “friends”.
I’m now bi and have no one that cares about me more then a friend.
i hate myself.
all of my friends are “worried” or dont care about me.
my mom calls me a slut my dad still trusts me…barely.
i need help please.
all of my problems on a list would go on forever.

Call It Love. Call It Lies. Call it anything you like.

-amethyst.com@gmail.com

Do you ever feel lost? Like theres no where else to go? like your running out of places to hide your feelings? In reality i have everyone, but inside; i’m lonely.

And, i just don’t know what to do about it, what i can do about it.

Save me while you can cause;

~imstillbreathing.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BzSCsfbj5p4&feature=fvst

just listen, this song is amazing. I hope it helps make someone feel better 🙂

Anybody just want to talk? Kind of bored and kind of lethargic atm… I’m here if anybody wants advice or just wants to talk. email me? cutecopper19@hotmail.com

I have been reading posts for a couple weeks now and it is so sad that there are so many young people on here in so much pain. I am 37 and have always had some depression but nothing like the last couple months. In November I decided I wanted to end it all so I have decided to do it at the end of this month. It has been a challenge waiting that long but didnt want to ruin the holidays for the family and also wanted to see my dad one last time which I am doing next week. Why do I want […]

I’ve struggled with depression and substance abuse since I was at least thirteen years old. It all seemed to have a purpose back then. I’m not normal, I’ll just make that clear right now, I have always seen things differently, whatever that means. I am an unaccomplished musician, an unaccomplished writer, and sick to death of spending each day working a trade with guys twice my age. I’m turning twenty seven in a week or so, the age I had originally set out to end my life assuming I was a big rock star by that time, well what happened? I’ll tell you, I’ve smoked […]