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I wrote a post that I titled “A Peaceful Death” in April 2009. I came to this website because I was hoping to find like minded individuals that were also interested in the idea of using or creating an assisted suicide service. I developed a habit of coming to this site once or twice a week despite the fact that I didn’t find the kind of people that I was looking for. I have no desire to read about people’s problems or suicidal thoughts, but that hasn’t stopped me from spending 5 to 10 minutes on this site every week. Maybe I am just […]

                                                My soul is weak
                                                     I have no wishes
                                         I have no dreams
                                                          I will lie here  and die .
                                                                 

    I use to be afraid to die .

 How foolish was I.

 I was stupid & young I loved life ,and people I was loved…I think .

I’m not afraid to die just of how I will I hope im asleep if I don’t kill my own self maybe drink some poison, right before I go to bed it be peaceful no pain no cry’s but where would I go heaven or hell , would I be a Angel or a demon.

 How I wish I was loved maybe I’d wanna live if I was herd and not […]

i don’t care how i out from this shit life. i wanted to H2S but now i’d rather just hang or jump. and seeing as no1 cares, it doesn’t really matter how i do it does it. drowning is probably best for me though. most accessible. and the first chance i get, i’m doing it. which pretty much means tomorrow. so check the obits. and if YOU bother reading this, thanks a fucking lot.

It’s become obvious that I am one major league fuck up. I want nothing to do with anyone any more. I am so sick of people liking me based on what i look like. I first tried to kill myself at age 14, i’m now 37 and still want to die. the only reason i am alive is people dependant on me. yet other people still stay i should stay alive because of how i look. so what, if i was butt ugly i should deserve to die? i effing hate that since being a kid i’ve only been liked because i supposedly look […]

I was searching the internet for ideas on how to commit suicide when I found this site. I read some of the stories and was extremely surprised by how many people feel so similar to how I do and some have even dealt with similar lives. I am at the end of my rope right now, I’m physically and mentally exhausted and I just don’t think I can carry on anymore. I have hurt myself many times by cutting, burning and I have come close to overdosing a few times but some part of me doesn’t want to end my life because of the people […]

I can’t go on and I’m scared to go to a hospital. I am nothing.

i’ts been about 5 years, i think, since my pain started.

i think the problem is that whenever i have a different way of thinking, different taste or different reaction towards a conversation or joke (these are examples), people around don’t get it and don’t take it seriously for some time. all they do is saying “that’s stupid. everything you say is bullshit”. they say they’re my friends, and some of them even say “you wouldn’t be in the place where you are if it weren’t for us”. but what troubles me the most is the fact that my opinion has been considered unnecessary and disposable […]

Well,

I’ve been thinking about this for a long time and well heres the question

“How do you get can you get cancer?

I’ve always wanted to know

What are some good ways to get cancer

Can you get it from drinking poison for killing insects?

I”ve said my good byes im tired of this live

people say that god will tell you when its your time to die but what a waste of a persons live when they dont wanna live anymore…..

I tried to hang myself yesterday, too. The guilt today is overwhelming. I’m also 27, stay here for family, and have felt like this my whole life. I don’t know what to do anymore.

 I almost succeeded. I don’t even know what happens, I just shut down and turn off. Anything can trigger me. I’ve been sexually abused and a drug addict. It seems like I’m giving myself reasons by pushing everyone away and sabotaging anything that is good in my life.

I have seizures and suicide attempts often follow them. Last night I was talking about using as I came out of a seizure and my […]

I’m new to this site. I’ve wanted to end my life for as long as I could remember, but not completely or else I wouldn’t be here typing this.

I have a one year old daughter that I don’t want to be without. She gives me the air to breath and the look on her face when mommy is so hysterical, I can tell she’s not actually worried, but just wants her momma happy. She gives me strength in every day and that’s why I am here. It’s just getting so hard…

I’m the wife of an ex-military man. My husband has spent two years away in […]

Okay…so I have just recently found this site. All I know is that I want to get out how I’m feeling..and I have no one to talk to…I guess letting numerous strangers read this..makes me feel heard in some sort of way. I have felt suicidal for so long now. I really don’t know if I really have the guts to do it..but I have come so close countless amounts of time. People say it’s selfish..well I guess depending on how you look at it, it kind of is. But when you’re feeling this way..you could really give two fucks. I mean, don’t get me […]

Hi everyone,

I’m a boy with the age of 18 and I am fucked up, in all kinds of ways. I can’t think of anything good of myself, even tough my friends tell me different. When I look in the mirror I see the most hidious person in the world, that has nothing good on him. In my mind it’s a constant war, it seems like I have multiple thoughts at the same time, good or bad. And they constantly collide with eachother, confusing me, and making me go insane. I always have the feeling that everything evolves around me, like i’m the only person on this earth, […]

I am 20 have been battling depression since I was 16. I am not going to go through all the details of my life because honestly most people really don’t care. I think I am mainly just frustrated at the moment and need to vent. I made a conscious decision when I came to college to not be who I was in high school. I would fake it till I made it if I had to, but I was going to be happy and fun to be around. I am now a transfer at a new college and was determined to follow this through. I […]

Hello. All of you.

I have schizophrenia, but won’t take my medication because the side-effects are mostly exaggerations of all the other problems I already have. As I have a lot of problems. Sicknesses. Immune disorders. Fears. Questions.

Such as, why do I want to die?

I don’t know. The nights when I feel most numb I want to die because I don’t even have the energy to go to sleep, to change my state of consciousness. As silly as it may sound. The nights when the hallucinations are the worst I want to die either because they tell me to do so, because I am scared of […]

Apparently suicide is cowardly,
I’m afraid I don’t quite agree,
What if suicide is the only way out
The only way to set you free?

What if your days pass in a blur
Of thinking, of crying, of pain
And you know, no matter what
You’ll never feel better again

What if everything you touch turns to dust,
And everyone walks away,
And your heart feels like it’s going to explode
Would you want to face the day?

What if your whole world crashed around you,
Magnifying all your hurt and ache,
Think about that, and then answer
What choice would you make?

I’ve had enough. I’ve tried now […]

I’ve been wishing i was dead for as long as i can remember. i tried drowning, but i panicked. obviously i havent died yet. i was too scared to die. i’m not anymore. i’m going to do it this time. fuck what anybody says! i’m still gonna do it.

I am a guy from turkey, and i am at 16.
I am sorry for my langu., I don’t know english very well and i may made grammar errors before post this message. 

About a month ago, 

While i reading these post on posted this website. I found this post..
http://suicideproject.org/2010/10/im-here-if-you-need-someone/ 

and i researced all other articles that the girl posted…
I am a programmer, and  my life is like her. I was attempted suicide seriously about a year ago, but currently i just think this girl..
i write a program to find this authors articles from this website… 

Results was:
http://suicideproject.org/2010/10/one-of-these-days/
http://suicideproject.org/2010/10/whats-wrong-with-me-2/

From what i can gather, is hanging the most successful way to complete suicide?