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I never felt this way. Alone. I was always incomplete. Untill you came along. Instantly you took a part of me. I don’t know if it’s love, but I know I need you. I need you more then anything. All my love goes out to you. I never asked to be so vulnerable.  To be so revealed. It’s like my emotions were naked. I gave it all my all. I had no control. I can’t help it. It pains me to be so hurt. Dead.
Your smile gave me the burning sensation in my heart, not even hell could handle it. Those eyes made me […]

I am so angry at God. I have failed in so many ways I see no hope. I’ve lost my dreams, my desires; I don’t care to see anyone and I’m ashamed I’ve let loved ones down. I pray to God to strike me down!! I am the walking dead and will gladly die so that someone else may live. I HATE.

I’m getting better.

I haven’t cut in over two months, I know this doesn’t mean I’m on the fast track to recovery, but I have been feeling like things are going good.

Well, at least they were going good… until I met Morgan Ryder.

I normally don’t have friends that are girls, but Morgan caught my undivided attention when she first came into my fourth hour class.

She was…different. Not just in appearance, there was something off about her, like she had been secluded from the world for a little while and was just now getting back to civilization, the way her eyes darted around the room in paranoia, she knew we […]

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Do-gooders and religious freaks stay away and dont preach

checkout links:

http://info.publicintelligence.net/MAchemicalsuicide.pdf

http://megalodon.jp/2010-0207-0241-06/itteyosiiwatteyaru.web.fc2.com/how…

A new suicide method (MADE IN JAPAN!!!!) has been developed as an alternative to hanging suicide and briquette suicide (carbon monoxide gas poisoning).
You don’t have to provide rope for suicide by hanging or make a fire for suicide by carbon monoxide poisoning.
It is easier than suicide by hanging or by briquette (carbon monoxide gas poisoning).

Only mix 2 kinds of liquids those you can buy at drugstore or at gardening corner of homecenter.
[Hydrogen sulfide GAS] is a potent POISON GAS more than carbon […]

i am done with all the bullshit life throws. its time

I have read the final exit book. I am totaly confused(nothing new). They talk about using helium from ballon kits from party stores. Then they talk about regulators. Do I have to add some sort of regulator to the tank? I’d prefer not going to a gas supplier and asking for carbon monoxide since I wouldn’t know what to say why I need it, and it sees that I’d have to fix some kind of delivery device to connect to it. I don’t know where you are getting this info. Also, someone had mentioned about taking sleeping pills first, then someone else says you’ll be […]

I am special to no one. I strongly feel, I never will be. I am a good, honest, intelligent person who likes metal and conspiracy theories and facts about governments and the origins of civilization, but I am an unattractive and boring mid-twenties man with small and irregular genitals and no money and no place to call my own. I belong no where. Most of the good friends I had don’t care about me anymore. What is left of my family has become very fragmented and hardly existent on both my mom’s and dad’s sides.  I have been […]

Im only 14, I get it we all get depressed. We most likely all have suicidal thoughts to. Although I understand this I still feel alone. Even though I know I am not alone at all. I am “popular” in school, girls like me, and I have a crap load of friends. Even though this is true (and you all saw this coming most likely) I still feel depressed because of this one girl. Ive known her sense, like, 2nd grade. She had a huge crush on me sense 6th grade, and I finally asked her out, and she rejected me. I asked why, and she said its cause she wants my best […]

Well, I’ve got news for you: you’re not.

I’m relatively new to this site, but I’ve posted here before. My other posts were relevant but slightly off-topic, so I’m going to say something a little different here while still getting at the same main principle.

It seems like almost everyone on this site has a completely unwarranted loneliness complex. That is, everyone seems to believe that their depression is somehow unique. Everyone thinks that their suicidal thoughts are too different from anything that anyone else can relate to. People who are depressed and / or suicidal just don’t bother to fully invest themselves in sites like this […]

I never thought I would actually think about suicide. I have loving friends and loving family. I am in college and I have everything I could ask for. Still, I can stop feeling depressed. My friends and family keep telling me how wonderful I am. They respect me and even look up to me. Still I never feel like it is enough. It doesn’t even cheer me up anymore. I keep thinking they are lying to me and I don’t believe it. I think about abandoning them and trying to start new but that will probably cause me to go into a deeper depression. I […]

Life is getting harder then I thought is would. Friends have left. I knew they would. Because of a b**ch that thinks she is everything I am almost friendless. I know I am ranting again but really? All I hear at school is what a hooker I am. How can someone be a hooker if they haven’t been laded period. I hate this shit. Hell my mom can’t even keep herself healthy. My dad is working 24/7 and my brother can’t even come 100 ft near my mom and I or my dad goes nuts.
Even on top of that I am lonely.
I […]

It was just another story printed on the second page
Underneath the Tiger’s football score
It said he was only eighteen, a boy about my age
They found him face down on his bedroom floor

There’ll be services on Friday at the Lawrence Funeral Home
Then out on Mooresville highway, they’ll lay him ‘neath a stone…

How do you get that lonely, how do you hurt that bad
To make you make the call, that havin’ no life at all
Is better than the life that you had
How do you feel so empty, you want to let it all go
How do you get that lonely… […]

SapphireCyanide,
I love your songs. I love your voice.
You’ve got the rhythm too.
And you’ve got the passion and soul.
I listened to it all, 30 of them.
The best I love hearing is “I don’t believe you”, and “Singin X & Y”, and “Mama Who Bore Me”.
And thank you for your sharing.

As a gratitude of pay-back, I’ll tell you what I know.
Hoping that my pointing of direction can lead you further up your stairs.

What you’re lacking in singing is the technique of the breath of air.
The soft sound required during some passages is too weak in voice, and also at […]

yesterday i wrote my story on here. why i want to go, how far i consierd it and so on. and i find it weird today, its october and 70 degrees outside, beautiful and sunny and all i can think about is how much i’ll miss the warm feeling and the colors of a day like this after i go to sleep..i think i need to talk to someone. anyone. but im scared to. if i tell my friends they might leave me, if i tell my parents they might send me to the nut house. if i tell my boyfriend..idk what would happen then. […]

I am a woman currently living in Canada and I would like to reach out and just be of support to anyone out there who simply needs to talk. Nothing else to it. If you are on the verge of ending your life, please message me and I will listen. I am willing to call and talk as well.

I’m new here, and still not sure why I’m posting. I can’t leave a tell-all type of suicide note in case I survive, and I have no one to talk to. I have always been a loner – everyone thought I had Asperger’s syndrome when I was a kid because I would run and hide under my bed if I had to meet new people. I guess that was the first red flag. I spent my teen years in lockdowns in Utah away from family and normal life. I never had what it took to get through school or hold down a job. Objectively, my […]

I think it’s about time that I introduce you all to a very special friend of mine.

His name is Nicholas Kyle, and he’s the starsailor.

Nicholas has done many wonderous things already even though he’s only sixteen. He’s become the captain of his father’s old ship, one that flies around the galaxy defending the universe and all that it inhabits while searching endlessly for the lost planet. He’s kidnapped a pretty girl named Stella against her will, fallen in love with her, gotten caught by a nasty band of space-pirates, escaped from the space-pirates, survived a meteor shower, has his ship and crew caught in a […]