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I know that I’m a nice person, but how can I be when I cause so much pain to others like my friends and family. Everytime I look I have hurt someone else that I really care about. Cut to make the pain go away but as soon as I feel good I hurt someone. I don’t know why I do it, it just happens. So I just keep cutting because I don’t know what else to do with myself. As hard I try to be nice it keeps coming out the wrong way and someone is hurt again. I think it’s time to end […]

I have recently joined this site….and i have already read many stories on how people want to die and people yelling at people. I’ve decided it’s time for my story. i have been depressed since the age of 12. there was a very personal life changing experience at that point in my life. Recently after my 13th birthday i made my first cut during church. how ironic was that. i was at church to be saved but yet i was “mutilating” my self. My depression began to grow to the point where i started to “halucinate.” i didn’t know that what i was seeing […]

There was this guy who posted in here recently called Splinter. I would just like to say that I have spoken with this man on the phone for a couple of days and he has moved me beyond all imagination, I just feel compelled to tell you a little about his story because, sadly, he his committing suicide this weekend. I can’t let that happen without printing why he is doing that, it might give people another perspective on why people feel it is their only answer. 

His wife (who was 7 months pregnant) was murdered, the murderer was never caught, despite there being some lines […]

So I guess a lot of people of this site are dead now?  I’ve been going over a large number of suicide notes on here and my hearts bleeds when I read them, and  I noticed that the majority of them don’t seem to have come back on even though some well wishers plead with them no to go though with it. So I guess they went ahead and killed themselves. It has been haunting me all night knowing that I have been reading a dead persons thoughts in their last hours or days, could they have been stopped I wonder, if someone said the […]

jjgg,
You and I are the same species.

http://suicideproject.org/wp-admin/edit.php?author=3345

You can’t solve a soul’s problem by the materialistic shrinks who don’t even believe that souls exist, but believe everything just originates from the brain.

You came as reincarnated but brought along the faded memory of the past life.
That extra but odd wisdom is shown evident in your eyes, glittering profound since a baby.
Also marking on body to signify, such as an outstanding dot or mole.

Destiny is planned. A floor map still with routes to choose.
For instance, a route if to certain death can be avoided, if you know how to turn, but only suffer […]

Hey there, I came across this site last night and I really couldn’t help but post about some of my own suicidal feelings.

For the past few years now my zest for life has slowly slipped away to barely anything. I look at the world, the people I am around, the things I do and I can’t help but feel tired of it. I look at myself and can’t shake the feeling like I should be somewhere else.

It’s not like I can’t feel happy, it’s not like certain things here can’t make me happy, it’s just that the happiness I feel here is so shallow and […]

I have sat here countless times with the exact emotions I’m feeling right now; so desperately wanting to speak to someone or at the very least simply to explain to anyone or anything how things are but who is there to turn to? Depression, ill-health, pain – they are things non-sufferers can’t relate to and I imagine that any time I try to speak to someone about my situation I am perceived to be whining.

“There are people worse off than me, who am I to complain?”

Next month I will have been ill for ten years, having started at the age of 15. I […]

Hey there, I just decided to end up my life, the thing is, I don’t want my family to notice that is a suicide, any ideas?

I have just spent the last week or so reading through the posts and responses on this site. Firstly, there is are two huge differences involved with suicidal people. One is outside influences that make a person so ‘depressed’ that they feel they can no longer live. In most cases, if you could rectify this persons problems, say for instance, give them money, give them health, make that one person that they love love them back etc, then they would chose life over suicide. The second is the person who simply doesn’t care about the world, or it’s influences, you could offer this person all […]

Aly’s funeral was today.

It was…weird. I thought that I would be a wreck, sheddding more tears then I thought I was capable of, but for some reason, watching all those people who loved Aly walk past her coffin, kiss her forehead, touch her hair, remember the good times they had with her when she was alive.

It made me smile.

“Violet, are you okay?” Drake was sitting next to me, his hand warm over mine.

I nodded, “I’m fine”.

I didn’t know what was wrong with me, why I was so happy, it was a funeral after all, the irony of it was even a little ridiculous, I felt like such […]

Just my two cents on suicide and why I think about alot. This is actually a tough question to answer and it took a lot of books on civilization for me to figure it out.

Now with people on here who are thinking about suicide because of their girlfriend or boyfriend. Honestly, this confuses me because when you leave a relationship everything is the same as it was before so wouldn’t you have already thought of suicide. Possibly you weren’t depressed before but as you’ve gotten older and started to grow depressed they were the one distraction and now you just can’t stop thinking about death […]

Well I must be the stupidest person alive because all I
can think of is cutting myself and wanting to be dead.
Everyone says they love me, but how can that be true when
they just keep bashing on me. Cutting seems to make
everything disapper and all the pain is gone. I feel so
much better after the cut is made. I feel like the world
couldn’t get any better or worse. No one understands why I
do it. It just makes everything alright and it may not
last long but each time I pray the feeling will last just
a little longer. I […]

Well, first I’d like to share something: http://www.explosm.net/comics/39/
I completly love this site. Completly.

Secondly, well, I don’t know, sometimes I think that if I get out of here maybe I feel a little better. Like moving to another country… Living alone. decorate the apartment, doing whatever I want. I think that would be great break the routine, a change of air. Well, I can’t do that. I’m kind of social-phobic and I think it would be too complicated, right now I’m not even able to leave my house. I’m so “safe” in here. Besides I don’t even have money to do that.

Thirdly… uhm, sometimes I […]

Bear with me, I haven’t done this before. I don’t even know why I’m doing this. Basically, I have nothing to live for. That’s the basics. I’m 21, I have no family, due to severe abuse in my childhood, and since I was 10 I have suffered from mental health issues. I overdosed many times and started self harming. At 14 I was put in care, and had to go to a young people’s mental health unit for 4 years. Since leaving there I have always been very up and down but last July it got worse, and I tried killing myself through overdose. Didn’t […]

I dont know what to say my whole life has been shit. I have been trying to kill myself since i was a child of about 10.  Nothing ever goes right in my life and that is no exaggeration, sometimes i think god hates me for something i did. or something someone else did. its to the point where i had to ask my mother if i was concentually concieved because i feel like my being here is a mistake. i really hate myself and i am just so tired of trying and failing how  can one person be such a failure. god must hate me […]

how should i put this? Did you ever think of killing your self, writing a letter to say good bye. And then you find something that makes you stop in you tracks and think about what your doing? That thing might even make you say “Mabey some other day”. And those people who have this ever happen berley ever notice that the thing that made them not kill themeless all so saved there lives and made them happy. But for most people it takes awhile to realize this. But try to find something that makes you happy.

And try doing that thing more often! Believe me […]

I have tried to write this 5 times, I’m so malfunctioned and exhausted, every single thing I try to do seems impossible, even writing this. I used to be (supposedly am) a successful sports person and I write about sport, but lately I can’t even feed myself. I used sport to keep me busy from thinking that this life is killing me. Just looking at the world kills me a bit every time. I hate it here. Even talking takes too much effort. For me the spell that this world has us all under, has broken, and that has rendered me completely useless. I can […]

I’m putting my suicide note online because I have no-one to leave one for in my actual life. I will be found by my landlord probably, or an ambulance or the police so not much point leaving it for them.

I have been sad and empty my whole life. I was born, and as soon as I learned about my surroundings and the world, I lost my soul. I saw the world I was born into and there was no way I was putting my soul into that, so I lost it somewhere, or it ran away because it wasn’t being used. I couldn’t pay any […]

 

For a long time now I have been ‘depressed’ or maybe it’s ‘enlightened’ I don’t know. I have not participated (as much as possible) in general life as I have come to find nothing but lies there. Today, I decided to go online and catch up with what’s happening in the world and check out what lies are being inflicted on us lately, as now I feel in a place in my head where I can view them objectively. I came across Big Brother (the UK one), this is a program that I have never watched, stuff like this was never of interest to me […]