Lately I’ve been feeling lonely. I realized that I have no one in my life, I can talk about my feelings. I want to tell my family what going on with me and try to get help, but I feel like I’m going to be judge. At school I have no one, I spend my breaks and lunch in the bathroom stall. I have no one who I can truly express my feelings without feeling judge. Sometime I want to end my life so I can feel free and have no worries but I then start to think about my mom and my family and […]
Rants
The condition of one of my rooms is absolutely, horribly disgusting. There’s spilled soda soaked into the carpets, crumbs all over the floor, dirty laundry, and probably something like 30+ bottles of empty diet soda.
I guess the reason I am posting this is that I am ready to die but too depressed to go through the preparations. I am thinking about hiring someone to clean out my car, pack up my belongings, etc. because I want to have a rational, planned out suicide and will never make an impulsive decision to do so. But unfortunately, I am too tired to go  through with the cleaning and […]
I just shouldn’t talk anymore. Whenever I say something, it’s always wrong. People laugh at me because of it and when I ask for them to stop they only laugh harder. I say things like ‘ I feel so stupid’ or ‘I’m such an idiot’ and people just smile and nod. I’m always yelled at for things I say or do. I feel like I need to do something like cut but I’m too scared to. I think they’ll find out and hurt me or send me to a therapist. I’m just so confused. I’m so alone. I’m just not okay anymore. I used to […]
Look at yourself. You’re not perfect.
In fact, you’re far from it.
But this is me.
I cannot change myself.
I fall easy.
I break easy.
But why can’t someone hold me?
Breathe my love and just accept me.
I’m too broken to see this isn’t love.
I cannot be repaired but I always hope.
I won’t die for her
I won’t die for him.
I’ll die for me because I wanna be dead.
Can’t help this feeling.
But I gotta hold on.
I will.
No matter what..
I am 17… And I completely hate my self … I hate the fact that I am black , that that I am female that I am tall…. That my mind is the most perverted thing in the world…. But I am so loney… I am not looking for sex just some one who I dont have to talk to, some one who gets me completely… Who shares the same view point of the world… I have a best friend and others friends but I can’t get my self to actually care about them … If they died today I wouldn’t even care….I had this […]
For the past three months I’ve been a recluse. I was in college, excited about life, happy, and i was in control of my depression. Now I’m too depressed to continue school, scared of the future, want no future, and I just don’t have the will to live. I don’t want to continue life. I’ve been suffering and I’ve tried to manage my depression with medication, therapy, and alternative treatments. I’m honestly willing to electrocute myself to cure my suffering. I spend my days at home playing with my dogs and watching tv. My therapist and psychiatrist are pushing me to get back into the […]
Hi all, I am 17 years of age and is so closet to finishing highschool but I just don’t want to live and I don’t know why. I have been trying hard to find a purpose, or a joy, or anything to destory that want of death , for the three years that this lack of feeling appeared but nothing is working anymore. There is nothing eles I can turly change anymore, when you are six feet two, black female and as realistic as me … You become numb to the illusion of dating of marriage-it’s impossible- but that’s not why I amm depressed […]
I kinda made this profile because I wanted to tell someone my life story… And I don’t have anyone close to me that I want to share it with. So I am writing it here, anonymously.
But let’s take it from the beginning:
I’m a boy from Denmark, 19 years old at the moment, but that is not where my story starts. My story starts all the way back when I was a child. You see, I have always been bullied, first by the bigger kids in my kindergarten, then by the kids in my class in school. Therefore my parents quickly decided to teach me […]
The thing I felt in the beginning was the control I had. Finally I found something where I, only I, had the control on. But now, after more than 1 year, I still do that thing, but it doesn’t give me control anymore. Actually I have totally no control on it. But still I’m doing it, because it gives me a good feeling. For a few seconds. Fight after fight, a battle with myself, got no control on it. It’s was the main reason why I was cutting in the begin. But now it’s not the reason anymore, because there’s no control anymore while cutting. […]
Okay, this will be long winded. I’m sorry.
I’m 22 years old. For the past ten years, I’ve been dealing with depression and anxiety. I’ve been officially diagnosed with severe depression, severe anxiety, severe social anxiety and borderline post traumatic stress disorder.
I’ve been through a lot in my life, but I’ll make it short. As a kid, my mom was a pot head and she slept all day while my dad worked two jobs, only seeing him for about 15 minutes a day. Thus, I was left alone a lot as a kid with my brother. My parents eventually split up and my siblings and I […]
i’ve been having this feeling,
this feeling of nonexistence.
it’s as if i’m not quite here,
i have no purpose,
i’m nothingness,
worthless,
simply air.
Hello there,
I’m not really sure how this is done so I suppose I’ll just go ahead and start off. (I apologize if it’s hard to follow.)
Uhm, well, I was actually raised relatively well, all things considered. Both parents were present, working, and in healthy condition. I was also the only child within the household.
Life was pretty privileged, normal, but rather quiet, as everyone mainly kept to themselves in the household. There weren’t any major conflicts or fights, and alot of my time, along with my father, was spent on the Computer, whether it ranged from activities such as educational programs or games or whatever I used […]
Well lets see, im 14 guy and iv been in depression for 3 years and it started when i realized how alone i was in my life (iv never really had friends) and iv always felt alone then i met this one girl in 6th grade, we started out as friends and stayed that way. i used to be a hater and hated the idea of love but then i started liking her but i was to afraid to admit it, so i kept it a secret for about more than 2 years. i liked her but iv never liked stuff about love but i […]
my life is falling apart right infront of me i didnt get into the school i wanted i didnt get into the college program i wanted  i just suck at school now im alone n scared my friends dont know what i feel inside nor do i want to tell them n i just really want to just do drugs and drink. Ive never smoked anything or drank anything in my life but nothing has really worked out for me so far n im kindof losing hope for myself. im not sure what to do with myself anymore
Everything I do my sister has to do ten times better. I know this is me massively comparing myself to her but it’s really getting to me and I can’t take it anymore. The anger has to go somewhere before I throw my fist into a wall.
When I was in year ten I was diagnosed with depression, no one even blinked in my household. No one even gave a single crap. Two years later, my sister is diagnosed with depression along with an eating disorder and all of a sudden my whole household is letting everyone in the world know how tough life is for […]
I’ve been depressed for a long time, but this time, it’s different. I have finally entered that stage where I truly believe that I have it in me to commit suicide. My reasons for doing so have also shifted. My attitude towards death has shifted. I feel like a completely different person. I have come to believe that under certain circumstances, suicide is an acceptable option. To be honest, when I come on here, I try to cut to the chase. I skim over the posts about being sad, upset, etc. I look for the posts that will help me formulate more concrete plans to […]
Just a poem I’ve written a few days ago. I’ve written it because I can’t trust anyone and nobody understands it because it’s almost normal for those people, so I had to write it down in a poem to express my feelings.
~ Trust is something that everyone needs,
but how can you trust people when they’ve harmed the trust you’ve had in people so many times?
How can you trust people when you even can’t trust yourself?
How can you trust people when you are constantly afraid they will leave you?
How can you have trust in people when you realize it’s unpossible to […]
‘I’m here for you’ never answers the phone.
‘I just want to see you happy’ never holds me when I cry.
‘We’ll be together forever’ is never there anymore.
I want to run away from everything I’ve made for myself.. which isn’t much, not much at all.
I’d like to lead a simpler life to see if that will make me happy.
I need so many things, maybe having so little will make me realize how precious life is.
I’ve been in an OK mood this week and it wavered depending on how my day went for example I’ll be in a good mood but if one little thing happens that irritates me then it affects my mood for the rest of the day. I don’t have any friends at school or anyone that I really talk to except for in 5th period which I don’t mind so today at lunch I hear that someone saying they’re going to Cancun so I comment “oh you’re going to Cancun” and this boy at my table is says “I would appreciate it if you don’t but […]