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To Stay…

by Mehikka 6/21/2017

written by Mehikka

I wish I could stay here…

However, talking to you all and reading

All of your stories…

Makes it harder for

To Stay

…

I’m always going to be falling

Apart.

And yet, I post this and you people try

To make me stay…

Yet that decisions isn’t yours to make…

I try to make wishes to stay

…

I have so much going on I have a feeling that

I won’t make

It to the end of summer,

Unlike what my friends

Want me to

Do…

Even though

We do nothing together

They make it harder for me to stay…

Alive…and well and a whole bunch of random crap…

My life is

Bunch

Random

…

Crap…

Nothing to see here…

I’m done…

Just

Plain

Done…

Sorry Farah

6/21/2017 2 comments

by Milestiba 6/18/2017

written by Milestiba

I don’t matter here

I don’t matter there

I don’t matter anywhere

Hope I never wake up again

6/18/2017 2 comments

i am sorry….

by Butterfly904 6/17/2017

written by Butterfly904

I’m sorry to all of my friends for lying to you and telling you many things I should have. For pushing you out of my life and telling you nothing is wrong and I am fine. I know they will NEVER be on this site, but I really truly am sorry. But not for this one friend. I not sorry for being shit to her. She never cared about me and when I would actually tell her something that has been on my mind for two fucking weeks she would just brush it off like it is nothing. IT IS SOMETHING THAT HAS CONCERNED ME […]

6/17/2017 0 comment

Legalities

by nokshus 6/14/2017

written by nokshus

As if it wasn’t already a ***** enough. Fuck sakes you deal with the trivialities daily. The unending grind and minutiae. The milieu of reckless absolvency. Fuck, you go from the boredom to the banality. It’s all stupid shit.

Introduce the legal system or any of the bullshit bureaucracy into the fuckshow that is life and it becomes a whole new ball game. Fuck the legalities and hoops it makes you jump through. For real. Fuck incarceration.

6/14/2017 0 comment

Is this life?

by Grass 6/14/2017

written by Grass

Sometimes I want so badly just to do something. To create. Instead of that, I do nothing. I sit here in my lonely hole, and try my hardest to empty my head and hands of everything that troubles my soul. My words don’t even come out right anymore. As the years pass, I grow more reclusive and distant from myself. It’s as if I’ve almost disappeared sometimes. Am I even real? Am I even alive? And what does living mean anyways?

I posted something here a couple years back, and its as if nothing has changed. I’m just as miserable. If anything is different, its that […]

6/14/2017 3 comments

not weak

by nonserviam 6/14/2017

written by nonserviam

depressed people are not weak. they are the strongest people. they fight more than anyone else and fall more than anyone else but still decide to get up. depression is a very deep battle inside a human being and is not fixed by blaming them for being depressed. love them no matter what they are going through, embrace them when they are frustrated for no reason and don’t give up on them. just don’t.

6/14/2017 7 comments

not asking for help again

by Milestiba 6/13/2017

written by Milestiba

I put off asking for help for months because of a doctor’s treatment in Fall 2015. So a few weeks ago I asked for help instead of risk organ failure with another failed OD. And they put me in that same hospital and I was assigned to the same doctor. I really wished I had just OD’d. He’s arrogant, has a God-complex and even the staff called him an a**hole. I only began to comply because they forced me to appear before a judge. But I just spent the whole last week lying just to get discharged. Now I am home and no better off. […]

6/13/2017 2 comments

Second

by Demonqueen 6/12/2017

written by Demonqueen

He’s destroyed me.

I won’t survive in prison.

He’s got what he wanted all along.
I won’t be able to have kids.

He’s destroyed every inch of me.
I have nothing left.

6/12/2017 17 comments

He made me feel like a fool again. This time our relationship paid the price

by GerbzBaby 6/10/2017

written by GerbzBaby

I’m irritated to say I’m writing about this particular “friend” again. I’m beyond angry with him. If you don’t know we and him have a history of “love” together. The last time I hung out with him he was kissing me on the cheek, cuddling with me, laying on my leg/ chest and jealously asking about my love life. Which to me seemed as thoughts still like me but boy was I fucking wrong.

Today I found out that he lead me on and fucked me over for my sister. At first he refused to tell me, saying I would be mad at him forever. Damn […]

6/10/2017 2 comments

First

by Demonqueen 6/10/2017

written by Demonqueen

I just really want to die.

The last seven years have been a blur.

But 7 years… 18-25. Years I haven’t lived.
Heck, I wasn’t even living before then.

Don’t get into a relationship, you’ll lose everything.
Time, friends, sanity, freedom are just a few.

6/10/2017 2 comments

Goodbye

by My life is over 6/6/2017

written by My life is over

I’m gonna do it from me to humanity hold on and don’t give up stay strong.

It will be rope this time

6/6/2017 5 comments

quiet house

by plasticflower 6/6/2017

written by plasticflower

tonight when i arrived from work, i was welcomed by silence and lights out, which meant everyone was asleep. i was not surprised, considering i just got here and it’s 11:10 pm. even though i understand why they’re asleep, considering it’s a Tuesday night, i still know that deep down i wish they were waiting for me. but they don’t care that much, and i understand that. i’ve felt very anxious all day, and i don’t know why, considering last night i tried to get more sleep than usual. it’s weird. speaking of weird; today is the birthday of an old friend of mine. she […]

6/6/2017 3 comments

Misery

by Purpleunicorns 6/5/2017

written by Purpleunicorns

Misery loves company

I lack company. All my 16 years it seems I’ve ever only known misery. I spend my time faking my happiness and crying alone in my room. I’m tired of being lonely. I’m not even bold enough to end it. *sigh* I just wish I had someone around me who even slightly knew this pain.

6/5/2017 6 comments

1:41am

by plasticflower 6/3/2017

written by plasticflower

you know those days where you wake up and decide you will definitely enjoy that day? you decide you’re going to do anything you can to feel happy and do everything you always put off. you feel determined and excited. today was supposed to be one of those days. since yesterday wasn’t the day off i would’ve liked it to be, i decided to try my best and have an acceptable day today. it didn’t particularly work, and i’m not surprised.
numbness is a very strange feeling. at first, you don’t understand it; but after a while, you forget how you felt before. what it […]

6/3/2017 3 comments

25 Days Left

by nova88hb 6/3/2017

written by nova88hb

(I wrote this a few days ago, so now I’m down to 25 days)

“I have always heard that you should never make a decision based on a whim, and that if you are in doubt, sleep on it, before deciding. Considering the magnitude of terminating my own life, I decided to sleep on it quite a bit- I’ll give it a whole month.

My reasoning for this decision is not actually all that important. There has been a building pattern of unhappiness in my life, and one event was finally the proverbial straw that broke the camel’s back. It was not the “reason” but merely the […]

6/3/2017 7 comments

Today…

by GerbzBaby 6/3/2017

written by GerbzBaby

I felt today didn’t start so good. I told my two friends I didn’t want to hang out because I was in a depressed mood (told them I didn’t feel well) and I had to clean. But they ended up showing up at my house anyways. I agreed to go but I told my sisters not to come even though my friends asked them to come (I get jealous and lonely when I, my sisters and my friends hang out together.. all they do is pay attention to them.. but that’s another story). The whole time I felt horrible. Horrible for not letting my sisters […]

6/3/2017 2 comments

I’m done

by silent_songbird 6/3/2017

written by silent_songbird

Life has been such a huge freaking struggle and I feel like I’m done. The chronic pain I suffer from, my sick family, my failure as a person, I’m sick of it. I’m tired of living…but, I’m not positive I want to die.

I’m kind of convincing myself not to off myself by challenging the concept of suicide. You see right now, when I think about suicide I ask myself how my corpse will look, or how others will react as well as the bliss of nothingness. If I was going to really commit suicide, I’d have to stop caring about superficial aspects of my postmortem […]

6/3/2017 3 comments

I’m beginning to hate my “friend” again

by GerbzBaby 6/1/2017

written by GerbzBaby

Okay before I give you any details in what’s happening now, let me start by saying me and this person have had beef together in the past. And.. we both liked each other.. not to sure we both like each other anymore. If you want to know about some of the past issues I have had with him check a few posts from 2016.

Moving on…

So the other night on snapchat I saw him making very concerning posts. Stuff like “I wish I died before the ambulance arrived at my house,” “I already know I’m not wanted, don’t have to remind me,” so on an so […]

6/1/2017 2 comments

I Don’t Just Want To Be Tolerable, I Want To Be Likeable

by ShiSui 5/31/2017

written by ShiSui

Sam’s Point

Myself included, I tolerate my existence I don’t like it at all. What’s the point then? Why tolerate it? And even worse if you know you can’t fix it, like I KNOW I can’t fix me, the fact while my peers live their life I’m trying to work at being mentallly ready for life falling further behind day by day, just to be a different me, can you be a different you? Really what’s the point of getting out of bed and looking at […]

5/31/2017 11 comments

Will a life left unanswered

by Killstead 5/31/2017

written by Killstead

When I look back upon my life, I see the many pitfalls I otherwise naively walked into. All the potential and talent wasted because I had convinced myself it would be a worthless endeavor. I never believed I was intelligent even when I heard it said of me. I had thought, if I am so smart – then why does it all seem so dumb? Why were others so capable of being satisified in the struggle of accomplishing something? All I wanted was to be distracted. Distracted from what was wanted, needed, desired, and/or demanded of me. Not that I wanted to become lazy, or […]

5/31/2017 35 comments

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