Stories of Hope

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Finally

November 10th, 2016by kamidaka

I have all the money!!! Oh boy, I’m so excited but at the same time scared!!

What do I do? Is this the right thing to do?

No, I don’t have time to think about it, I’ll finally have my uniform.

But I’m still scared. What if it doesn’t arrive? What if it doesn’t fit me? What if I’m not worthy enough?

I can’t stop to think, I need to act!!

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So close

November 7th, 2016by kamidaka

I’m so close to have all the money I need to buy the uniform. I’m starting to feel weird, like happy but also kind of sad. Bittersweet feelings, because once I have it, I’ll die.

Just a week, just a week away.

I’m so excited.

Nobody notices what’s happening, and I’m so glad.

I’ll finally be who I wanted to be. I’ll finally be who I’ve always dreamed of being. I’ll finally be free!

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I’m weak, and I’m finally admitting it

November 3rd, 2016by orange-juice

I’m 17. I can hear too many things going on in my head but at the same time I feel blank. I love life but I hate life. Everything is so confusing and I feel a lump in my throat when I try to explain what I really want, so I thought I’d type it.

I don’t want the life that everyone is told to follow. Working behind a desk, getting large sums of money for rotting away in a grey, dull workplace and consistently working for a force that marginalises freedom. I want freedom. I just wish I could run through endless green fields that …

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I don’t know what to live for anymore

November 2nd, 2016by Kingdaka

As I am typing this, I am on the verge of ending my life. I have never ever been this depressed since my grandfather died. I don’t know why I did it. I know that I should’ve not done it. Because of this, everything was taken from me. The fame, the sports, the hobbies, the clothing, etc. I don’t know why I even exist anymore. There is my dad who calls me names that I feel like he doesn’t love me anymore. He said so much bad things to me that I couldn’t even stand up to myself. My mom was in shock of why …

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I hate reality ! reality is boring ! Doctor Strange , Marvel MCU , Avengers , Sword Art Online , Virtual Reality , games , movies , novels , anime manga , comics is better than reality !

October 29th, 2016by niki

I hate reality ! reality is boring !

Doctor Strange is better than reality !
Marvel MCU (Marvel Cinematic Universe) is better than reality !
Avengers is better than real world !
Sword Art Online is better than real life !
Virtual Reality is better than boring reality !
video games is better than reality real life real world !
movies is better than real-world real-life reality !
novels is better than real-life real-world reality !
anime manga is better than boring real life real world reality !
comics is better than boring real world real life reality !

Why Human’s Imagination is much better than reality ??
movies , games …

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Around if you need it

October 28th, 2016by Haven

I normally wouldn’t make a post like this, but…

If any of you need someone to speak to, I’ll be around, if you’re comfortable. It’d be nice to get to know some people on here. I’ve been on this website for years now, never got to know any of you properly… Being in the same boat, I can definitely empathise. Drop a message below if you’d like details.

I’m not feeling too great right now either, which is why I’m here – but I’d be more than willing to listen. Let’s share.

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Bran

October 27th, 2016by poetontheedge

My friend had to talk me out of suicide last night. This is the 4th time this month. I love him so much and I don’t want to hurt him. He have saved me so many times and if I left that would be wasted time for him. He lives in Arizona and I’m from Illinois and I really want to meet him, I need to.

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I met a girl

October 25th, 2016by kamidaka

She’s so beautiful and nice!! She even talked to me and also helped me when I asked for directions.

She’s so nice, she even recognized me from my classes (not uni classes, other classes)

She promised me she will be back next semester

I look forward to seeing her, maybe I can be her friend

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Message to kissy_93

October 10th, 2016by RuinsOfTheVoid

I have seen you pop up in the community in the last few days and I just want to say you are not alone. Everyone on this site knows what its like to hurt. You are not alone.

You keep asking for a reason to live, but life is not that simple. There are things in my life that I love and cherish and things I give no value to. I love my GF and my laptop, I don’t love my clothes, if I lose them I can just get more clothes. I cannot replace my GF. So she gives my life meaning, I fight everyday …

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The Light Side of Darkness

October 4th, 2016by lostsouloflight

I discovered this site today, while distracting my pain away.

So much suffering I see- so many souls yearning to be free.

But in the responses of support and love, there is beauty that goes far above.

Raw passion so seldom seen, in those content to live their lives by default alone with fake friends, entertained by a screen.

Perhaps our darkest sides show us who we really are. Desperate for love, meaning, and peace, we try so damned hard.

I know none of you by name, personality or career. But I’m sure I share much of your pain, suffering and fears.

I do not think we are losers, scum or leeches; …

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Anyone Else On Or Ever Took Effexor?

September 29th, 2016by GerbzBaby

Recently my therapist proscribed me Effexer for my depression and anxiety but it seems like it made it a bit worse? I’ve been feeling extremely nauseous after taking the pill, my heart rate picks up for no reason (I’m wondering if it’s just me having some sort of anxiety attack or it’s the pill?), I’ve felt weak and I’m trembling randomly. Anyone else have those symptoms while on this medication??? I just started it two days ago so maybe my body’s adjusting?

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Changed my mind (for the moment)

September 22nd, 2016by user4587

Hey it’s “T”.

You may have read my post about having everything prepared to commit suicide by helium asphixation. Of course it got deleted after a while.

Some of you have really inspired me to not commit suicide (thanks for that). I mainly didn’t do it because of my family. I am still fighting every day but i’ve decided to postpone my suicide indefinitely.

In case things won’t work and if fail I always got the possibility to end my life if I wish so.

I hope you all gonna have a lovely day.

 

 

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Suicide Or Life

September 16th, 2016by dyinglostgirl

i want to die, but im scared to.
everything in my life is crashing and i cant take it anymore, i know my research
and im getting rope to hang myself
im doing long drop but with the knot infront to snap my neck… everythings crashed friday
and yeh it mightve gotten better but i cant bare the pain inside my head
im gonna ask for 20$ then go to the store and buy the rope. wait till im alone leave my note climb a tree and die
thats my plan with suicide im done with this world… i cant do anything right and im a dissapointment to everything and everyone…
i …

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Reopening the project…

September 12th, 2016by 2sadhappy

It’s been about a year or so since I was here but something tells me it’s time to come back for a bit. I want to be here to be a lifeline for somebody. I used to receive emails from around the world and hear amazing stories. I had to step away for a while to catch my own breath but I like to hear from you guys.

I don’t consider myself suicidal at the moment although I have cut before and sometimes think about the silence of death as peaceful. I probably stand out a little in that I see death I’d say at least …

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Trying to find some light.

August 29th, 2016by CapitalM

My therapist told me that that I’m tired of fighting because my life doesn’t seem to change. My efforts are useless.

 

Hi. You can call me M.

I just joined hoping to find some light in this dark, dark place my head is going through.

I just stopped reading about suicide methods. Even though I’m tempted, I believe that if I’m here, it means that I have a tiny desire to live…

 

Life hit me hard for the first time six year ago, when I was diagnosed with Ulcerative Colitis. This brought pain, to me, like no other.

It randomly decides to wake up and f**k up my life. When …

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first cut since.. fuck i can’t even remember

August 29th, 2016by death bunny

yea.

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Great news!

August 29th, 2016by kamidaka

Remember I said I had a contest I wanted to participate in? Well, it took place last weekend and… I won 2nd place!! First place was given to the principal of my language school (lol, he always wins first place no matter how terrible he sings, I think it is for political reasons…). But everybody knows first place is always for the principal, so they congratulated me because they believe I’m the real winner!! I received a lot of prices and compliments from a lot of people (except my parents, they looked kind of digusted with my happiness, but I couldn’t care less at that …

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Overwhelmed

August 23rd, 2016by youwouldntrealise

So over the past month i found myself get worse and worse & decided to post on here for help and attention. I got over 10 emails from fellow users of this site and i couldnt be happier.

I am overwhelmed with how many people took the time to give a shit about me. Unfortunately it felt very repetitive having to explain myself multiple times and honestly just took the life out of me. Sorry to everyone i didnt reply back to. Im very very appreciative of the effort you all went through.

If you are reading this and feel alone or out of your depths …

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Just Being Me!

August 23rd, 2016by StacyT_T

So I am the middle child of 3 children …..

Some people would love that but I don’t. It’s absolutely hell!! My parents would always compare me to my older sister or younger brother.

You see my older sister (24) is now a nurse and is married to Matthew . A doctor who is “the perfect guy” as my parents say …… They would always compare me to her by saying “Oh you know when your sister was your age she used to do this… And do that…”

They never give me a break …

Oh and let’s not forget my little brother. It doesn’t make it …

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Scared to Live, Not to Die

August 19th, 2016by FlaminJoy

Ever since I was a little girl, living was an issue. I’ve wanted to die since I was 8 yrs old. My mother was/is evil and doesn’t have feelings like most people do. Common traits of a Sociopath; she would have a lot of sex with a lot of people just so she could feel something… Or at least I tell myself that’s the reason why. She married my dad while she was still married and had 2 sons with someone else. My dad didn’t know, but her first husband soon found out and divorced her. My dad in turn raised my two older brothers …

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