Stories of Hope


Why can’t I get her back?

August 15th, 2016by

I am questioning my worth because I caused my only person I care about so much pain that she will never have me again… I understand that but would wish that she would just see my pain and change her mind and let me back in. I know it never will happen but still I have hope because I can’t take another year without her… I am dead inside and out, it’s just going to take a while until I don’t care if I break my last promise to her.

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There is nothing more for me, need the end to set me free. Trapped in myself, body my holding cell.

August 10th, 2016by fadetoblack

I met you in my junior year of high school. its been almost 7 years since then, and exactly one month now since I last saw you. From the moment we met I knew there was something special in you, it didn’t take me more than a week to confess my love to you. From the very start I knew you were the one I wanted to spend the rest of my life with, you were just different than everyone else. Even after you moved away for school, I was always there when you needed me. I was in a dark place when you moved …

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Meaningless life

August 10th, 2016by Waffenss

I have been feeling down lately. Probably because I have been feeling like I’ve lived a meaningless life. I feel that I am not doing enough to help my fellow human being. I have chosen my work in order to help people but I feel that I am not doing enough to help my fellow human being. I would like to go on the frontline, in the trenches. I feel like my work would be more meaningful there. Maybe I’m just ranting, and I’m sorry if this bothers anyone, but I feel that this is the only place where I can say it and be …

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Today comes the verdict

July 29th, 2016by kamidaka

Today is the day, guys. Today I will take all the tests. I’ve studied a lot, and I hope I can answer at least a decent amount of questions. I’m so nervous, my whole future depends on the results I’ll be able to get. And I’m scared because if I fail, that will be the end.

Wish me luck! You’re all wonderful people! <3

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If you’re as confused as I am…

July 27th, 2016by alaskalevine

If you’re as confused as I am, you don’t know why you’re here. You don’t know what you believe in or where you’re going in life or what’s in your future. You’re confused as to why you don’t want to be here.

If you’re as lost as I am, you don’t know where to turn. You don’t know who to talk to, who will listen, or who can help you. You’re lost in a darkness that bleeds through everything else.

If you’re as depressed as I am, you feel hopeless. You know that no matter what anyone else says, you can’t be happy, you don’t quite know how to …

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You are loved

July 25th, 2016by honoringtrent

This is my first post, though I’ve perused many over the past few months. I have found a lot of comfort here, but have also felt so much despair seeing so much pain put into words.

You see, I was shocked and blindsided by the loss of my husband, the father of my children, my life partner for 11 years, my best friend, to suicide on June 13, 2015.

I plan to post more at a later time, but felt incredibly compelled to post this now…. You are loved.

I don’t know you and you don’t know me, but I hope you read this (yes, I’m talking to …

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July 22nd, 2016by kamidaka

They sent me the e-mail!! They said I am enabled to take the exams!!! It seems that they didn’t pay attention to my screwed-up application form.

I’m so happy, there’s still hope for me to go!! To be finally free!!

Tests will be next Friday, I believe I’ll do it great in languages, but I’m still scared of math. And I believe there’s no much I can do.

And I’m also scared of hope. What if I came until here only to fail at the exams? What if I stay here? Will I die this year, even though my reason

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Life after Hell is possible

July 18th, 2016by pinkcoconut

Hi all.
Just remembered about this place in a melancholy moment.
I’m doing ok. Was very suicidal for a few hellish months a year and a half ago.
I’m not suicidal now. I think about self harm occasionally, but I manage it – I don’t act on it – I do something else, like arrange to see a friend. That used to sound stupid or unthinkably difficult, but I’ve done lots of training of myself to get to a place where I’ve got habits.
My life is not perfect and I did have a shitty start in some ways, but in others, my world is amazing and I’m incredibly …

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Feeling depressed and not worth living? Then you have been lied to… (Part 1)

July 16th, 2016by beyourself

Let me first tell you a bit of my story and how I found this website – I was searching for methods to commit suicide. Why? I do not feel suicidal at all and I do not want to die at all. However, I may not have any other option. The reason for this is that there are some criminal people treating to do horrible things to me and my family, presumably because I was the cause for their significant financial losses (we are talking millions “supposedly”). While I can accept being killed I do not want my family to be affected. Therefore, my only …

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I want to to tell people my story, hopefully it helps someone find hope

July 14th, 2016by JamalK02

So, I used to be a lowkey, small time drug dealer in the biggest city on the east coast. I’ve lived in the hood all my life and who I am is simply a product of my environment. One of my first drug deals was to some tall white kid who wanted a dub of weed. I could tell he didn’t do this often, he used as much slang as he could and even tried to sound “black”. The problem was that this kid wanted to meet at a train station and i didn’t have my metrocard. I hopped the turnstile to get to him. …

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Tomorrow’s not last year

July 7th, 2016by catsnap24

Tomorrow something big is going to happen. i haven’t slept in 24 hours and i don’t want to go to sleep. I want to be taken away. i don’t want a repeat of last year. wish me luck, no promises.

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It finally arrived

July 4th, 2016by kamidaka

I feel so alive, so happy, so grateful for the existence of that thing. I’m crying of joy, of happiness, my heart feels full again. Earlier, I was doubting that this would make me feel anything, but IT DID and I’m so happy.

Everything was worth it, my mind put all the pain and reality aside to just enjoy what I had waited for so long. It was everything I had expected and more, because I was surrounded by beautiful people. I can’t stop crying.

It was beautiful, so so beautiful. And the best part is that it is real. It is real!

I can get used to …

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Four years ago today !!!!!

June 29th, 2016by noneedforaname

Hello to old friends and new. As you can see im not dead or in prison which i guess is a good thing. ( depending who you ask ) i haven’t been on in awhile, trying to be strong for eveybody else lmao. Anyways i do pop in to read post now and then but had to post today. Like many people, this is my vent. I get a lot of good advice, kind words, and a whole lotta ” shit ” off my chest. Its been 4 years today that GOD took my oldest son. He was 21 …

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Is it my fate? (part 2)

June 27th, 2016by Gypsyguy93

In my last post I talked about my ex-fiancee (gay male) who committed suicide after we broke up four years ago, I think if he knew how much it would hurt those he loved and left behind he never would of done it, but then I also understand that the pain he was going through in his mind was intolerable to him and he just wanted the pain to end…

I didn’t know my ex was suicidal, we had been together for a couple of years, I know he had PTSD and Anxiety, but I never knew about the depression…. before we broke up he cheated …

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First time on here..

June 26th, 2016by Tin_Cup


Y’all can call me Tin if you’d like.

My story and why I’m here?

Well, I was a victim of a very violent form of abuse. My father, a drunk sadistic bastard, would beat my brothers and I. Though I was left without an escape my brothers could run to school, as I was only 4 through 8 at the time.

My mother was framed for abusing us when we were young. I was 3, and my brothers were 4 and 7. Our church were the ones who framed her, and lied to DCFS which led to our being taken away from her.

I suffer from a form of PTSD, sort …

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The Opportunity in Being Suicidal

June 21st, 2016by Held

I know you’re suffering, I’ve suffered too. For years, I couldn’t think about anything else other than how much I hated myself, how worthless I was and that I deserved to die. I spend a lot of time on the suicide project, even though I didn’t write very often. Now, since a little more than a year, I’m happy and I enjoy my life and I want to share with you how I got to that place because I think this could help someone on this board.

If you’re here, you probably thought about killing yourself to escape your suffering and I’m not trying to say …

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Something I Wrote

June 19th, 2016by dessj

Homeless Girl

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Seeing the Demons

June 18th, 2016by xmwdhx

This is my story to tell and the story you should know.

Janaury of 2013, I was a suicidal trans male. I suffered depression almost 3 1/2 years. It’s very long time than you all expected. I was hurt, scared, tired, lost, abandoned, and many words I should describe myself of being sad. Every day during my middle school year and the year of my 7th grade, people treated me like an animal or a beast. I was beaten up by bunch of kids especially middle and high school boys. I was known as a freak, emo freak, tranny freak, or boy freak. I couldn’t stand …

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June 16th, 2016by death bunny

i don’t know if that’s the appropriate place to share this, because this post isn’t very suicidal. but hey, that’s supposed to be a good thing, right?

anyway, couple of hours ago i got back from an alice cooper show. you know, that singer who wears eye makeup and had hits in the 80’s. i actually really love this guy, even though i don’t know him personally. i feel like i do, but i guess any hardcore fan would feel this way.

i’ve been a fan of his since seven years ago. i even remember how he became known to me. one night seven years ago i …

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Hey everybody its been a while .

June 15th, 2016by kupo95

Sooo a lot happened since I last posted first off I’m divorced……so yup.


But before that my family found out that I was suicidal and got very mad can’t blame them tho know if must hurt them. But in between that time I was aguring with them them I not staying home and to leave me alone .



Then I opened up to my husband tell him all the pain I feel and sadness. Then he told me he been turning down opportunities to come back home for the past three months . so for some reason I  told him that I been cutting myself and were …

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