Stories of Hope


Life after Hell is possible

July 18th, 2016by pinkcoconut

Hi all.
Just remembered about this place in a melancholy moment.
I’m doing ok. Was very suicidal for a few hellish months a year and a half ago.
I’m not suicidal now. I think about self harm occasionally, but I manage it – I don’t act on it – I do something else, like arrange to see a friend. That used to sound stupid or unthinkably difficult, but I’ve done lots of training of myself to get to a place where I’ve got habits.
My life is not perfect and I did have a shitty start in some ways, but in others, my world is amazing and I’m incredibly …

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Feeling depressed and not worth living? Then you have been lied to… (Part 1)

July 16th, 2016by beyourself

Let me first tell you a bit of my story and how I found this website – I was searching for methods to commit suicide. Why? I do not feel suicidal at all and I do not want to die at all. However, I may not have any other option. The reason for this is that there are some criminal people treating to do horrible things to me and my family, presumably because I was the cause for their significant financial losses (we are talking millions “supposedly”). While I can accept being killed I do not want my family to be affected. Therefore, my only …

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I want to to tell people my story, hopefully it helps someone find hope

July 14th, 2016by JamalK02

So, I used to be a lowkey, small time drug dealer in the biggest city on the east coast. I’ve lived in the hood all my life and who I am is simply a product of my environment. One of my first drug deals was to some tall white kid who wanted a dub of weed. I could tell he didn’t do this often, he used as much slang as he could and even tried to sound “black”. The problem was that this kid wanted to meet at a train station and i didn’t have my metrocard. I hopped the turnstile to get to him. …

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Tomorrow’s not last year

July 7th, 2016by catsnap24

Tomorrow something big is going to happen. i haven’t slept in 24 hours and i don’t want to go to sleep. I want to be taken away. i don’t want a repeat of last year. wish me luck, no promises.

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It finally arrived

July 4th, 2016by kamidaka

I feel so alive, so happy, so grateful for the existence of that thing. I’m crying of joy, of happiness, my heart feels full again. Earlier, I was doubting that this would make me feel anything, but IT DID and I’m so happy.

Everything was worth it, my mind put all the pain and reality aside to just enjoy what I had waited for so long. It was everything I had expected and more, because I was surrounded by beautiful people. I can’t stop crying.

It was beautiful, so so beautiful. And the best part is that it is real. It is real!

I can get used to …

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Four years ago today !!!!!

June 29th, 2016by noneedforaname

Hello to old friends and new. As you can see im not dead or in prison which i guess is a good thing. ( depending who you ask ) i haven’t been on in awhile, trying to be strong for eveybody else lmao. Anyways i do pop in to read post now and then but had to post today. Like many people, this is my vent. I get a lot of good advice, kind words, and a whole lotta ” shit ” off my chest. Its been 4 years today that GOD took my oldest son. He was 21 …

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Is it my fate? (part 2)

June 27th, 2016by Gypsyguy93

In my last post I talked about my ex-fiancee (gay male) who committed suicide after we broke up four years ago, I think if he knew how much it would hurt those he loved and left behind he never would of done it, but then I also understand that the pain he was going through in his mind was intolerable to him and he just wanted the pain to end…

I didn’t know my ex was suicidal, we had been together for a couple of years, I know he had PTSD and Anxiety, but I never knew about the depression…. before we broke up he cheated …

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First time on here..

June 26th, 2016by Tin_Cup


Y’all can call me Tin if you’d like.

My story and why I’m here?

Well, I was a victim of a very violent form of abuse. My father, a drunk sadistic bastard, would beat my brothers and I. Though I was left without an escape my brothers could run to school, as I was only 4 through 8 at the time.

My mother was framed for abusing us when we were young. I was 3, and my brothers were 4 and 7. Our church were the ones who framed her, and lied to DCFS which led to our being taken away from her.

I suffer from a form of PTSD, sort …

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The Opportunity in Being Suicidal

June 21st, 2016by Held

I know you’re suffering, I’ve suffered too. For years, I couldn’t think about anything else other than how much I hated myself, how worthless I was and that I deserved to die. I spend a lot of time on the suicide project, even though I didn’t write very often. Now, since a little more than a year, I’m happy and I enjoy my life and I want to share with you how I got to that place because I think this could help someone on this board.

If you’re here, you probably thought about killing yourself to escape your suffering and I’m not trying to say …

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Something I Wrote

June 19th, 2016by dessj

Homeless Girl

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Seeing the Demons

June 18th, 2016by xmwdhx

This is my story to tell and the story you should know.

Janaury of 2013, I was a suicidal trans male. I suffered depression almost 3 1/2 years. It’s very long time than you all expected. I was hurt, scared, tired, lost, abandoned, and many words I should describe myself of being sad. Every day during my middle school year and the year of my 7th grade, people treated me like an animal or a beast. I was beaten up by bunch of kids especially middle and high school boys. I was known as a freak, emo freak, tranny freak, or boy freak. I couldn’t stand …

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June 16th, 2016by death bunny

i don’t know if that’s the appropriate place to share this, because this post isn’t very suicidal. but hey, that’s supposed to be a good thing, right?

anyway, couple of hours ago i got back from an alice cooper show. you know, that singer who wears eye makeup and had hits in the 80’s. i actually really love this guy, even though i don’t know him personally. i feel like i do, but i guess any hardcore fan would feel this way.

i’ve been a fan of his since seven years ago. i even remember how he became known to me. one night seven years ago i …

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Hey everybody its been a while .

June 15th, 2016by kupo95

Sooo a lot happened since I last posted first off I’m divorced……so yup.


But before that my family found out that I was suicidal and got very mad can’t blame them tho know if must hurt them. But in between that time I was aguring with them them I not staying home and to leave me alone .



Then I opened up to my husband tell him all the pain I feel and sadness. Then he told me he been turning down opportunities to come back home for the past three months . so for some reason I  told him that I been cutting myself and were …

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My suicide project.

June 14th, 2016by OddBlueBoy

Hey, they call me Odd. It’s nice to share my story with you.

First off, im not killing myself… Yet. I’m trying to push for another 10 months of living. I’ll be 18, in April. I’ve decided to tell my story now, just incase i jump the gun a little early.

Where do I start? This is kind of like a “my moment” type of thing. So, how can I personally catch your attention, long enough, to hear me out?

I’ll start by asking; “have you ever been sad?”

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My very first post

June 12th, 2016by SpiritualFire

Hi, i am 19. I have been suicidal for about 2 and a half years now. I have been a cutter…the first time i ever cut myself was grade 9(15 years old).

It was actually an accident the first time because i got really angry and i happened to have a scizzors in my hand and when i get and i hit things, so without thinking i hit the open scizzors on my arm. I did this once, saw the blood, And did it two more times… There are times when i still feel the urge to cut, but it doesnt control me anymore. …

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June 9th, 2016by HERE4UOK


Para Tristeza:
Você deve permitirnos para comentar seus posts.
Seu post intitulado “Um Grande Final” foi ótimo. Parabéns por seu livro!
Mas, principalmente, parabéns para a superação tanto em sua vida!
Eu sei. Nós sabemos. Há muito mais para a esquerda para caminhar, mas a estrada é interessante, se olharmos para ver além dos nossos egos.
Obrigado por compartilhar suas histórias aqui.

suesyd . nomore @ gmail . com
Kik: H4UOK

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Afraid of hope

June 9th, 2016by kamidaka

Has it happened to you? That things seem to be fine and promise that they’ll get better, but you’re afraid the hopes you’re building will make you suffer when everything finally crashes?

I’m trying to get an scholarship to Japan. But my biggest fears are the evaluation tests. Especially:


I’m not going to study something related to science but they’ll still make me take that exam. And I’m so scared I even cowered from presenting my application.

Everybody keeps telling me that I’m so smart I shouldn’t worry. But THAT’S NOT TRUE. I’m the only one that knows it, I’m dumb as fuck. I’ve tried, god knows how …

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“You’re So Much Better Than That.” —Cassie, Suicide Survivor

June 7th, 2016by HERE4UOK


Please reconsider. If you can’t find motivation, it’s not because there aren’t reasons out there, out here. It’s because your state of mind blocks your view and your spirit from seeing ahead. And it’s ok, remember: IT’S OK TO NOT BE OK, as long as you ask for help.

I, unfortunately, am no genie. But like most of us here, I have my past. I have my experiences, and with all due respect, unless you’re terminally ill, you have every chance at witnessing how things really DO get better, but you need to do your part too. Help others help you.

Things most likely didn’t get bad …

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Thats Rock Bottom… Depressed Badly…

June 7th, 2016by nobody312

Hi… I think that most of us here not because a good thing… Well, the same with me.

Before I’d start this post I would like point out few things:

First of all, I’m not a native English speaker, so please, if I have any grammar mistakes, feel free to correct me.

second, I was inspired to write this post thanks to a memeber who used to post here commonly 3 years ago, named ‘NotReallyHereAtAll‘. I remember… a year ago I was so depressed I looked online for people I can relate to who feel the same as me, and i somehow reached her post ‘I Want To Disappear‘. …

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“I Didn’t Want To Die, But I Felt That I Had To…” —Kevin Hines, Suicide Survivor

  SeeSmith on another post here on SP said it well: “You are the LEAST qualified person to judge yourself [when you are in an ill state of mind]”. Don’t make the mistake of thinking for others, don’t assume you’re a burden or that others are just too “busy with their own lives” to care […]