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Stories of Loss

For those who have passed on.

Lost

by Mallyjune 6/28/2017

written by Mallyjune

I don’t know what to do. I’ve never felt so lost in my life.

My ex boyfriend broke up with me two weeks ago. Because we lived together, I had to move out. Two days ago, I found out I was pregnant. When I told him about it, he stormed out and basically told me he wants nothing to do with any of it.

I’m so miserable. I wake up and go to bed every night miserable and I don’t see a logical path of it getting any better. Last night was the closest I’ve ever come to killing myself. The only thing that stopped me was […]

6/28/2017 9 comments

why God tortured me like that?

by an_old_child 6/24/2017

written by an_old_child

after years of suffering, it’s getting good at last.

i think i’m feeling happy and it seems to last for a while. the question here is, why did God tortured me like that?

i know that the day would come that everything will turn upside down again and i will feel down and suicidal -since no happiness is everlasting and no sadness, too- and i think that i’m not ready for that day.

i definitely feel stronger than before all these things happened to me – i don’t really want to say what i’m referring to by “these” – but i don’t like the idea of being put […]

6/24/2017 6 comments

Another Useless Post: I am not quaified for any relationship.

by BlueDiamond 6/17/2017

written by BlueDiamond

I need a short break from this site. I’m starting to get so OCD or too obsessed about it that it’s making me rip my hair out. Yes, this web-site relaxes me, so the break won’t be long like two days max. XD I got contracted myself. Plus, the internet is getting slow, so I need to fix it.

Topic: If you have requirements to attract a certain person, you need to look in the mirror, if you want to know why if aren’t attracting them. BTW, dating preferences do not make you a bigot. I’m not desperate for anyone, and do feel like I’m throwing […]

6/17/2017 3 comments

Legalities

by nokshus 6/14/2017

written by nokshus

As if it wasn’t already a ***** enough. Fuck sakes you deal with the trivialities daily. The unending grind and minutiae. The milieu of reckless absolvency. Fuck, you go from the boredom to the banality. It’s all stupid shit.

Introduce the legal system or any of the bullshit bureaucracy into the fuckshow that is life and it becomes a whole new ball game. Fuck the legalities and hoops it makes you jump through. For real. Fuck incarceration.

6/14/2017 0 comment

Second

by Demonqueen 6/12/2017

written by Demonqueen

He’s destroyed me.

I won’t survive in prison.

He’s got what he wanted all along.
I won’t be able to have kids.

He’s destroyed every inch of me.
I have nothing left.

6/12/2017 17 comments

the plan was today

by halfleft 6/10/2017

written by halfleft

We only shared a few words about ending the constant pain.

Wanting so badly to leave, I could not say “please stay”

I don’t know how to ask “do you still exist?” I can’t not care.

I am so tired of being reborn each moment into this tragedy.

6/10/2017 2 comments

First

by Demonqueen 6/10/2017

written by Demonqueen

I just really want to die.

The last seven years have been a blur.

But 7 years… 18-25. Years I haven’t lived.
Heck, I wasn’t even living before then.

Don’t get into a relationship, you’ll lose everything.
Time, friends, sanity, freedom are just a few.

6/10/2017 2 comments

The selfish regret

by halfleft 6/8/2017

written by halfleft

When she chose hospice instead of treatment I couldn’t argue. There was no fight left in her. Free morphine and weed, or horrible surgery, pain and more chemo? Sometimes I envy her. Sometimes I wish I had pressured her to stay for me. Then I hate myself.

6/8/2017 13 comments

To the ones who know loremaster

by My life is over 6/7/2017

written by My life is over

He is in the CCU and he tried to slit his wrist open and failed. He almost died he is in the hospital. Sorry for the death the hospital just called and said he is in critical condition.

loremaster82@gmail.com if any questions

6/7/2017 7 comments

What could be left?

by halfleft 6/7/2017

written by halfleft

3 months ago my best friend and life partner died of cancer in my arms at just 41. We were each others lives. Tied together for 22 years. Nothing anyone says seems to touch the constant pain and hopelessness. She was and had been the only thing that made my life feel ok. Now I am a ghost in a dead man’s life. I do not want to be here but I am scared to end it myself. So hello?

6/7/2017 11 comments

Goodbye

by My life is over 6/6/2017

written by My life is over

I’m gonna do it from me to humanity hold on and don’t give up stay strong.

It will be rope this time

6/6/2017 5 comments

the sunrise

by plasticflower 6/4/2017

written by plasticflower

i’m about to post things that have been going through my head for more than 10 years, but i’ve never shared with anyone. now, why am i saying it here? because no one can know. and here, everyone knows yet they don’t know; and i just need to get this things out, because i feel like it’ll maybe help somehow. last night i couldn’t sleep, and so i was sitting on the couch, watching the sunrise, when thoughts that haunt me decided to keep me company. this time, however, i wrote everything down. keep in mind i didn’t check what i wrote and don’t plan […]

6/4/2017 4 comments

What Hurts The Most.

by kellinandrew 5/29/2017

written by kellinandrew

Many things can happen in life,

This I know.

But what do you do,

When the pain is to much to bare.

You hurt yourself,

And call It fair,

You tell yourself that it is your you fault,

That you should have cared.

Now it’s to late.

I didn’t think it would happen to me. At all. Why would it happen? That is what I don’t understand, he tries to help, and I know he cares. It hurt him too, but why? Why does it hurt? Why am I so upset? The baby, can I […]

5/29/2017 4 comments

Loss left me empty

by JasonTodd97 5/25/2017

written by JasonTodd97

My mother passed away. And now Im just empty. Lost. Gone without her. I spend most of my days wishing I could just join her. Everything feels hollow and empty without her here. Before she left I was focusing on my medical and mental health. And now I work and go to school and mentally kill myself just trying to keep my head above water and Im never sure how long its gonna last. Im drowning withoht my north star. My hero. My guiding presence. She was the one who raised me and now that shes gone so is everyone else. Ive got no family […]

5/25/2017 22 comments

I Want To Die

by Todamnbad 5/25/2017

written by Todamnbad

My life has always been a living hell. Grew up in a dysfunctional family. Suffered a lot of verbal abuse and some physical. It was so bad my friends were scared to come over. That started when I was 8 years old and all that time beforehand, I had a normal childhood. It was when my mom got the new boyfriend shit changed which was when I was 8 and so forth. I was a smart kid and I considered myself smart. A and B student through high school. Had high self esteem. Didn’t have too many friends which didn’t bothered me. Lack of friends […]

5/25/2017 3 comments

First Time

by JasonTodd97 5/24/2017

written by JasonTodd97

So here I am. A 19 year old failed writer. Basically an orphan. Mom died 5 months ago now in January. I wont bore anyone with my sad story because well, we all have them.

We are all broken. But my edges are so jagged they just keep cutting deeper. So here I am. At the precipice. Invited by books about websites like this. Too curious and too broken for my own good. Maybe finding other like minding souls or falling into my own madness.

Here I am.

5/24/2017 23 comments

I need to be a human.

by Maddie.Shit 5/23/2017

written by Maddie.Shit

hey everybody,can you help me this time?this time my problem is not about my parents hating me or my overweight or friends and people around me ,this time my problem is that i lost my feelings ,dad was about to die, mother freaked everything out and finally they separated,if it was the old me ,i would have died to hear such news.if it was the new me ,i would have been very happy .but guess what?i did not give a fuck about this sometimes I wonder if someone has stolen my heart?where had all my feelings gone?right now i rarely cry ,but when i do,i […]

5/23/2017 8 comments

I want to disappear

by AJ 5/22/2017

written by AJ

I don’t know what to do.

I don’t feel anything anymore and I can’t stop crying.

I’ve started cutting again.

I’ve started drinking again.

And attempting to throw up my food.

It’s all come back so fast it feels like the world is crashing down on me and I can’t take it.

I need everything to just stop for a few days. College, the future, Time , Life.

I just need to disappear and I fear if I don’t find a way then I’ll just kill myself.

I’m so fucking tired I just cant do this anymore.

I give up.

5/22/2017 2 comments

my worth is in the comments

by Milestiba 5/22/2017

written by Milestiba

I am so stupid. All my life, I have measured my worth on the comments. Now, with social media, it is exemplified.

And I am a blood sucking parasite. I suck the life out of those who show me any attention. I can’t help myself. It is an addictive compulsion.

They tell me it is explained as Borderline Personality Disorder, but I call it torture. Both for me and the other person. The world would be better off without me.

Where can I find the resolve to finally commit suicide? The pain is all-consuming… overpowering… causing constant despair.

5/22/2017 9 comments

The Light At The End Of THIS Tunnel Is An Oncoming Train

by Milestiba 5/21/2017

written by Milestiba

Hi. I am new.

They sure don’t make it easy to get on here. I first registered an account, but found out that email provider had deleted my account. Without being able to check that email account, I couldn’t get a password. So I registered a second account and never got the email. Then I reset the password and THAT email finally came through. So, I could sign in and try and participate. But then, of course, the internet on my phone acted up!! For a person who spent the last three nights on the phone with more than one crises line each night – the […]

5/21/2017 3 comments

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