I know, weird title. The reason is that I am sad, lonely and suicidal myself and I have found out over the years that the only people who will understand my pain are those who are in a similar situation like mine. I know this isn’t a dating site but for someone like me, this is one of the only platforms for this kind of post.

I am male, 25 and asian. I am very depressed and I never have been able to get a real life romantic relationship with a woman due to my lack of social skills. I know I can’t offer anything, […]

i just want to die rn

i want to bash my head off something until it bleeds

i want to cut as the blood drains from me

if i had the diy med from MAID i would be taking it rn. my husband would wake up and find me dead on the floor. my friends would message looking for me, but i wont respond. my bff will get home from work, but my messages wont be there to greet him. nothing more than a “goodbye im sorry i had to”

JUST FUCKING KILL ME ALREADY!!!!!

love means nothing when you cant feel it and the pain is too great…….

i think sadness is so complex.

when i say i’m sad, what i really mean is

black abyss inside me filled with cigarette ashes, smashed bottles, bloody skin, empty screams and words i can’t say.

I don’t want to keep doing it. Please let me stop…..
(the mountain – 3DG)

So, I don’t know if it’s because of my size, or the stuff I used, but unfortunately I’m still here. I took the stuff at 11;30, and it’s now 9:15. Hopefully I die in my sleep tonight. If you don’t hear from me tomorrow, it means it worked.

my life is been a loop. For years I’ve been suicidal but as time goes on I forgot why. So I kept living for 6 more years still with suicidal tendencies. Some days I forget about my depression but it always come back. But looking into the past revealed the truth. I’m not supposed to be alive right now. I’ve been talking to a ghost the whole time. I just wanted be with her, be loved by her but she’s been gone for a long time. I don’t want to live without her. I can’t. I won’t survive because there’s nothing left for me. No […]

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Goodbye world, thanks for the scars, both mental and physical. Goodbye hopes and dreams, you weren’t strong enough to survive here. Goodbye family, I’ll miss you, but I can’t do this anymore. Sorry. Goodbye Makenzie, I think I’ll miss you least of all.

writing on here and suddenly my brother and his friends come into my room begging me to go smoke weed with them

i don’t wanna be sober

i don’t think they saw what i’m doing, if they did i’m fucked

does anyone know of any other websites like this one? if you do i’d appreciate it if you could tell me

i’m a confused and lost soul living in a self-destructive and cold body.

since that one event in my life i’ve forced myself to be a cold-hearted and mean-spirited person because i though it was better that way.

destroy relationships before they destroy you

leave before you get left

i’ve burned enough bridges it’s insane i haven’t drowned yet.

everyone uses the phrase ‘fake it till you make it’ for thinks like confidence and happiness,

but that little girl in me used it to become an emotionless void

and now i don’t know how to turn back.

i don’t even know if i can.

I never needed a friend who calls bullying ‘drama’. that’s offensive and hurtful to bullying victims. Bullying is bullying. Yeah.
Yeah I have reasons to care about my ex using bullying player names referencing me (although the names have stopped).
I guess my ex bullying half the server one time ‘I come here to provoke people to get a reaction for my entertainment’… yes that’s what he said. I might be biased, but this line is bullying.

Finally I don’t care about being liked or being approved by others… it’s more important for me to call out bullies than for me to be liked.

I know […]

Failure turns into regret
Pain turns into suffering
Its like anguish becomes a melody
Torture becomes a harmony
Hell becomes a symphony
Brainwashing becomes a tune
Conforming becomes obeying
Listening becomes slaving
Your environment becomes your toxicity
Then finally, your mind becomes your own prison
We all live our own nightmares
Life is the cruelest dream

Youre never on the same page. One cant have an intelligent conversation when the other person cant even stay on track.

“Yeah but my point…..” Has absolutly NOTHING to do with what i said. Ill reexplain it several times and youll continue to insist. FUCKING LISTEN TO ME! Why cant you do that?

(I don’t want to make another post)
I have so much bothering me right now but no one to talk to. they’re all busy or something. If I asked my therapist she’d say call the MMH, but I’ll pass. Even if I had someone to talk to I shouldn’t talk to them. My problems […]

Feeling ko ang malas malas ko.
malas sa school, pamilya, sa negosyo, sa lahat
yung bf ko, simula naging kami… namatayan yearly
I m so lost
I wanna die

i have lost everything, no friends, no pation, no future, family don’t want me, i have no one to turn to, i don’t have place in the world, i just exist day by day with no aim just going around trying not to think that at all just trying to be numb, idk my self sometimes, idk what’s wrong with me, why am i here? [- __-]

Again, something I don’t get to talk about in my “public” life, because it hurts too much, and it is far too frightening. I’ve tried to work through it with therapists, with no luck at all.

At the end of the day, what scares me more than anything external, is myself. This is a peculiar form of self loathing, I’m convinced because though I have looked all my life, I have never found someone else who admits they are afraid of what they might do.

The awful thing about this is that it is the closest to a self portrait as I can do as a writer. […]

No matter what, shit just happens to me.
I’m so tired of it.

Ever feel like everyone else is doing something with their lives, but you’re not? -_-