I will spend my remaining life(75 yrs) to create a computer program to upload human consciousness to hard disk.

It considers web cam as eyes and audio recording as ears and speaker as voice.

All you can do is browse internet, read all books of the world, write books, programs, design websites, create cool products

If any uploaded brain feel suicidal, what it has to do? other than visiting sp.

Unfortunately I woke up to find my mother still here because she is off this week …so she begins an early morning tirade on me because my sister has been getting in trouble lately and she tried to insinuate that it may be because I am in the state that I am in….I find that absolutely ridiculous and a stupid way of removing responsibility from my sister for her actions….. she goes onto say how I am a role model for my sister (despite the fact that I am a male and females primarily look up to other females aka her mother) and how I […]

Has anyone heard anything about lostnz? He hasn’t been on in months…I see most others here, but not him.

I can’t fucking sleep…I’m so tired my face hurts my scars and wounds hurt…I just want to breakdown again and cry…

I had a whole week to myself, no work no obligations no bullshit but things just got worse. And now that time is gone. I hurt more than ever. And I have to get up tomorrow and go through the painful process of dressing for work and getting there just to face the self-absorbed lying backstabbing assholes that feed on other humans. I fucking hate them. I try so hard to do what I have to do and because I don’t play their head games and I am somewhat honest they see me as a threat. I’m not the best person on […]

The first time I attempted suicide I was eleven, it involved a shoddily tied hangmans knot, a bag, and a closet it looked like some kind of scene out of an erotic asphyxiation porn than a suicide. It left a circle of bruise around my neck for a week. My mother had been screaming at me for days , constantly yelling, constantly questioning my loyalty, constantly belittling me, keeping me in the house for days unable to go to school like all the other little girls do. I had no other option, no one would believe me, my mother told them I was crazy, I […]

I always found that I was back on fire for life after taking mushrooms. But it’s temporary and without some kind of habitual use of it, I don’t feel connected to anything greater than myself. I’ve found that it’s the connection to the spiritual that gives me motivation to keep living. But I’ve been months without any connection to my/our higher self and I can feel myself tumbling into despair, more and more each day. I hope I can find another route to that divine heavenly place…The warmth of love and the motivation to keep going is too much to give up. I used to […]

Last night you held me in your arms and let me cry myself to sleep.
Thank you…

husband of 30 years  divorced me for a younger woman and left me  nothing no alimoney lost my house  and my job. living on my sis couch  crying dont know what to do. Lost my health Ins and cant take my anti depressant meds cant afford them.  Going to lose my car soon, then I won’t even be able  go to work.   I am so depressed and I want to throw up my hands and give up and end it all.   I look for work for hours a day.  I am not young anymore.  One day I am going to snap and do it. […]

Live fast, Die young, Leave beautiful corpse on earth

How beautiful it would be if human life span is only 30 years

Is there any standard(a group of people) that decides number of years a human should live based on some criteria?

genius: 100+ yrs( may be worth it)
suicidal: 30yrs
Owners of a company: 40yrs
beggars: 20 yrs
Leaders: 40yrs
mad: 20 yrs……….etc

I’m 34 yrs old, all my life I have battled problems, many of which I won’t get into here, some of which I will, namely the straw that broke the cammel’s back……… I battled with living with Asperger Syndrome (AS), I was bullied as a kid, ignored by my peers, especially be females…. As I got older, I was DX’ed with AS at the age of 21….. I had nowhere to go at the time so my mother let me move in temporarily with her, well, I intended for it to be temporary…. But she made me seek counseling, she lied to my counselor to […]

I’m just going to start with how getting an education and becoming successful is my top goal in my life
Sorry it’s long. . . good luck. . .
Honestly this goal as weird as it may sound is what’s keeping me alive on some of my most suicidal days. I tell myself I have somewhere to be in my future. I don’t always believe it. . . Like now. I feel like I’m going no where. I’m approaching sophomore year of college. I have great grades but I absolutely HATE the school I’m at right now.

I’ve made the decision to drop […]

im a 18 year old girl and i just cant handle things anymore. i wish that i was emotionless and my emotions constantly give me thoughts. what do i do from here… im thinking of taking sleeping pills. i overdosed on pills before and it wasnt successful…

…what do you think He/She/They/It would say to you?

I seriously believe the Creator would look me in the eye and say two words: “You failed”.

I hate it when one minute your up and the next your down. No one to talk to so you question your reason for being here. Everyone has a purpose, but whats mine? To be miserable? I’m that person that people can come talk to about anything and i’ll listen but no one listens to me. People think i’m shy but i’m just trying to get out of my thoughts and push through another day. I’ve made it this far. Guess i’m doing something right? For a change….

like , got credit to call me ? cause i dont have credit to call ou

anyone want to talk me through it?

if so , i`ll post some detailsn when i`ll wake up tomorrow , for i`m fucked up drunk now

allso , why did my first and only post here got delete?  is it cause i told some guy to fuck odd?

Hi! My name is Makayla, and I am a teenaged girl. I used to have friends and I was always happy and smiling. There was never a time when I wasn’t smiling! I decided to make an account on ask.fm because everybody was doing it and so I decided I should too to try and “fit in”. So everything was good, I would get a few questions here and there, but then all of the sudden, someone called me a dirty slut. I was confused and wondered who said it so I answered them and said “screw you.” I didn’t let this get to me […]

Don’t do that if you are feeling sad, go to a christian church, talk with a boss and he or she will talk with you, and go to the church many times you will get a christians friends, but take careful, no everybody are good people, try to do that and tell me what did happen, Salutes I’m Mark Bridges, Search me in facebook, Marcelo Puentes, I’m latin, Salutes.

Sometimes I get so sad

So sad in fact that I completely shut down

I stare blankly at the wall

And it doesn’t matter what you say to me

Because in that moment I don’t exist