Like the song I see many people on this site trying to do that, promising all these things and getting people to hold on, like with anyone’s post about peoples problems and feelings it seems everyone or many people can offer advice, but isn’t offering people false advise and false dreams also an act of cruelty it is with this in mind I have not made as many positive comments that I could of, but after all the FAQ for this site tells us that this is not a place to look for salvation and to expect to be saved it is a simple place […]

I’ve been going through the motions for a few years, now.  Living on autopilot, mostly.  I occasionally do something nice for myself; traveling to China and Europe and getting a new car and cool new toys.  Sometimes that makes me forget.  Sometimes it makes me question my decision.  It always fades, though, and the reality always returns to embrace me and remind me why.  I always smile and accept, too; death is a light at the end of my tunnel.  I look forward to it, but it is something I cannot allow myself to have just yet; I am still needed.  There is someone very […]

Basically I feel like I want to die most days. Some days I am ok, but I am a very depressed person, I let my depression consume me. I really need some anti-depressants, but I am still waiting for my health insurance to kick-in so I can see a psychiatrist. I believe in God, but I don’t understand why I feel bad enough to want to kill myself. I’ve been thinking about killing myself for years but something always stops me. I don’t think I will actually kill myself, but I have thought about how I would do it.
I am currently living in Philly, […]

Sometimes i’m just so tired of life and I just wish I could like just not exist. It’s feels like I just don’t want to do anything anymore. Nothing amuses me. Nothing keeps my interest. I just want to disappear for a while. just do nothing. Stay in the void for a few days then come back later.

You know what i’m talking about? I know it might sound confusing. Sorry but that’s just how I feel sometimes.

I can’t be what you want me to be.

Im sorry.

I can’t be smart.

I can’t be pretty.

I can’t be open-minded.

I can’t be strong.

I can’t be fierce.

I can’t be what you want me to be.

Im sorry.

I cant be the honor roll student, Mom.

I can’t be the perfect girl, Jeremy.

I can’t be the ‘fun child’, Chris.

I can’t be open-minded, Morgan.

I can’t be your hero, Shanelle.

I can’t be what you want me to be.

I’m sorry.

I’m […]

Hey there. Was going to use a fake name but it’s too much effort so you can just call me Kurea. She’s a character from a japanese anime i like.

I found this site on google. I can’t even remember what i was searching for. “What’s the point in living” or something similar i suppose. But i found it and it intrigued me. Not alot interests me these days, maybe it’s the idea other people feel the same as i do. I wouldn’t wish it on anyone though, not even my worst enemy.

I guess we’re all depressed here. Well so am i. It’ll be 6 years […]

I do not fit to this world. This is my conclusion after over 25 years. Everyone sees me laughing, doing stupid things to be the funny guy in the band, always a joke to say. But nothing of this is real, i don’t care of people, of things, of life.

All my life I thought making other people laugh will make me happy but it’s not even close. I am popular, yes, got friends calling me every days to discuss of their super lifes, and I keep saying “nothing new on my side, it’s all cool, the bloody routine”. I am tired of this, tired […]

Hi, folks. ChildOfRagnarok is back again, so those of you who wondered whether I was still alive can breathe a sigh of relief (or put away your party poppers) now.

I don’t have much to share in terms of my life. I’m studying music production at a university, my songwriting has hit a lull, I’m still single (ladies), I have sleeping problems like you wouldn’t believe and my depression is returning to me. Nothing suicidal, just the usual death wish. Not much to talk about. Anyhow, I’m here to rant a bit since everybody loves it when I do that (ladies).

I’ve talked before about how I can’t […]

We were dieing, the moment we were born.

I just want to run away, lose myself somewhere unfindable and do nothing but write things and sing things until it all starts to feel okay again. I’m tired of expectations, my own and everybody else’s. I just want to be alone with my words, completely alone. I don’t want to return until things start to make sense and I feel calmer and freer and completely comfortable with total independence. I need to learn to love my own company above everyone else’s because it’s not like anybody will ever stick around in my life for long. Sad, yes, but it’s a reality I must face. […]

That a lot of you on here are absolutely amazing and talented people. I find it extremely strange that all of you have knack for stylistic writing. Have you seen how beautiful you write? The way you describe your shattered hopes and your distant dreams. It is so heartbreaking the way you guys describe it in an eerie yet beautiful poetic way. I think that you merely writing about how horrible and hard life has been is something that should help you persevere, as that is how I am beginning to feel. When you guys write on here, I can feel your pain, and it […]

If I were to destroy myself today, you wouldnt know or care. If you are going to destroy yourself do it in your honor. Not anyone elses. Maybe if I thought you cared I would be more inclined to destroy myself in your honor.

Ever despise someone so much you’re willing to commit the murder of self right in front of them… I used to say you can only hate someone you love so hate does not apply here. One may be feeling feelings undescribable, far from hate. These feelings affect self directly, that’s how soul deep the wounds are.

See the thing is one cannot lose […]

yes i lived in a poor home , yes i was raped as a child, and yes i was all so abused and beatten ,yes my father was never in my life ,and yah my mom had too many responsiblities to care for all five of us so i was raised by T.V,despite all, my brothers and sisters are all doing fine but me i am crazy to them, i am constantly depressed and i cut my self a lot and in the end of a normal day i would find my self on the edge of our roof top or holding a knife and […]

So I’ve been thinking it might be a good thing to go back to therapy I’m some what scared. But it might be a good thing for me…I need help..

Talking to yourself all the time, is very lonely.

One of my friends told the head of my school everything. My depression,the cutting, the suicidal thoughts.

Now everyone is laughing at me, indirecting me and I can’t fucking be arsed with it. The girl who is supposed to be my bestfriend has tweeted twice about me,

“I want to commit suicide for no reason at all lol :):):)”
“Cuttin my wrists at the moment bcos my friends care about me x”

Charming, right?

So there I was, a couple days back – sitting alone thinking oncemore about how shitty my life is (I’m in my 20’s, have a university degree, but no one will give me a job, im lacking in major social skills and have never had a GF – still a virgin and havent had any friends for years). 90% of my time outside of my house has been to the Doctor or my Therapist.

To digress, I’m sitting here and decide to “take some pills” (i wont detail everything). I take a few (slightly more than Ive done before just when Ive felt bad), then I […]

Not too much to say except, I came a long way but never really reached that mountain top. It’s a long way down the hill now and all my dreams lay dead below.

I’ve never really met anyone like me. I feel trapped in my own head. I can be so superficial, really, to be honest. And I am ashamed of it. I don’t know if  there could have ever been any other way for me, but I remember it all started by trying to scape the pain I was feeling. Movies kept me alive in a far away land where beautiful girls were loved for […]

Ok–I’ve been on this earth for 45 years. Im in decent shape & until I lost my job made a decent living. For the past 30 years I have been building up my courage to commit suicide. At various points in my life I have tried suicide. Cutting, sleeping pills and have thought of running my car into a truck (but why ruin some strangers life) so I have not done that. Many people have told me that life gets better. By living I have proven that hypothisis wrong. My point of this post is to state that were I sucessful in my first attemp when I was […]