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i am  18 and live in sri lanka…
well  the whole thing started when i 1st attend to a class,,,there was may friend and there were more then 100 pretty girls..  but the thing is  that there was one looks very special to me, i didn’t think about it at that time but with the miracle of time my mind actually went nuts..actually, i  even didn’t think  in the 1st day that i will be so crazy on her.. but the problem was that i have never ever talk with her but whatsoever she didn’t forget to smile with me every time she sow me in […]
Hey people 🙂
today is such a beautiful day. Sitting at work and waiting patients. Finally sun came to my dark country.
I’m glad by myself – finally i went out if my depression mood. Now it seems funny. It took me 1 month crying and drinking, then 1 month standing up. Its not fair, love shits and lost boyfriend made me act like a dumb. I don’t remember i was crying last time so much 😀 I guess i was missing memories and good time together. He was really great man and will always stay my soulmate.
each relationship teaches me something. This time i […]
April 14, 2012 The only one we will have in our lives. Please try to do something productive or something that makes you feel good. Even if its something very small. Please post if you will at least do something for yourself today. Tomorrow will be april 15, 2012 it will also be the only one we have in our lives so if today you can do something for yourself maybe tomorrow you can do the same. etc. etc. etc.
theyre are so many people in need to past and present people on this line i need to talk to people in need and make new friends email me at jessew1050@yahoo.com or look me up jesse wallis friend mentor big brother or friend whatever you need i will be theyre
I posted a few days ago about my death day being June 1st…well, I think it’s time now. I’m ready. No regrets. (For any of those who read my post earlier, this does not have much to do with that.)
Hopefully, this will be my last post forever. I would just like to tell everyone here “Goodbyeâ€. I know that people post way too many suicide notes here each day, and they all start to blend together after a while.
I would like someone, even if it’s only a few people, to know that this was not a decision made in haste, like so many other teen […]
My name is Dalton. I used to feel like I was dying a little more each and every day. I don’t feel like that anymore, because I’m pretty sure I am already dead. On September 21, 2011, I got tired of trying to be happy and worrying about it all the time. I left work early without saying anything to anyone. I got about a mile from where I worked at the time when I saw an 18 wheeler coming towards me in the other lane. I knew that that was it. I took my seat belt off and jerked the wheel towards the oncoming […]
Even my friends abandon me in the end
fair-weather and clear skies bring us together
Strife and storms bore us apart
When things work out they’re there for me, but
When I’m in need, they flee
I’m too much, I’m a downer, I’m lost
I’m not worth it, I’m unfixable, I’m depressed
Why try to be what I’m not, just to see anothers response
When on the inside I’m just completely done?
I see the world for what it is, my views aren’t distorted
There is no love, no care, only hatred.
And when I say it aloud I draw a crowd of lies about
What is an angel in disguise?
Is it something I am able to feel-
Or to trust for my soul-
To follow of home.
Is it a human?
With warmth as a offering-
And words like a snake-
So it poisons the brain.
Every book has writtened papers-
Of feeling free,
No more worries on my shoulders.
Oh does this angel somber alone?
Or walks in the day-
Like the rest of us.
Noboday ever seems to be home-
In the house welcoming.
So little children-
Run off to alleys,
Learning life the wrong way,.
But will there angel,
Come swoop down-
Hover around there […]
A lit cigarette-
Sits on the table-
Letting out fumes of disgust.
No there is no windows-
Or lights on the ceilings to show-
The yellow painted walls with-
Blood stains.
The air is dusty and unbreathable.
Cupboard doors hang off there hinges-
And look inside.
There is cracked plates-
With gold rims.
Lower we go to the stove-
In between the small cracks,
Is dirt and grim-
That seems to hover onto the counter tops.
The floor is slit into two-
And lies a knife and a spoon.
Closer to the door-
It is dark and tragedy,
Of people seeing the dead.
When it […]
Just need to vent here, because I vowed I’d cut this person out of my life after what happened, so I can’t actually send this to them. Also, I feel like it’d be kinda pointless anyways. Enjoy my hate mail!
*****. ****. WHORE. WHAT THE FUCK? Is this your idea of fun? Getting someone to completely trust you with their darkest secrets and then utterly and completely betray them! You are fucked-up. WHY? I don’t understand. You promised you’d never do this you fucking whore. You are weak and cowardly. You couldn’t even look me in the eye one last time. Am I the only one […]
I don’t know why I am writing here again, I just feel so alone. Not that I think loads of people will comment me here, but I hope maybe someone will.
I feel so stupid, when I’m all alone and crying for no reason. I was in an really bad depression and I would do anything to not get back to that. It’s weird. 30 mins ago I was thinking ‘Hey, things is great right now.’ But now I’m crying and really don’t see any reason to keep living.
I don’t know what to do when I feel alone..
So you have the accent of temptations,
The soul of thirst-
On a prey that wants your taste.
You have the eyes-
Kills each heart in two.
Your words have its way-
To get in people’s mind.
Twist them up like-
Poisoned vines.
Each movement you make,
Is innocent with flawless beauty.
How can this be?
You are too sweet-
And devillish.
The air you make us breathe-
Is light and delicious.
Yes,
You have your smooth ways-
When you want something to feast on,
When the hunger of fun-
Starts with the easy ones.
I just need to know that someone understands so I don’t feel even more alone.
I have pretty much been suicidal at different parts in my life since I was 12 years old. (so its been 6 years)
I feel crazy and like I can’t control myself. I know I will never commit suicide because I am too scared. Not scared of death or pain but of failing. I wouldn’t want to fail and still be on earth. That concept seems pretty difficult to explain so I don’t expect anyone to understand that.
Most of all I feel crazy. If you guys knew me you would never […]
Late at night when the house is quiet
And the neighbours are asleep
And the white flattened spheres are
Begging me to punch through their foil
Tear through the knife drawer, jump off
The roof and dance my way into hell
I walk out the door.
Down the dark streets, down the back
Alleys and dark playgrounds and empty
Churches and roaring loud pubs and
Dark corners outside street lamps,
Hooded teens huddle outside the
Kebab house ignoring me and happy.
I walk along the street.
And look up at the stars, hear the sounds
Of a sleepy city nightlife, see the little
Squares of light twinkling in the invisible
Blocks of flats and suddenly I smile, ever
So slightly. I am not […]
completely give up. I’ve lost all hope…I lost every person that I once had in my life. I now have no one. I am gone very soon. goodbye :’c :’c
I look at my self in the mirror.
I see what I’ve done to myself.
I fall to my knees crying thinking.
What have I done to myself?!
I make up another lie.
I say im sick so I dont halft to go to school.
So people can’t see me like this again.
I read the stories about how bad other pelople have it.
Yes i have nice things and a roof over my head.
But in the end all i want is someone to hold me close
and tel me how much they care and love me
I had somthing close untill he killed […]
I love the taste of your lips and how it feels. I love how you make everything feel completely un-real.
I love how you REALLY make me laugh and smile. I love how this has lasted for a while.
I love how no matter what they say you still look me in the eyes. I love how when I’m with you for once I don’t want to die.
I love how you give me hugs. I love how you actually are attracted to my ugly mug.
I love your eyes. I love how they stare back into mine.
I love how this feels so real. I love that our relationship is such […]
hopefully 2012 will fulfill this wish. I JUST NEED TO RANT k? I wish I could be abducted by aliens an be taken away to their planet where things might actually make the least bit of sense. I clearly don’t belong on earth. People seriously miind blow me. I wish to be alone or with alike people. I don’t get myself or anything, Actually I only get myself, I dont ‘get’ other people. I don’t want to do much, i don’t know where to start, nothing gives me fulfillment because it just seems so insignificant to the whole universe, yet its funny how I can’t […]
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