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I feel like i bother people. I feel like i make them worry to much. I feel clingy for some reason. That every time i talk to people i always think that why is she talking to me or why wont she leave me alone or that why is she bothering me. Its always the reason why i keep silent at times. I always know i bother him. I really don’t know why. I know he must be ignoring me since i havent talk to him since last week. It saddens me that i can’t be that special confident girl. It seems like i can’t […]
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Hi,
I don’t like my life. I am fed up with the society, their hunt for career, money, sex, drugs and no more rock n’ roll, but rather Lady Gaga & co.
I don’t like the fact that you have to be very good at something to truly enjoy it > so you have to train hard and overcome many obstacles, which is PITA for me, since I don’t like something that’s totally uncomfortable. This rule doesn’t apply to only a few things, mainly for the pure consuming like watching TV/movies, listening to the music and eating. And if you eat a lot, you become fat, so […]
Since a brief stint of involuntary commitment more than six months ago, I have fantasized a lot about killing or hurting the doctors who locked me up. In my less enraged moments, I settle for slashing their faces rather than killing them. I fantasize that the scars disfiguring their faces will be like marks of Cain showing the world what monsters they are on the inside. Yes, I would go to prison and society as a whole would condemn me as a mentally ill maniac. But I would have a chance to proclaim my side of the story in court. I would tell the world […]
Hey everyone, how are you guys? Look i know many of you don’t like my post, but im not going to preach (as some of you say), i just want someone to listen… and i would like it if you all leave a comment. Anyway i am 15 and i am in foster care, and i promise you I HATE IT!!! I had a episode and i almost got sent to another foster home. So if i was to move homes again my next place is Savannah! I don’t want to go there because then i won’t get to see my family. The only reason […]
Nobody outside the internet knows about my plan to end. I even feel rather bad by writing such to people here because everyone has their own issues. My fsmily thinks I am going to a monastery somewhere.
Have been on these types of sites for years after my first attempt years ago. And many people have suggested many ways to keep living.
And the strongest way it seemed was to help others. However what I learned was that no matter how much I did that, nothing changed. I was glad for them but I needed at least one rational aspect for me to stay.
And I could think […]
so i have not talked about myself really. and i guess i will now, since im really bored right now. my name is Gabby. im 16, gonna be 17 in april. i live by chicago. i moved here from lithuania when i was 9. i wouldnt want to live in any other counry, but i would really wanna live in either San Francisco or Las Vegas. ive never been to either of those places but they seem very unique. my favorite color is pink. i love art. i watch a ton of movies all the time. im still a sophmore. i have strong beliefs in human rights. […]
You know how people say they have their good days and bad? For me it’s like that, but on an hourly basis. Does that make sense? No… for me either. It’s like one moment I feel fine. The next I’m worried. One moment I feel like I can go out there and face the world, the next I’m so scared to step food outside my bedroom door. One moment I’m so guilty with things I’ve done in my life, the next I could care less if the next time I closed my eyes I’d never wake up to see the light of day. I go […]
going to jail ‘ January 6th for 54 days… I might end it soon. really hate how life is fkn me! btw I have severe social anxiety………. jail is the worse place for me to be, trapped in a room with a bunch of crack heads… fml
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I am 22 years old and have been depressed for the past 7 years of my life.  It began when I realized I was gay and it ruined my family relationship.  Everybody in my family, my mother, father, sister, and brother are completely against this and think that I have chosen this lifestyle.  Honestly, maybe I did because I’m a masochist, as the rest of the story may reveal.  They also consider it to be a sickness, a severe mental pertubation.  They were extremely abusive, physically and mentally, berating me and physically attacking me when anytime we had an argument about sexuality.  My mother and […]
The place I live in right now is killing me. Every passing day I stay here, I see everything I ever wanted in life slip just a little further away. All my hopes, my dreams… Always slipping away. People here dont accept me, the curse of being an outsider in a small town. I hate it here. My family thinks its a phase, but its not a bloody phase, and they are as much a part of the problem! They’re just as closed minded as the rest of this community. Religious zealots always wanting me to live my life, but only as long as it […]
My ex boyfriend still means the world to me, and it troubles me because i know he’s not happy with life, at all. He is always telling me stories about how he just wants the hell out of this place, we have “Fake fought” and i’ve seen the scars all over him, he shot himself last february. February 22nd, thanksfully it wasn’t successful, but i realized that day if i had lost him i would be a complete diaster, i wish i had the power to make him happy, i wish he would change his outlook on life, loosing him is the scariest thing.. i […]
A friend was sopose to be there for me
A friends was Going to die with me
A friend was going to stay forever
Now a friend is gone
Now a friend is lost
Now a friend is never at peace
They should be ashamed…
Today is my birthday (its the 8th dec here in Australia) and here I am feeling like crap. The past 2yrs ive considered suicide, looked at different ways of doing it, some are obvious choices, others arent, as i fear the pain. There are several reasons why Id wanna end my life – i was born with several medical probs, which im stuck with for good, im not exactly that smart, intelligent, common sensed, or good lookin, ive been unemployed for too long, trying to find work has been a mission, specially because im low on confidence, never had luck with girls, ive had g/fs […]
I used to think about suicide all the time. That was years ago. Since I have had my daughter it has been a rare, fleeting thought. Something I knew I could never do. Never do to her. But lately….
Things have always been hard, even before I split from my husband. All the usual shit, he cheated, we fought… blah blah blah. It was so long ago I don’t even really care anymore. I managed to make it with the baby on my own, but it was never easy. I don’t remember a time where […]
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In my mind it’s been a reoccurring theme over the years but has started to become a daily constant. Death, the end, what a wonderful solution. No more conflict, misery and chaotic me or them. Probably just a case of depression and being ‘sick and tired’ but I’m starting to feel real inflexible with the world. Someone famous once said “hey, you’ve got to hide your love away”…. yes I agree. There was a potential to achieve positivity, well being for all, peace and happiness but the opportunities have been badly managed, inadvertently wasted and lost, time after time after time. So, time to rebuild […]
was actually a pretty good day, I’m talking to my Bestfriend again, and I had no bad thoughts. I even woke up in a good mood and when thy happens I try to stay in a good mood. The only depressing thing is, I know these days don’t last. I know that at the end of the day I’m going to be laying in bed thinking. I hate right before I go to bed I just start thinking because I over think everything. And that’s where my depression is the worst. Let’s hope I can talk to my Bestfriend to night before bed. I’m not […]