I’ve been thinking of suicide these past couple of months. The feeling comes and goes. The feeling is generally a bit of depression. But no extreme feelings. Right now what I feel is – inadequate in my job, lazy, and not wanting to do things that will excite me. In saying that, i’ve been playing with my bass guitar, and zoning out. I know a little bit about depression and its symptoms – irritability – yes it is there in small degree, and loss of interest in activities – kind of… I still have interests… The feeling of depression comes on more and more […]
My little brother is the only thing that makes me hesitate in taking my life
I do not want to traumatize him.
ok, I’m 39. I met this girl 12 years ago. I fell in love with her from the SECOND we met. She became my everything. We dated, and married. I love her completely. But, she was mean! Always so very mean to me. I never measured up…Her name is Kathy…
So, I moved from Colorado to Ohio to be with her…We married and lived in Ohio for 5 years. Then we had our first child. I love that child Sophia. Kathy was always so mean to me though. But I’m telling you I loved her! Well anyway, we had our second child 3 years later…this would […]
I have just taken about 60 mg of klonopin, a bunch of alcohol, Robitussin, and Benadryl. I think I may die. Oh, God please, let me die!
well i guess this will be half rant, half just general stuff, so here goes.
everyday i get up, and always want to roll back over. I dont want to face everything. life, people and i guess me. I cant really focus especially these days, i dont want to do anything except die really. Im so….different than everyone. Its not that i live a shit life. my parents are there as often as full time parents can be, so pretty often and care and such, i have many people who like me and want me around, im not the dumbest person around and so on. a […]
Shit i was really trying the heal my wounds, cause this itching driving me insane.
But it the only thing here for me at the moment
No one cares in this moment
(Not using my real name)
I am a girl who always thinks that I am ugly, never noticed, or even talked about. Drama happens about me weather starting a nasty rumour about me or just plain mean. I wish one day I’ll out shine the mean girls, now I’m where I am, I’m a surfing queen and famous for my surfing. I have faith and once I got a job, I was thrilled it was modeling, I now have a long life career ahead of me and hope that one day all you guys have a career ahead of you as well. EVERYONE loves you. Don’t […]
It seems my dream are braking into my reality
Sleep became my escape when life becomes to hard to bare
That my eyes glaze cold of death, blank stare
that inside is dead
There is no soul looking through the face , facing you
the life-mares makes the runing endless when your minds the enemy
Sometimes i wonder if it the world or just me,
Cause though i feel betrayed by socitey the people around me seem to surive much better then me.
It make’s me feel hopeless that no one feels they should die , and escape with the lost souls
The more i […]
I am 34 years old, and I am dying one tiny slice at a time.
I have a medical condition which medical science won’t even acknowledge. Why? Because those are the bastards that caused me to slowly lose control over my body, with pain and slow degeneration of my brain.
Do not ever take levaquin, cipro, avelox, or any other quinolone. It will be the worst thing you have ever done in your life.
I sit here and agonizing pain in my legs keeps coming and going. I have no strength in my back and little in my arms. I can barely string […]
what did i do wrong? was it the way i look, talk, or see things in a different view. Why am i always the one being mad fun of. I didnt say anything at all and you wanna sling words my direction. If my life is ment to be let this. I dont wanna be here any longer. They told me to say something back. What i do. Nothing. NOTHING! i dont wanna be invovle in anything at all. Now you wanna try say hello to me after what you just fucking say. Fear and dread in ny silence cause it seems your fake!. I […]
I figured the easiest way to explain my situation is to bullet it out just so people can see the extent of everything im trying to cope with right now.I’m a 20 year old college girl. Dealing not only with pain from the past but now the present jsut doesnt seem to be getting any more worth living.
growing up i had a bad childhood, my father is an extreme alcoholic who constantly beat up my mother and myself when i started getting old enough to attempt to stand up for myself, her and my younger brother.
i’ve watched my dad attempt to kill himself twice, once […]
First off, I suppose I should say hello or something, so, hello. Second, I know this is a lot to read, so I apologize in advance and I don’t blame you if you skip over any of it.
A while ago (not sure how many years, I was in middle school), I was diagnosed with aspergers. At first I didn’t question it, as it provided a good reason (and a convenient excuse) as to why I was so socially retarded, not to mention I fit many of the other symptoms, such as repetitive behavior, weird interests / obsessions, clumsiness, social anxiety, etc. Some time later, something […]
I just found this website and I find some comfort in knowing I’m not alone. I’m a 26 yr old male. My first attempt was over a year ago and honestly, it was amazing. I purposely overdosed on medication. It was a saturday around 2:00 pm. I fell asleep or became unconscious shortly thereafter. At 7:00 pm (I could see my clock from where I was laying) I became conscious again. I knew immediately I wasn’t breathing. I felt paralyzed, but I really didn’t try moving anyways. The first thing that came to my head was a choice: I could either try to breathe, get […]
Great. I’m now known as a lesbian because apparently I don’t look like a girl. The minute I got home, I felt like cutting. I don’t look like a girl…….? What….
This is bothering me so much, and I don’t know why.
I didnt do it.. BLEH i regret I didnt do it. but they way I was gonna do it need to be a little nosy and my mom and dad were sleeping so I didnt wanna wake them.. anyway, thanks for all the helping comments ! BTW; I think Im actually gonna give life a fift chance! I gonna regret it but I dont wanna hurt the people I love that much. They are really amazing and I know I cant stand seeing them in pain because of something I did. Why would I be so selfish? Even though I did try to kill myself […]
change 2 things about the world/people and let’s build our own utopia. add and subtract something, then repost the list
+eviromentalism
-racism
I am so unhappy. I’ve thought about suicide since I was 11 or 12, and once my grandma, who is the only person in the world who loves me, dies; I die too.
Why do you want to die?
What’s driven you so far off, that all you could think of is dying?
What measures do you take to forget the pain?
Is life really no longer worth living?
What’s your story?
I’m 16 years young.
I’ve had a bad childhood, and it seems that every year, everything gets worse.
I’ve attempted suicide twice.
Once, because a guy that I fell in love with treated me like dirt, and he went through two months without talking to me. He acted like everything was supposed to be okay. I didn’t hear a word from him.
I finally got so depressed, that I took all of my dad’s medication..
I was then sent to a therapist and was prescribed.. what’s the medicine called.. LexaPro.
The 2nd time, was because of the same guy, but also from things that I have done and I regret, and […]
 I have been alone my whole life. my dad killed himself but told us he was doing it. my mom remarried and yeah that guys brother abused me sexually, my mom knew and let it happen than mad me move in with the man when i was 14. im 30 now. I have tried and failed at killing myself over the past 16 yrs. im a single mother. but i get little to no joy from my kids. I love them but the pain i Indore everyday out ways the good they bring. I have never been loved by anyone person. my life has […]