I was in a really bad place last night, just freaking out and over whelmed. i tried to call friends, and nobody answered. I tried to call the suicide hotline and was on hold too long. I tried to distract myself and failed. I ended up cutting a lot. Now I’m covered with cuts, I probably should have gotten stitches on one of them, but I didn’t. I can’t wear long sleeves at work, and I work all weekend. I’m trying so hard to keep people at work from finding out, and maintain a “normal” facade. I think I’m probably failing on all accounts. Really […]
I promised myself that I would never make another human being feel low about themselves ever again, but you have taken things too far, and now I’m left with no choice…
Are you REALLY that much of a pathetic, attention-seeking, little brat that you need to post rude and obnoxious thing on suicidal stories that way someone will notice you? What, do mommy and daddy not love you enough? Are you not getting enough attention at home?
Oh, well I’m sure all the people on this site that you’ve treated less than human will be here for you!
The people who post their stories on here […]
so i decided to cast a spell. each day for a month i put my focus into building my death. i was over life on earth, it hurt too much. love seemed missing, everyone was feeding off everyone else and society was mad. about a week in and i found myself booking a flight, a month later and it was christmas, and i was in new zealand. the spell was supposed to go like this: i would be swimming in a warm sea, surrounded by dolphins with a warm sun shining. i’d then dive down and at the deepest i could swim, take a breath.
ive realized recently that i most likely have an anxiety disorder and depression. when i think about anything changing in my life i get this panic in my chest. it makes me feel physicly ill. when i wake up for school this dread washes over me. i dont know why i love school i get to see my friends and i get to do things that i enjoy. but every morning i get this terrible feeling in my stomach and i usually feel like im going to puke. its not like i get bulllied at school i have a pretty good school life. but the […]
My parents are kicking me out of my house. I’m eighteen and about to start college next week. They said that I can stay here until September, to find a new place to live.
What did I do to make them so mad?
I stayed out all night without letting them know where I was. But, I promised my friend that I wouldn’t leave his side. He called me and needed me to be there so I left. I held him while he cried and told me how much he wanted to die. I rocked him to sleep, safe in my arms.
So, screw my parents. It was […]
I am here as a reaffirmation of the fact that I am a Free Man and I am the only one in charge of my OWN destiny. And to reaffirm the fact that I have the STRENGTH to complete ANY task I undertake.
I can do anything that I want to.
I can make that happen.
I can do this.
I can do what IÂ want.
I and only I control my future.
Or for those looking for the same idea in a one liner…..”Git er done”
I think Death IS the Ultimate Expression of Freedom.
There ARE worst EVILS in this World, then Death……..
Much worse…..
A lifetime of Fear and loathing… Self Rejection, Low Self Esteem, not knowing how to deal with hurt emotions nobody could understand cause everyone else was as heartless and shallow as I was… I am coming to a fork in the road of my life… i post on here to experience my emotions… something I was not taught by my dad… one thing my dad wasnt was a emotionally mature Man… my dad would beat me with jump ropes, fists, bang my head against the wall… verbally, mentally and physically abused… then tell me to stop crying or he would give me something to cry […]
I want God to kill me. Â I want to be struck by lightning or hit by a car or something. Â Nothing ever gets better. Â I like to pretend one day a pretty new girl will show up at school and maybe she’d like me and we could become friends and then eventually she might want to be my girlfriend, but that won’t happen. Â There will never be anybody out there for me. Â I’m gonna die the way I lived, alone. Â My family and I have never gotten along and my friends seem like they don’t like me, they just hang around me because it would […]
So, here’s my tale of woe. I’m 40 and everyone in my family is dead. I have Asperger’s syndrome, which makes it almost impossible for me to interact with others or form anything like a close, meaningful relationship. My life seems so empty and pointless—one struggle after another with no break and no reward. I’m not really sad or hurting anymore (now I’m mostly numb) but I am so very tired!
I want the sleep that Hamlet craves:
“To die: to sleep;
No more; and by a sleep to say we end
The heart-ache and the thousand natural shocks
That flesh is heir to, ’tis a […]
Well yesterday was an horrible day. It was the day i found out my best friend died and i wore all black for him. Got sent to guidence where they knew i was going to commit suicide and they knew my plan. Send my mom to the office telling them everything. Offer calling the criss center and now i had a criss person in my home trying to help me :L. Now its today im stuck at home cause i didnt want to go to school and i sitting here thinking is it worth all the trouble to save my life. I just found out […]
I’m a regular university foreign student.
I’ve been spending on credits and the debt is now gone to $6000, which I must repay by next month or legal action will be taken.
with only $700 in my bank account, I do not know what to do.
As a student, I do not know how to repay the debt by next month… as a foreign student, I do not know who else i can depend on too.
I’ve been in denial stage for quite sometime, which causes this debt to grow.And I find myself going into denial again,with my brain telling myself everything is fine and ok…
I think I need […]
I feel so odd at the moment.
My ex has been talking to me somewhat lately, he was talking to me more than usual a couple weeks before but now he’s just scaring me.
He went to bluesfest with some friends and two of the friends who were with him (also very good friend of mine we’ll call them Sally and Tom and my ex Matt) and some random person randomly bumped into Matt.
Tom and Sally both told me at different times but had the same story and others agreed with them, that Matt turned around and punched this kid and knocked him out cold.
Matt and I […]
I’m not going to get into everything that has gone wrong in my life during the past 10 years. Trust me, I was one of the strongest. I was one of those who lusted after life. That was then, now is now. I will cease to exist soon. And no one will even know I’m gone. No friends, family, nothing…. Hoping to have all my materials tested and ready to go for a Sept 5th Departure. Wish me luck. I am genuinely excited.
Feel free to email me or message me w/Yahoo Messenger. Â Think they are on my profile. Â But please no matter how well intentioned […]
I’m fourteen . I’m a very bad kid . I think I’m pregnant . I smoke . I drink . I feel dead inside . I feel like I’ve let everyone down . My ex boyfriend , who yes , I’m in love with … makes me so upset . He used me like a freaking playtoy . For eighteen months . I feel like a whore . Right now , writing this , I’m attempting to kill myself . Took fifteen tylenol . I want help . I want to save myself and this baby . But my heart can’t take this . I […]
I don’t know i feel like I’m lost right now. I feel as if I’m floating out in space, not able to take control of my life. I finished summer school and passed and that was such a relief. But i don’t want summer to end, because i don’t know what i want to do, my options are get a job or finish high school. And to be honest I don’t want to do either. I just don’t want to be here anymore. I think about killing myself everyday. To be honest the only thing stopping me is my parents. I cant do that to […]
I am dead inside… why wait any longer for the outside to catch up
For some, find themselves in the in the chasm of their misery. They find themselves and create great art such as music & poetry. I have done such things, that was a long time ago. Today, the only thing I see when I close my eyes, the only thought is a noose. In Middle School we used to do this thing to make one pass out. Many may be familiar, it’s where you bend over causing the blood to rush to your head then straighten up quickly while someone squeezes the side of the neck preventing the blood from flowing and you pass out […]
Hello everyone, I’m going to start off with “It’s been a while since I have posted here” Or even looked at this website. I would have liked to believe that I was getting better, but it seems that things only got worse. I know people and they call me their friends, even though I’m just the “drop by and say hi but that’s it” aspect of their life. I also get very mad easily. I have my opinions and when people act like they are wrong, or like I shouldn’t have my own opinions, well that makes me very mad. I hate when people tell […]
I thought I was nothing once…
It seemed I was a small, insignificant part of the world, and when I died everything would keep moving forward as if I didn’t ever existed in the first place. My hopelessness… my struggles… they were all too much for me. I was ready to die, not knowing what was on the other side, but hoping it was better than the hell I was living.
I was two years old when my parents divorced. I was the daughter of a 24 year old Sunday School Teacher and a beautiful 18 year old High School Graduate, but others in our community […]
suicide is suddenly becoming a very interesting and easy way for me lately. with all the problems that keep on piling, suicide is becoming very, very pleasant by the minute! i know its like a coward’s way out but i don’t really care.
these are my problems..first off, i became an illegal alien in the country for 3 years. my source of funds is the occasional work that i’ll have for a few months and my savings. i’m living with relatives but i’m slowly becoming a burden so i decided to just pay someone to marry me for papers. i was married 3 months ago but […]