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I am a monster I deserve to die

  February 22nd, 2010 by Adam

I broke up with my girlfriend because we were living together for a year, and she never did anything. She didn’t have a job, she sat on the couch all day smoking weed and playing video games. I worked so hard to keep us above water, but we were sinking. She’s the love of my life, and I pushed her away. To try and get over her, I fell for whoever came first. a woman with a husband and daughter, but I didn’t care. Now I am alone again. I feel nothing. I’m 24 years old, and I havent cried since i was 9 …

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Help

  February 21st, 2010 by just_there

I really don’t want to sound like a sob story on here, but I need to say something, and I don’t have anyone I trust enough to say anything to. I won’t say my exact age, but I will say I’m a young teenage girl. My grades are good, and it seems like I have friends to my parents, which to them is all that matters. I feel as though I wear a mask all day long, pretending to be the person my parents want me to be, because whenever I show them the person I want be, they disapprove of it.

It really doesn’t make …

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I am so lost…

  February 21st, 2010 by wesleysgranny

All I ever wanted was family.  I have four sisters and one brother.  Only one sister, and my brother talk to me.  My family sort of forgot I was alive after I was diagnosed with multiple sclerosis.  I have had several failed marriages.  I can really pick them.  Drunks, drug addicts, only I didn’t figure that out for a while.  I don’t drink or do drugs.  My longest marriage lasted 14 years.  We had two kids.  He cheated on me multiple times.  I can’t live with cheating.  My mother wasn’t a good mother in some ways.  She constantly told me, and my siblings, that she …

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I Shouldn’t Feel This Way.

  February 21st, 2010 by xMandyMoneyx

What the hell… I’m so tired of this. Everybody says they care.. everybody says oh Amanda.. I love you, I wouldn’t do anything to hurt you… and yet.. go and talk shit.. GO AND SAY SHIT ABOUT ME TO RUIN ME.. and they know they can do it SO easily. Take away the people who care.. and just turn them against me. I once had a person in my life.. who.. I could go to with anything in the whole entire world.. the person I could trust with my absolute life.. we talked for so long.. and about EVERYTHING.. and I… I loved him …

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hmm

  February 20th, 2010 by z

the world would be a little less miserable if you just did the deed… go for it quit feeling sorry for yourself

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I Want To Die

  February 20th, 2010 by sc

Fuck anyone who says shit like…I know how you feel…I know what you’re going through….NO ONE KNOWS HOW I PERSONALLY FEEL!!!!! I am 52 years old and I’m DONE!!!!! I’ve fucking had it….The only absolute solace is death…..We all will go through it. I just don’t want to wait any more. I won’t commit suicide, but I am resolute in my ultimate goal….willing my life to end…a lot of innocent people die before their time. I am not innocent. I am a sinner just like the majority of people in this world. This is just my opinion and I am stating this as a fact …

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dont know anything

  February 20th, 2010 by hotcool

i am just 23 and already feel tired everyday don’t know what to do also don’t want to talk with everyone i don’t call back to my friend also mostly. feel like dying every minute now and don’t feel like coming home also but i stay mostly at home . so i can stop fight between mom and dad

we never had a single day without a fight for past years it has increased so much the fighting is everyday goes on . when ever my dad is home i feel like they we fight any second . i can’t concentrate on my studies at all …

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i can’t stand it anymore

  February 20th, 2010 by vkay

There was a time in my life when I wasn’t such a pathetic loser… a point in time where I was happy and had no real worries about anything. I was blissfully oblivious of the fact that other kids were making fun of me because of my immense weight. I have always struggled with my weight, and right now I’m about 185 lbs, give or take.

I want to commit suicide because I can’t stand being here anymore. Nobody loves me. Nobody cares about me, besides my family, but they don’t count. They’ve known me for all 19 years of my miserable existence, and sure they …

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kisses kept are wasted

  February 20th, 2010 by la.ignara.artista

fuck fuck fuck it all. i cried myself into a laughing hysteria and smashed the mirror with my bare hands. Fucking reflection. fucking animal. fuck you. it was early. perhaps 10 or 11 and i was bent on killing myself. there was an Intense discomfort inside myself and i was crawling out of my skin at last. I’m alive. fuck. “just die already you piece of shit” i thought to myself. The pain and scars from molestation, being held at gunpoint, constant abuse, anorexia, self harm, self acceptance. it all came down to this. i was wrapping a wool blanket around my head until i …

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In my restless dream…

  February 19th, 2010 by Masquerade

I had a great life until I got raped and sick almost 5 years ago. Since them, I’ve been trying to get my life back.

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  February 19th, 2010 by Izzi

I’m 18 years old and my family have made me into someone I hate. Ever since I can remember my sister, who is two and a half years younger than me, has been vile and unpleasant. She has turned my Dad into someone completely different, someone who refuses to listen to anyone, who drinks all the time, who is violent and cold. My Mum has Bipolar and has attempted to overdose at least three times that I can remember, directly as a result of problems caused by my sister. My sister is now six months pregnant at 15 and my parents are supporting her. The …

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  February 19th, 2010 by germain51

Suicide is somehow comforting.

To me the worst is accepting I am trapped. I am miserable, and yet my situation is a paradise to most of the world. You can not change. You have to live with the pain. I imagine that this is how a parent feels, sometimes at least, you do not listen to your self anymore. You can’t, it’s someone else that matters now. Your life exchanged for another.

You can’t die. You must live, you must cope. Who ever ever gave us the idea of free will? It feels more like a sick joke then reality for most. Everyones life is just …

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I don’t know how to go on

  February 19th, 2010 by Sanguine

I’ve been depressed, with suicidal thoughts, since I was fifteen, when a boyfriend decided it was time for me to lose my virginity and let his parents get me drunk on champagne to facilitate it.  I’ve overdosed, jumped from heights, and cut myself, to the point where my shoulders are covered in hypertrophic scars which look like worms burrowing under my skin.  I’ve tried church, and only ended up disappointed when in schismed – and the boyriend who got me into it told me ‘Gad says we shouldn’t be together’ but that it was okay for us to keep sleeping together.  I’ve coped with mania, …

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This is too whoever “Jenzea” may be

  February 19th, 2010 by minnie

This is my first time posting my story about suicidal, i was honest and just felt i had no more will to live and i found this site in hopes to try to figure out or maybe find hope again in some of the stories shared on this site. So i decided to post my story up in hopes to find some comforting words thru people that read it. Well this person that goes by the name that is mention above commented on my story. I thought great finally someone that knows how i feel, instead she turned it all around and …

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What to do?

  February 18th, 2010 by cilla12

Every day i wake up n want to know why im still here, my life is not that amazing others who are dying n have more to offer 2 this world are dying everyday due to medical reasons, I could save lives by giving up mine. I have been a door- mat my whole life n live n a house where no emotions are showed, can u imagine growing up n not being hugged by your parents? I am truely a Bill to my “real” father n my mom never lets me forget that but she never complains when that check comes. As i …

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Change

  February 18th, 2010 by heartbroken92

I was in love with someone for over 2 years. 6 months ago they left me for someone else..and it seems each day is a struggle to face it. I’ve tried commiting suicide over 6 times..each one different.. I’m just ready to find happiness and for the tears to stop falling…will I ever be good enough for someone to love me and not take advantage of me? Will it ever be enough to just throw it all away..some days I just sit and wonder..Crying softly to myself cause no one understands or is even there to help. I’m just lost and confused.

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Ugh.

  February 18th, 2010 by xMandyMoneyx

FUCK.THIS.

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  February 18th, 2010 by 77evergone77

im done. i fuking give up. I don’t care anymore, im tired of all of this. Just do me a favor and tell me the best way to kill myself before my parents or anyone can find me.

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  February 18th, 2010 by 77evergone77

“My hand floats along crystal waters,

and i cant help but wonder,

How long could i last under the surface?

Am i the next person

to stay long enough?

Im unsure.

im wondering whether or not it’s real.

and the only way to find out,

is to jump

just like jumping off the tops of buildings,

or drawing a hrd

cold line on my skin with the razor

My hand floats along crystal waters,

i cant help but think

how long could i last under the calm surface?

long enough?

when you know a seven nation army coulnt hold these feelings back

its time to let go.”

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Self Harm.

  February 18th, 2010 by Suicidexholiday

Carefully laid out on my lap is my black hand towel, and my tin, right in the middle. I open the lid of the tin, and stare at its contents. What is it about a razor blade, pill bottle, or any other sharp object.. That is so aesthetically pleasing? What is it about a razorblade that is so intricate? I could just sit and stare at these objects for hours on end. Analyzing every fine detail of its shape, and the capability it has to do anything as long as my hands guide it. What about a pill bottle? Knowing that you are holding what …

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