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untitled

  August 8th, 2006 by faithmarie18

I few weeks ago when i was at my friends house my ex-boyfriend was over there hanging out. Im not supposed to be around him because about year ago my parents found out that i had sex with him. Well my mom was on her way to get me from my friends house so i was saying by to her and my ex-boyfriend. I had went to give him a kiss on the cheek and when i leaned in we had kissed. The guilt had got to me and i finally decide to tell my current boyfriend. I kinda …

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dun ever trust a guy

  August 4th, 2006 by susan

i just broke up with my boy friend who i dated with him for three weeks. i felt bad when dumped by him. he fooled me around.and i just wanna commit suicide coz i love him badly. why guy always betray the ex when new girls come across.i hated guy………..i wish he will never get fall in love again. so tat he wil not hurt others.wat kind of living hell.save me from hell.pls…………

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to give hope to those who have lost a loved one to suicide

  July 29th, 2006 by Grocott3

I want to share something in the hope it will bring some hope to others
I lost both parents through suicide and I do understand the impact it has on those around who are left behind
What I want to say is that in the beginning it was so painful and I was lost wondering if they ever cared
Today is different and I am happy to share with anyone if it will help you to get through
love and hugs Lynn
please feel free to email me Grocott3@aol.com

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I know what its like

  July 20th, 2006 by Crowing

I know how u all feel i want to kill myself since i have a sister and brother whos disable he kicks bites cuts me and if i do anytrhing bk at him i just get sent out of the room or wacked and my sister does my head in all the time she im so depressed and im only 12 and havent lived fully yet and yet i wish i was dead i get abused by my family like they forse me do all the things i dont want do and scream at me i get shouted at all the time on cristmas and …

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Alone

  July 12th, 2006 by jabmanc1987

i find it hard to write this, i feel silly as i have not had a hard life, my family is not extremely wealthy but we do ok, i had a good education and im now at univeristy. i suffered badly from depression wen i was younger and used to cut myself and attempted suicide a few times, although never seriosuly i think. however i thought id sorted myself out. yet since i have come home from uni 4 the summer i can feel myself slipping back into m old ways. i have started cutting again, which is so hard 4 me coz i cant …

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Mom

  June 30th, 2006 by bye<3

i know i’m not suicidal, yet i am going through a tough timje, and i need to tell someone.
My mom and i never get along, today was one of the worst cases of our arguments. It started off just as usual, she forces me to do my chores, i argue back, then the argueing continues. In the end she basically told me she wanted me to go live wiht my dad( they are divorced).”if you keep acting this way, then maybe i do want you to live with your father full time”-mom. And once when i was about 10 we had a horrible fight and …

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ridiculous

  June 23rd, 2006 by iamsickofthisalready

So it is all sort of really pointless if you really want to give someone a wake up call and you know better because people don’t change. Don’t put your head in a clothes bag in the closet and then bang on the wall when you start to lose air. He isn’t coming. He already heard you [sic- me] hitting your [my] head against the headboard about a 1000 times trying to knock yourself [myself] out (by the way he is in the loft next door and there are thin walls) and ignored you [me] then. He knew I probably wouldn’t have the courage and …

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Disillusionment

  April 27th, 2006 by Tomaga

I used to think that things were always going to be bright, new, and shiny. I swore to myself that nothing would go wrong, that i had all the potential in the world, and i could over come anything. My parents always assured me of this, and i could always put my mind to something and master it shorter than anyone i knew. But i never did manage to develope socially, and i grew up with few friends and even fewer people that cared for me.

I went through high school thinking that i was gay for the first two years, seeing as …

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Someone help me?

  April 22nd, 2006 by Edwina_Humpalot

I was a man not so long ago, but i have recently underwent an op and can now enjoy the joys of womanhood. I knew the dfficulties of what would come with this, but i have wated this for so very long. As much as I knew this would be a problem in forthcoming relationships, I could never have foreseen my life as it is now. I met a wonderful man at a bar, and continued a close reltionship with him. However, when it came to the bedroom, I had diffiulties in explaining why my mangina was so…disfigured (the op was done …

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Its all about timing

  April 15th, 2006 by TehCo2didit

I was going to write a story like so many before me detailing my previous suicide attempt and how I failed at even that but my story isnt worth retelling.

My life has been one of deprivation, whether it was food, clothes or an education I’ve missed out on pretty much all of it. I did get my state funded high school certificate though, yay me. Essentially I’ve reached a point now where im unemployable, I have skills and abilities and an intense drive to succeed in whatever I do yet with these attributes still no one will give me a chance.

For the past …

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Large Dose of Pills

  March 31st, 2006 by abyssrider

Well, I am on this site reading people’s situations and just can’t seem to find one similiar to mine whatsoever. I am 27 years old and I am completely lost in oblivian. I still have a huge scar running down my arm from when I tried to kill myself at 13 years old. Since then I have attempted suicide twice. Once I took about 100 aspirins when I was 15 and would have died but my mother found my suicide note in my room. My last attempt was when I was 20. I took an entire bottle of welbutrin. I was rushed to the hospital …

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I cant leave them

  March 21st, 2006 by Fortress of Tears

Well I know that I cant ever leave my family. To many ppl depend on me. I have a 9 year old so , a husband who adores me. But I cant get over the pain of my past. Things wont go away, I keep hearing voices in my head, telling me to hurt myself. I used to cut when I was younger and that helped w/ my inner pain. I promised those around me that I wouldnt ever do that again, so that is no longer an option. I used to be able to stop the voices but now they are so

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Don’t know why but I hold on…

  March 4th, 2006 by a_secret

I don’t know what I’m doing on this website. I’m not the kind of person Lifetime would want to make a movie about. I’m optimistic, I’m hopeful, I’m happy. I’m the kind of person that makes my mother sick when SHE’S depressed because I glow. But the truth is, the heart of man is such a complex thing. Here I am wanting to make something of myself, wanting to live a good life. Wanting to do something for others. I grew up in Christianity and for the early parts of my life it gave me the only hope I had. But now without that, now …

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Life?

  January 15th, 2006 by anon

To everyone who’s posted on this blog –

I’ve read some of the entries, and I’ll finish reading the rest once I get the time.

I’m depressed too. I was suicidal, now the thought of it gives me very little comfort.

Are we weak? I don’t know. Are we different? Perhaps. I won’t judge you.

I only know that we’ve got to love ourselves regardless of what other people and results tell us. It is so hard.

If there is one thing we’ve realised, it is that life is pointless. Nothing matters. There is no purpose behind anything.

We exist the same way a rock, or a plant, or a microbe …

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tired

  November 25th, 2005 by tired

i wonder why everything is such a struggle for me. i am tired, you know. i think i’ve had enough. i’m 39 and i am a loner that is alone, don’t even have someone else to want to live for or feel guilted into living for. parents dead, no family, no siblings, no spouse, no children, no friends, no job, no energy, no hope. i pretend that i live a life that i want or at least something approximating it. in other words, i lie. i make things sound good, far better than they are, even to myself. most of the time i pretend …

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no more pain

  October 17th, 2005 by Kate

I am 56 years old. I am tired of trying to make it in this world. I have struggled, and did what I had to do to live, and always looked for love and acceptance. I raised my kids by myself, they don’t need me to be a burden in their lives now. They are grown, married, and have families of their own. I cannot offer anything more to anyone, including myself. I have no more to give. I am not needed, wanted, and I don’t have a way to survive. I am scared, and mad at being forced into this predicament by circumstances …

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feeling … not feeling

  October 4th, 2005 by overwhelmed

i am feeling so overwhelmed, that i dont even know what how i feel anymore…is it possible to walk through your own life so numb? not knowing what you’re doin who you’re seeing, talking to, you know you’re hungry but you’re too tired to eat. too tired to sleep. too tired to take a shower, to change… i know i have to work to support my kids, but it’s all too familiar. at least they put a smile on my face…most of the time. i’m such a disappointment – in my parents eyes. failed marriages, three kids, repossessed cars, careless with money. maybe i should …

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i wish it was all over

  September 11th, 2005 by lostandhopeless

i rememeber the first mornin wen i woke up from getting of that plane, i was crying, shaking, dissrrientated. i had just flown from my home to another country, leavin my friends my familys, my life, to start over agaun. i didnt wana go i wanted to stay but i couldnt. wen i came i started using drugs, but that fuked up my mum, she got depression and ended up into hospital numerous time, so did my friend, she had an eating disorder and tried suicide numerous times. i found this so hard to deal and i wanted to die to, but i couldnt, …

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Out of all people, it has to be those two.

  July 19th, 2005 by stealth

What would you do, if you are in my shoes? Experiencing what im experiencing now? What if two people that you care most. Somehow betrade you shoots you with their words? This pain I can’t bare, it feels as if i

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no answer still & 35

  July 18th, 2005 by krisparker

I have lots of freind and good family
i dont want to be selfish but im never happy
i would like to end it all some how
and i just want everyone to understand its what i want….
please… I dont want to be here anymore and i never asked to be here.

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